This is a short tragic story. It will make you cry. Trust me. I did. And I'm the one who wrote it.
Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans. Nor would I ever want this to happen to be a scene in it.
Why
Beast Boy POV
I lay in bed in our room. Too grief stricken to come out of our room still. I haven't left since the day of her funeral. I am a shell of my former self now. As I slowly get up the daily ritual starts again like every day since my life ended.
Knock! Knock! Knock!
"Come on B. You've got to come out of there sometime. I'm worried for you man."
Sigh "Cy...just please. Leave me alone." I said in a tired voice.
"B." Pause "I know you're taking this hard man. We all are. But you can't just stay in there forever."
"I know. I'm sorry Cy. But I'm still not ready to face it."
"B, this isn't helping you out by doing this."
"I know it isn't. But there isn't anyone who can help me with this either. The only one that could have helped me isn't here anymore."
"But B-"
"Just, please, Cy. I still need to be alone now."
Sigh "All right man. I'll come by again tomorrow if you change your mind then."
"Okay."
Pause "And B."
Pause "Yeah."
"I still miss her too. And I don't want you to think you're alone without her." Walks away from the door.
I wait, knowing who's coming next. And then another set of steps sounds outside the door.
Knock! Knock! Knock!
"Friend Beast Boy, are you still in there?"
"Yes Star." I said in my tired voice still.
"Why won't you come out here and be with us?"
"I can't Star. It just isn't the same anymore without her."
"I understand that friend Beast Boy. I do still miss her as well."
"Don't worry Star. I won't stay in here forever. Maybe tomorrow." I lied to her.
"Just remember you still aren't alone in this Beast Boy." Walks away from the door.
I wait again. Another set of steps comes toward the door.
Knock! Knock! Knock!
"Beast Boy."
"Let me guess, you want me to come out of this room too Robin." I said with sarcasm.
Sigh "Yes. And I know that as your leader, I should be ordering you to put this behind you and come out of there Beast Boy."
"So why aren't you telling me to do that then?" I said in a slightly bitter voice.
"Because one, I know you wouldn't listen to me anyways. And two, I know what it feels like to lose someone that's close to you. How you feel like it's your fault that it hapoened. I know all to well just how much pain that causes to someone."
Pause "Does the pain ever go away?" I said finally having to hold back the despair in my voice.
Pause "I can't answer that for you my friend. Just know, if you ever need someone, I'll be there for you. We'll all be there for you. You aren't alone in this Beast Boy." Walks away from the door.
I wait. I almost hope that this is a nightmare and that this time, the one person who I really want to talk to will knock on the door next. I clench my knuckles hoping for a miracle to happen this time.
But nothing still happens. This has happened every day for the past two weeks since I refused to come out. I slowly get up off our bed and walk around the room once more. A tear comes into my eye as I examine it once again.
'To think I thought it had been creepy before.' I look to the desk and see her mirror still laying on it. I go to the mirror that had pulled me into her mind once before hoping that somehow, this time would be different. I pick it up and look into it again, trying to make it happen again focusing all my thoughts on her.
I fail. Again. No red eyes or claw appears to bring me into her mind. I put it down, trying to keep the tears at bay, but failing now. Tears slowly fall from my eyes.
I look up into her vanity to see someone who looked like me. Only his hair was wild and messy, his face was sunken. His eyes were red from crying.
I look away towards her nightstand. On it rests a small square case wide open for the world to see.
Inside rested a small gold ring. It had not been shown to anyone else. 'Not even her. If only I'd had the courage to ask her.'
On the top was a beautiful amethyst with a diamond raven on top of the small stone. As I pick it up, I see the lettering on the inside of the ring.
My Angel, My Life, My Raven
I stop trying to stop the tears anymore as I bury myself into our bed. Despair making it's claim on my heart. I dig my nose into her pillow trying to find at least a trace of her lavender tea scent that helped to calm me down.
But it is now long gone. Not even the slightest trace from before when she had been alive. I find I am surrounded by my friends, yet they were all wrong. I am alone now.
'Why?'
That was the question I'd been asking myself, every day, ever since Raven took the hit from Adonis that had saved my life.
And ended up killing her instead of me.
'Why, Raven?'
I see her body hit the ground. The life draining from her crushed rib cage. The smile she had looking up at me one last time as she whispered her very last words. The words that were the answer to my question.
"Because I loved you Gar."
My name is Garfield Mark Logan.
And now, I am alone.
Author's Notes:
This brought tears to my eyes as I wrote it. I don't really know what to say. I couldn't do any work on I'm Sorry today since I had no access to my laptop up till now. This is what I did write with my phone. Please tell me how you felt with this. I don't really want to try a repeat of this story again.
Allen
Allen