I looked up at the stone arches because
I hadn't been to a school in five years because
Johnny wouldn't have let me go
But he got married and
Now Johnny doesn't have enough time for me and then
Mary(Johnny's wife) said to Johnny
"Don't worry she'll be fine and we'll have more alone time"
And he said
"Good idea honey and I'm sure that by now she's over it"
And I wasn't supposed to hear that but
The vents in our house are all connected and
They were talking kinda loud cause
They had had wine
I wasn't in the kitchen with them cause Jessica said
"Honey your brother and I need our alone time"
And I went upstairs because I know what alone time means
And when I came down the next day
Johnny had made pancakes and
He said
"Hey honey guess what you're going to school it's a boarding school in France"
And I nodded because good, I'm glad to get back to my education but really
Good, I'm glad to get out of this house because this house
This house, I don't like for a very good reason
And that reason is
I'm psychic which not everyone likes
And they call me psycho
But I'm not maybe Barry is he says he buried a farmer's daughter(alive) on our land
And he said
"You'll tell them right that I killed her because I feel so guilty"
And I just say yes, of course I will but I won't because
I don't know who they are I don't know why he feels guilty and
I live in Manhatten so Barry must be old
(Too old for people to remember)
But Jack
(He's one of my favorites)
says that it takes a special sort of person to say yes but not mean it
And Lizzie is like a mom to me she didn't do it she says
And I believe her because
She's so sweet she makes you feel like you matter
(Even if everyone says you don't)
And she cried when she heard about my parents and no one cries
About a house fire leaving a little girl orphaned unless
Someone knew how that felt so Lizzie
Must know.
But now I have to walk through those gates and
I can hear someone there
But they're not really there because
Someone walked right through the woman calling to me so
I sigh and
Walk through the gates and
Lizzie's next to me and
She's saying good luck just
Go to the factory if you need me because
Lizzie can't go on the grounds you see because
On schools only ghosts who went there can get on the grounds and Lizzie says
She didn't go to school so
I was alone without her when I went to school and after school
She would cry
(The way ghosts do)
And say sorry, I'm sorry, I should've gone
And I just say don't worry about it I don't mind but
I do mind like how I mind right now when a boy walks no runs into me and
Stays on top of me for a few seconds and we have eye contact
(Not much but now I know his deathnumber(041623)and I hate knowing that) so I
Push him off of me and
Some of his friends are giggling
But
One girl comes over and
She has long black hair and she's wearing pink and
She looks like my mom so I kind of stare at her while she helps me up and she asks
"Are you okay" and I
Nod because I can't say no I'm not because I'd go to the
Infirmary and ghosts hang out there and there's
Too many voices and I turn and the boy is talking to me and
"Sorry I wasn't watching where I was going are you okay"
And I nod because I can't say no I'm not because I'd go to the infirmary and
Ghosts always stay there to welcome new people in and he snaps
His fingers in my face
(Like that'll make me here him better)
And says
"Are you sure" and
He's holding my shoulders so I shake out of them and nod yes and then I
Realize my suitcase popped open and it was
The one with all my clothes in it and
Johnny says I'm an early bloomer so
You can guess and I'm
Hurrying to get it back in the suitcase and the boy blushes and
Closes his eyes and the two other boys do too but
The girls (three) help me get it all back in my suitcase and
I'm red
(Like Marie)
But not and I finally
Get all my clothes in my suitcase and have it shut and I hear Lizzie giggling and
The girl who helped me stand up says
"Hi I'm Sissi who are you"
And the two other girls roll their eyes like
How Sissi but I think
Sissi seems really nice
(Nicer than the boys)
So I say
"Beri Mae" real quiet cause
When I say that they call me
Pie and
June and
Mayberry and
Mah bury and
Berry sad and
Psycho but
(Not till later) but the girl smiles real big and says
"What a cute name are you looking for the principal's office" and
I nod yes but don't talk because I
Only say that one thing when I go to school because
My voice sounds real high like a
Powerpuff girl but
I'm not I'm barely a
(Normal)
Girl
But the girl(Sissi) smiles and says
"Here I'll show you where to go" and
I just follow her and she
Asks me questions like
"What grade are you in"
And I say
"Eighth" because even though I'm
Ten I still know a lot because
Lizzie and Jack and Barry and Marie all tell me about their life so I know
A lot about history and
Al, he's one of my best friends, he taught me about
Math and Science and then
Charlie he taught me about
Books and psychology and
Vinny he taught me about art and
Amadeus he taught me about music so I know
A lot about the world around and behind me and then Sissi says
"Okay we're here" when we get there and I just say
"Thanks" and I walk into is office and he sits there with his arms
Folded like he's disappointed in me but I make eye contact and he softens and says
"And you are" and I say
"I'm Beri Mae Finch" and he nods like I see and says
"Here is your room key and map and class schedule" and I nod because
Yes, thank you very much but really
So can I leave and he says
"Go ahead and get yourself settled in I'll have my daughter Sissi show you around" And
I realize that the girl who seems nice
(Sissi)
Is the principal's daughter and
That's why the other kids don't like her and I
Leave the office and Sissi says
"So I guess I'll show you around" and I nod because
Yes, that's what the principal said and she shows me my room
(I thank her) and I
Unpack and put up a poster and hear someone behind me say
"So this is the girl" and I
Turn around and see a woman
(Ghost) leaning against the wall because
Well, there's no other place and she says
"Hello" and I
Nod because I want to be polite and she smiles at me and says
"How do you like my daughter" and I say
"Who" and she says
"Sissi" and I say
"She's really nice" and the woman says
"You remind her of her sister her sister died when she drowned in the river" I say
"Could I meet her" and the woman sighs and says
"I haven't seen her yet but you might be able to" and I nod and the woman turns sad
"Should I go" she asks and I say
"Yes please" and the woman nods and floats down through the floor and I am happy she's gone because I still have to unpack.
