Hello guys!

Yeah, I know... Again something new but I also really had to write this one. Couldn't stop thinking about it so yeah, there you go.

I guess I have a lot of work to do if I am deciding to continue every story which I started lately haha :D Could take some time for me^^ I just love writing as you can see xD

I hope you like it and please apologize the appearing mistakes! English isn't my first language.

Enjoy ;)

Dumai

Prolog: Suppressed memories

Lost in thoughts Elijah Mikaelson sat in his rambling office and starred at his documents right in front of him. Again and again he spun the pen between his fingers. No, today he just couldn't concentrate at his work even though he wasn't able to say why.

Actually it was a beautiful day. It was late summer and the sun heated him through his big windows. His black jacket hung over his office chair as it had been too hot for him.

He sighed and loosened his tie so that he could breathe better. Somehow this day was really strange. Actually he should be happy because this even he would meet his sister Rebekah who invited him at her apartment. His brother Klaus would also be there. Even though they all lived in New Orleans they hadn't seen each other for a while now.

Elijah was also missing his two other brothers Kol and Finn. Finn was living in New York and Kol was traveling around the world right now. Due to that he hadn't seen them for an even longer time as he had no time for traveling by himself. Finn had always been the most reasonable sibling – besides himself. And Kol… Well, he was very impulsive as his other brother Klaus was as well but still Elijah loved them.

They used to live all together in one place but their father Mikael and their mother Esther hadn't made it easy for them. Nobody liked Mikael as he is used to be a very aggressive kind of man and Esther was only truly loved by Finn. Both parents are strange in their own way and actually they hadn't harmonized from the beginning which is of course the reason for their divorce soon after all their children moved away.

Since Elijah was a self-dependent lawyer with his own office he nearly hadn't any time left to do something else. He really liked his job and he had also employed other lawyers but still he had a lot of work to do and sometimes Elijah doubted his decision that he had opened his own office.

Rebekah mentioned that she had a new colleague at her office which she invited too this evening. Elijah of course immediately looked through her intention. It seemed to him like an eternity already that she was trying to pair her own brother off with a woman – which Elijah didn't like at all.

Yes, he was single since a while even though he had offers from women but at the moment he just didn't want to have any woman in his life in that way.

His last relationship hadn't lasted that long which was actually caused by the problem that Elijah still loved a woman which he had been together with a lot of years ago. He tried not to think about those old memories.

"Mister Mikaelson?", suddenly a voice startled him out of his dark thoughts. "Please, excuse me I didn't want to startle you. I just need… the documents about the newest case which you wanted to look through", his secretary explained to him.

At first place Elijah didn't get what she meant so he just stared at her as he cleared his throat quiet embarrassed.

"I… uhm… yes, of course there you go. Thanks", Elijah replied as he put all the sheets together and gave it to her quickly even though he had to admit that he hadn't read them completely.

He already thought that she had left as he put his face in his hands but suddenly she approached him again.

"Elijah?", she said while using his first name so that she again attracted his attention.

Elijah straightened himself up and sighed as she looked again at his secretary. Actually he wasn't pleased that his employees saw him in that condition but right now it somehow didn't matter to him.

"Hm?", he answered simply.

"Is everything alright? You look very bad", she stated and looked at him with much worry in her eyes.

She was a very kind person. Her name was Lisa and she applied at his office as it had been quiet new. They had immediately some kind of sympathy and even though she was overqualified for this job she accepted his pay. They weren't friends at all but still they liked each other so they sometimes used their first names.

"Thanks for asking, Lisa. Kind of you but everything is alright", Elijah told her which didn't sound convincing at all.

"Why don't you take the rest of the day off? I and the others will handle the office. You are going to meet with your siblings this evening, don't you? Some distance will be good for you", she chatted up him while he dreamily stared at his desk.

He really had no clue why he was in such a bad mood today. Well, if he was honest to himself he felt pretty empty since a while. Due to the lack of time he had nearly nothing interesting in his life. Of course he owned a great apartment and he could nearly buy everything he wanted to but as is known money alone doesn't make happy.

"Yes, you are right but I can't. I still have an appointment with Mister…", he started but she didn't allow him to finish.

"I know, no problem. I will shift the appointment. Shouldn't be that tragic", his secretary explained and smiled friendly at him.

Elijah sighed and shook his head while he was also lightly smiling now.

"Okay, I will give up."

He stood up, grabbed his jacked nodded at her thankfully.

"See you at Monday, Lisa, and again thank you."

"You are welcome, Mister Mikaelson."

Meanwhile it was evening and after Elijah had spent several hours at his sofa to relax he was now on his way to the apartment of his sister.

He felt better now and even though he was happy to see his siblings again he wasn't in the mood to deal with Rebekah's try to get him a new girlfriend. If she really wanted to try that again he would just leave. Elijah loved his siblings and he would appreciate it to spend some time with them but if she would try it he would definitely leave – even though he didn't want to spend another boring evening in his apartment.

As he rang at her door it didn't last long until she stormily opened the door.

She was living in the center of the town but still she had a very pretty apartment which had a perfect size for one person.

"Elijah! Finally!", she said very happy as she immediately put him into a tight hug. For a short moment he already had the feeling that she wanted to crush him to death but then she let him go.

"Yes, hello Rebekah", he replied and finally grinned a bit.

"But you do actually know that this is no meeting at your office which I invited you to, don't you?", Rebekah asked him surprisingly.

"Uhm, yes of course I do know that. Why?", Elijah answered irritated.

"What the hell? Why are you still wearing your suit? You are even wearing a tie! Seriously? You are totally overdressed", Rebekah said and shook her head while she started laughing.

"What's wrong with my suit?", Elijah wanted to know with a raised eyebrow.

"Ah! Now I know it! You dressed this way because of her, didn't you? I can't believe it! You finally changed you mind!", she said and her smile grew even bigger.

"No, Rebekah! I am warning you: If you will try another time to…", he effervesced angrily but she didn't let him finish his sentence.

"Okay, okay, I see you haven't changed your mind. What a shame… Well, forget it. Come on! But please try not to look that furious okay? She won't like that."

"Rebekah!", Elijah growled through clenched teeth but she didn't care at all. She just took his hand and leaded him into her living room.

"There you are! Hello brother!", Klaus greeted him from his place at the comfortable armchair.

Meanwhile Rebekah took his jacket and put it at her hallstand.

"Overdressed", she whispered in his ear as he looked at her in a very annoyed way but still he let her do it. Mostly it was useless to contradict her.

"Hello Niklaus", Elijah finally answered to his brother but actually he didn't pay much attention to him.

He looked around to see that mysterious new friend of Rebekah. Of course she would introduce her to him even though he asked her not to try that again – that was his sister. Hopefully this woman wouldn't talk that much as the last one did. Elijah nearly freaked out that time even though he would never do something like that in normal circumstances.

"It has been a very long time. How are you? You are really looking… stressed", Klaus just continued talking as he saw Elijah's face but he didn't answer. Again he was completely lost in thoughts.

"Hey, I am talking to you, Elijah", Niklaus added as he clicked with his fingers right in front of him as he had made his way over to him.

"Huh? What? I am sorry I didn't listen", Elijah admitted and smiled apologetically at his brother.

"Yeah, noticed that. I said that you are looking very bad, brother. Not to say you look like shit", his blonde brother bantered him.

Okay, Elijah had to confess that he definitely hadn't missed the direct kind of his brother. Still he had never been different.

"Well, not everybody is able to lose his job every few months like you do only to relax at home", Elijah replied angrily.

"Ouch!", Klaus murmured but still grinned provoking. "Just admit that I am the biggest loser in this family for you", he added in a played hurt way.

Elijah only shook his head.

"I never said that."

"Hey, you two, stop it! Instead of pissing each other off you could tell me where Hayley did go, Klaus", Rebekah interrupted them and looked inquisitively at her brother.

Completely shocked Elijah turned his head towards his sister. Did she just say Hayley? That couldn't be… No, this name wasn't that rare after all. Certainly it is someone different and the cold shiver which ran over his back wasn't even entitled. But still this name released something deep in his heart which seemed to benumb him.

"She said she just wanted to go to the bathroom", Klaus answered. Now he was again sitting at his comfortable armchair and sipped at his whiskey. After all it was still pretty early and it was a bit strange to drink before dinner but that was typical Klaus.

"Ah, I see. Elijah?", Rebekah replied and paid her attention now at Elijah as she noticed his quiet shocked look but he wasn't able to answer anymore.

"I am here, Rebekah. I just needed to…", Hayley started while leaving Rebekah's bathroom and returning to the living room. As she noticed Elijah she just interrupted herself and immediately stopped walking. Disbelieving she stared at him.

"Hayley?", Rebekah asked her quiet irritated as she saw the way she had stopped herself. Afterwards she followed her look which leaded her directly at Elijah. Her brother had the same perplex facial expression as Hayley. "Wait a second… You know each other already?", she asked very curious now.

"E… Elijah? You are… her brother?", Hayley whispered and as Elijah heard her voice he knew that he was definitely right. The moment she walked in he already knew it. They haven't seen each other for years but still he instantly recognized her.

"That's your new colleague? What's that? A very bad joke? Rebekah, what… I am out of here…", Elijah nearly shouted at his sister and rushed towards her door without even looking at the others and of course not answering Hayley. Suddenly his sister grabbed his shoulders before he could open the door.

"Wait, Elijah! Please, just wait!"

"Are you crazy? How can you dare to bring her here? How could you… Just get out of my way!", Elijah effervesced as he saw the irritated look at her face. "Don't tell me you don't remember her", he said gloomy.

"What? I… No, I have no idea. What are you talking about? Could you be so kind and…"

"That woman in your living room… It's my Hayley, Rebekah", Elijah emphasized as he abruptly interrupted her but it seemed to him that she still didn't understand. "We have been a couple at high school. Right before our graduation I wanted to ask her if she would like to get my wife because I already knew that this was the woman I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I had already bought the rings for which I saved my money for a long time but then she told me that…", he recalled the past but didn't dare to finish his sentence.

"… she cheated on you for months already", his sister finished the sentence for him while she started to remember.

"Since when do you have such a bad memory?", he murmured after a few moments of silence.

"I… oh my god. I am so sorry, Elijah", she whispered and shook her head.

"Now you should understand my reaction. Bye", Elijah said goodbye to her and kissed her at her forehead but Rebekah still didn't allow him to open the door.

"Elijah, please stay. It has been a long time since we met the last time", she begged him which caused Elijah to sigh uncertainly. He really loved his little sister but he just couldn't sit with Hayley – his Hayley – in one room. Not anymore. He couldn't handle that that even after all those years. He never thought that he would ever see her again.

"I know but you are asking for something which… No, I should better go now", he insisted and energetically shook his head. Abruptly he put off her hands, opened the door and immediately closed it right behind him.

Elijah didn't move and only stood there before Rebekah's closed door. His hands were resting in his trouser pockets. This was the most terrible day he had for ages. He anticipated a lot of things – but not that. Luckily his sister hadn't decided to follow him and even Hayley was still inside.

Stunned he now leaned at the wall and just slid down on it. His hands were shaking wildly as he put his face in them. Elijah back then swore to himself that he would never meet with her again or even think about her. Well, he already broke the last thing multiple times a few years ago but still… Since then nobody ever had succeeded in hurting him that deeply as Hayley did. And furthermore he hadn't ever met a woman after Hayley which he had loved the way he still loved her. He never had been able to look at a woman the way he had looked at Hayley. They had been so happy together – or at least he had believed that – and still she had cheated on him. Back then he always had repeated in his mind if he maybe had done something wrong but till today he just couldn't understand why she had done this to him – to them.

As she hadn't been able to handle it anymore and she just had told him that she had been cheating on him for months already she had started crying. Hayley had told him that she had never wanted to hurt him that badly and because she had never loved that other man and because she hadn't been able to treat Elijah that way anymore she had made an end to her affair. She had begged him to forgive her and had apologized because Hayley hadn't wanted to lose him but Elijah had already decided to break up with her the second she had told him that she had slept with another man during their relationship. She had promised him that she really loves him. But after all unfaithfulness was something which he had never been able to forgive and she had known that but still she had risked everything by sleeping with another man. Elijah had never forgiven her and even though so many years had passed already – he just couldn't.

Finally he could bring himself up again. He immediately had to leave this place – his sister or even worse Hayley could change their minds.

As he finally arrived at his own apartment – while he had been in his thoughts at the whole ride – he now sat at his bed. Luckily it was Friday evening and he hadn't to work tomorrow. Elijah wasn't sure if could have handled that after such a horrible day with that awkward reunion. How could he just forget that whole stupid thing? With Hayley he associated so many nice but also terrible memories and if he was honest to himself those experiences with her influenced his whole life. Since their relationship ended he had never even been able to really trust a woman – it was a shame but it was true.

Elijah sighed and wanted to open the drawer at his bedside table but he hesitated. Plenty of times he thought about just to throw those damned rings in the waste but somehow he hadn't dared to do so till today. Even he had those bad memories associated with them.

As he moved in his new apartment a while ago he had put the jewel case backwards in his drawer and since then the case was getting dusty there.

After all he couldn't resist the impulse anymore. He opened the drawer, searched for the case and put it in his hands. They way Elijah hold them in his palms caused the impression that this little case had a heavy weight. In his eyes those rings had this immense weight but in a mental way.

No, it didn't matter anymore – he had already gone too far – so he opened the jewel case. Due to the fact that nobody had ever worn the rings they looked like he had just bought them at the jeweler. The rings weren't something special at all but to Elijah they were the most beautiful ones on earth as one of them was supposed to be for Hayley. Furthermore he wouldn't have been able to buy more expensive rings and he hadn't wanted to wait longer to ask her that important question.

There he sat now and starred at the golden rings while thinking about what could be completely different now in his life if he had married his true love back then…

As Elijah woke up the next morning he noticed that he was still wearing his clothes from yesterday. It seemed like he just fell asleep. The jewel case was lying next to him. For one last moment he looked at it but then he decided to put it finally back in his drawer. Perhaps someday he would be strong enough to just throw it away…

Sighing he got up as he perceived that something was missing. Please no, he thought. His jacket was still in Rebekah's apartment. Why had she just to take it off his shoulders? He hadn't been overdressed at all… Elijah just liked his serious clothes. Was there something wrong with it?

After the shock that he had to return to her apartment after everything which happened yesterday he lost his whole appetite. Due to that Elijah decided to get quickly through this without any breakfast so he left his home.

Rebekah seemed quiet surprised as he recognized Elijah who was standing in front of her door at this time. Elijah knew that she normally wasn't sleeping that long even at the weekends so he couldn't imagine that he was disturbing her.

"Elijah! What are you doing here?", she asked him curiously.

"My jacket…", he replied compendiously as he went into her apartment without waiting for an invitation.

"Stop, brother! Please! Wait!", Rebekah was desperately shouting at him as he had entered her home that quickly so that she hadn't been able to stop him earlier.

Elijah had already found his jacket and put it on as his sight unfortunately wandered back into her living room. His heart nearly skipped a beat. There she was sitting. What the hell did I do that I seem to deserve this?, he thought with clenched teeth. It seemed like this… person and his sister are truly friends now. Wonderful. Just wonderful…

But there was also somebody else at the sofa of Rebekah. Who was the girl next to Hayley? This just couldn't be her… could it?

"Mom, who is that?", the raven-haired girl asked and looked curiously at Hayley.

Elijah couldn't believe his ears. She really was her daughter. Well, he also always wanted to have children – as well as she wanted to – but still it somehow hurt him to see that she already had a child. Especially because this girl was already a teenager. At least she had the luck to have a child… He supposed that he would never get the opportunity to have his own children due to the fact that he would never ever find a woman again with which he wanted to have them – he was quiet sure about that.

Hayley's daughter was really beautiful – same as her mother. But he noticed something while he was looking at her… Elijah couldn't explain it but that girl… She actually…

"Ahem… that's… Elijah. Rebekah's brother and… ahem… an old friend", Hayley spluttered and of course her daughter was old enough to notice that this wasn't the whole truth – which was even noticeable without her spluttering.

"Ah, now I am an old friend. Interesting. Well, goodbye. I only wanted to get back my jacket", Elijah angrily murmured and started to leave as he was suddenly stopped by Hayley who gripped his arm.

"Elijah, please don't. Can't we just… talk?", she asked him carefully.

"Talk? Just talk? We…", he said still very angry but then stopped. "Don't touch me", Elijah added with a lower voice now but he meant what he said.

As she didn't make any move he just moved on without caring about her anymore so that she automatically lost the touch.

"Brother, please", Rebekah said and Elijah hadn't even noticed her as he had only focused on Hayley since he had entered the apartment.

"No!", Elijah immediately shouted at her and finally made his way out of this hell.

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