Author's note: well, I know in "party hardy" the author's note I said was about a sequel or Semma, but this story isn't about either. I was literally sitting on my couch, reading a fluffly Eclare fan fiction and BAM I had this idea. I don't even know how or why it came to me. I guess you could call it a prequel to "for all these times" but it really isn't. it's just a one-shot to Eli finding out Julia's dead. It'll probably be really short. Well, here ya go.
Have you ever felt like you wanted to rip your skin off? That you were so disgusted and terrified of yourself that you just wanted to claw every inch of skin off your body? And tear out your brain and eyes to erase what your thinking? Have you ever felt like you wanted to die? That you literally had no attachments to the real world? No reason for you to be here anymore?
Well, that's how I felt when the doctor's told me Julia died.
It didn't matter that we were sixteen. It didn't matter that we had no other experience with love. It didn't matter that we fought all the time. It didn't matter that her parents hated me.
Nothing mattered, but her. I loved her with every ounce of my being. No one and nothing meant more to me than Julia did.
And now she was gone. Gone from this Earth. Never coming back. I'd never be able to hear her laugh or see her smile ever again. She was dead.
I felt dead. Cold. Empty. Alone. I felt like clawing my ears off so I didn't have to hear her father cry. I wanted to die.
It should have been me. Why wasn't it me? Was the only thing I could think. Julia was gone. She'd left me forever.
The gaping hole in my chest and stomach started to throb and I collapsed in agony, letting my sobs consume me. I felt someone hold me against them, but my eyes stayed on the floor, seeing nothing but Julia's broken body.
I felt like I was falling. My mind was too dizzy and I couldn't think anymore. I just felt like my body was falling through air and that I would never land.
I didn't fight it. Just let myself fall into the darkness.
Author's note: wow, so that was pretty random. But whatever :/
I'll get to the other stories I was talking about later when I get more ideas/suggestion.