Everyone's got a place to be it seems. Sora, Riku, and Kairi are over at the islands. Naminé is at her art class. Hayner and the gang moved away because they were accepted into a different school than I was. and Xion... She's still missing. I would go hang out with Sora and the others, but it just wouldn't feel right. It doesn't feel like I belong with them, no matter how many times he tries to convince me I do.
"Come on Roxas! You're one of us, aren't you?"
Sure. You can say that. It doesn't mean it's any bit true.
I grabbed my skateboard and began to ride. No exact destination in mind. Not really caring where I end up for that matter.
When I stopped, I was actually surprised to see I was outside of Axel's workplace. I remembered when we were friends-Axel, Xion, and I-we would always go out and eat sea-salt ice cream as we watched the sunset. The warm sun hitting our skin. Neither of us had a care in the world then. Our worries would just melt away as if they were the ice cream dripping over our fingers and making them sticky...
There were times when it was just me and Axel, and sometimes it was even just me. Regardles, I miss that.
I miss all of it.
Pushing those memories to the back of my mind, I sped off, making sure I'd care enough to not come back here again-even if by chance.
I stopped talking to Axel after I found out he was lying to me and even said I shouldn't be friends with Xion anymore. I'd never forget the day he said those words. "Smoke and mirrors," I repeated aloud. That was what he said.
Of course, not talking to Axel drove me away from as well. Like Demyx. He was a good guy. He doesn't deserve the treatment I'm giving him just because of Axel...
Oh well...
That doesn't bother me. Not too much, anyway.
What really bothers me is this: I have no real friends to be with. I've tried to fit in—to feel like I belong—but there's no room for me.