Preface –
Bella Side -
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be.
It's that time of the month again, but not that time of the month if that's what you were thinking. It's the time where I drop everything I'm doing, and just mourn. I mourn for the loss of my love, my whole life; I mourn for the fact I have to put a mask to hide the pain; but not just any mask. A demeaning one.
Edward Side –
I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be.
It's not that I don't love her, I do; I always have and I always will. These past months have been hell, my own personal hell. I sit in my room and just stay there all day and night. It's probably not healthy but hey, I have a right to do this, I broke the love of my life's heart, and she will probably never forgive me.
Bella Side –
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be.
I've been fretting the days that come, hoping that I wont see him, although I do actually want to; I just don't think I would be able to handle it. Then what would be the point of this pathetic mask? I can't even bring myself to say his name, aloud or in my mind. So what would happen if I had to look at his face again? Or even worse, talk to him. I shuddered at the thought of the outcome of that. I would probably end up on the ground in tears.
Edward Side –
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be.
I'm in love with Isabella Marie Swan, this dead heart that I have, has always silently beaten for her, and only her. What am I suppose to do? Go back for her? Remain away from her for her own safety? Only time will tell…
Bella Side –
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be.
I love him so much, but I don't know if I can ever forgive him. I guess if the time ever came, I probably would. But until then, I'm just going to keep this ridiculous mask up and healthy.