"Love that can not be"
A light summers breeze went through the air as Lulu sat watching Yuna at the dock. Her whistles perching the air, but to no avail her loved one did not come running. She tried again and again, but nothing had happened. Lulu didn't want to see any more of this so she walked over to Yuna telling her that the people were ready for her speech. The two walked together back to the Luca stadium were almost all of Spira had been waiting for her.
The giant blits ball stadium was one of the largest things Yuna had seen oh her journeys, but Tidus and Jecht had told her stories about Zanarend and how the buildings went for miles and you would never be in the dark in the city. She had missed her love and she new that he was never going to be back. He was only a dream, a dream of the Fayth, that was all he was. She wished that he would come back, that she would just wake up from a bad dream and see him standing there with his hands open to her embrace.
Yuna was standing infont of the many people of spira, she had addressed her speech and all of the people began in a roar of clapping, cheering, and screaming. Four gardianus stood behind her two were missing and would never come back. Auron her father's guardian and also was hers had finally left that world with no regrets. The other Tidus her guardian, her friend, and her lover had vanished before her eye's. He had faded into nothing, right infont of her.
It was hard for her to hold back her tears infont of the large crowd, but they still came. So she turned her head before anyone could see this. Wakka had caught a glism of her tears, but didn't want to trouble her more so he walked over and set a conforting hand on her shoulder. The two of them left the stadium with the others following.
The young Albehd had also seen her cousins tears and wanted to help so she bounced along to her dear cousins side. "Hey doesn't this mean we'll have a calm that'll last for ever?" Yuna looks up to Rikku's smiling face. Waka takes his hand off and then drops it to his side. "Hey your right and now every one can live in peace till they die." Wakka smiles at Yuna. Yuna wipes her tears away on her sleeves and try's to put on one of her fake smiles.
"You are right about this, but it will take us some time to rebuild the cities and towns that Sin had demolished." Yuna frowns. "But I'm sure it will be grand when all is rebuilt." Rikku looks into Yuna's eye and then jumps. "Hey maybe they can rebuild Zanarkend along with the towns and cities."
Wakka stops in midstep and goes over what the young albehd girl had said. "The grand city of Zanarkend rebuilt, that would be a site to see ya?"
Lulu looks over wakka and wonder what the city would realy look like when or if it's rebuilt. Yuna and the group walks on to a dock were a ship that had been waiting for them. A large group of people had been waiting for then to enter the boat. Kimahari passed through the crowd making a path for the group to get on board. Yuna said some farewells to the crowd. Wakka shook some hands, but Lulu kept on walking to the boat taking no regard to the cheering fans. The boat would take them back to besaid were they would begin their normal lives again in their home.
The island of besaide was still they way the group had left it. They came back the same way they left, but the lost a member and gained another. Rikku bounced all over the island meeting everyone and every thing. By two days Rikku had almost made friends with almost everyone on the island. Rikku was now well known through out the island. She had gotten on of the old huts that a man had left when he moved to Luca.
Rikku was happy here on this island , all the people were happy and didn't criticize her just because she was albehd. That had made her happy. Yuna watched Rikku and was dragged along with her when she was doing all of this. The people of the island had already known that she was already half albehd.
A few months passed and Lulu had grown on to the felling of staying in one place again, she had always liked Besaid, it was her home for the years after her family were killed by sin. She had met Waka and his brother Chappu and they all had become friends as kids and they grew up together. When Yuna came to the island with Kimahari they were glad to have her there. She became almost like their little sister. Wakka had joined the Besaide Orocs and Chappu had joined the Crusaiders, but in the time Lulu spent with them when she was younger she had grown to love one of them, but she didn't want to tell them, because that meant hurting the other, but when Chappu died that changed and she was no longer to tell them her love.
Lulu was now doomed to never tell her love that she loved him. Her hart almost tore in half when she thought of him. She had all this bottled up in her and she a lid on it that no one could brake. She was almost unreachable. Lulu wasn't even able to un tighten this lid that held all her emotions. It was like a door with no key and there was no one with a key to un lock it.
Yuna had shut herself in her room at night crying on her pillow. Wakka would sit on a bench out side of her hut and wait till he wouldn't hear ant more sniffles or sounds of movements then he would go back to his hut and sleep. Lulu would sit outside her hut on acation to see if wakka didn't fall asleep while waiting for her to fall asleep.
Yuna every night would dream of Tidus would be back in front of her, she would run up to him, but before she could reach him he would disappear. Then she would wake up to the day. She would long to feel Tidus' touch, but she new he was only a dream of the fayth. 'But.' She thought if the fayth's dreams could become real then why couldn't her dreams become real? Yuna would keep on dreaming that Tidus was alive and still by her side. Tidus would come to her and sweep her off her feet and hold her till she couldn't barley breath. She would have the same dream over and over every night.
One day as yuna woke up and she walked down to the water were she would whistle at least once or twice a day. The water lapped on the shore making small white water to splash over Yuna's skirt. Yuna stood there whistling, but there was no sign. The water remained flat and endless.
Wakka walked down to the waters edge on the other side of the beach. He sat down Indian style an look on to the endless waves and the clear water rolling in and out on the shore. he closed his eye's and thought to himself 'Would this last forever or would a new foe to this world appear?' wakka stopped thinking about that and looked at Yuna on the other side, then he looked up to see Lulu standing above he on one of the cliffs above the beach watching over her like a guardian angle. It was like she still need to be her guardian some how. Wakka looked at Lulu's beauty, she was stunning in the morning light.
Wakka had fallen in love with Lulu right before Tidus had come to this world and Tidus actually helped him in many ways more then one. Tidus was almost encouraging him some how, when he wasn't ever there. 'Lu I wish you felt the same as I do.' Wakka looks on at Lulu not seeming to notice that he was being engulfed by incoming waves, until Lulu turned to notice wakka. She looked at him and then points to the waves splashing on him. wakka looks over to notice he had been soaked by the water and he gets up and shakes off.
Lulu walks off to her hut leaves Wakka and Yuna. Wakka walks over to Yuna and stares at the water with her. " What's up Yuna?" Waka looks down at Yuna. Yuna doesn't look at wakka's face and just stairs on. wakka looks at her soulful expression on her face. " It all right Yuna we're all here for you." He places a hand on her shoulder. Yuna looks up tears in her eyes. She then begins to sob all over Wakka. He holds her hand letting her fall to the ground. He grips her shoulders holding her up. "Yuna it's okay...... You can tell me cant you?" Wakka smiles.
Yuna looks up at wakka's face her eyes all red and puffy. "He disappeared infront of me, right infront of me." Yuna's voice filled with tears. Wakka looks at her with his bright eyes. "Hey, hey Yuna don't get so down, I known you love him and I know he loves you, but that doesn't mean there's a chance that he can come back all right?" Wakka lifts her head and wipes her tears. " Now be good girl and smile for me." Yuna looks up to him, He's was almost like a big brother, not her was her big brother. She gives him a small smile. "Ok that's what I wanted." Wakka helps Yuna to her feet an they head back to the village.
A large bonfire was held for that day was the day that yuna set off on her pillmagede one year ago. Waka had decided to rejoin the Besaide Orocs and bring the cup back to the island. All of the blitsers had been suprized when he rejoined as the coach again. So the bonfire was for two things that night. Yuna sat by the fire with Lulu. She looked straight into the fire wanting her Tidus to be holding her right that moment, but he wasn't there.
Lulu looked over at Yuna staring into the fire and then back at her own hands. She had been around Yuna most of her life and Yuna told her everything a bout how she was and what she was felling. Lulu got up and placed a hand on Yuna's shoulder. "Want to get away from the crowd?" Yuna looked up and nodded. Yuna stood up and followed her into the wood were they couldn't hear the noise of the party any more. Yuna sat down on a rock by a small cliff. Lulu sat along with her. "yuna are you realy okay?" Lulu asks with a serious face.
Yuna looks down at her dress and then to her hands. " It's just that I miss him so much." Yuna's voice was beginning to swell with tears. Lulu looks straight at her eyes. "Yuna stop that. If you just cry all the time your eyes will just swell up and they'll be itchy all the time." Yuna wipes her eyes and looks at Lulu, traces of tears still in her eyes. "I cant help it." Yuna shifts in her place.
"Yuna your strong you can fight the tears, just think of something that would make you hap..." Lulu stops knowing that would make her think of Tidus. "Lulu I wish I was more like you, you can over come your emotions in a snap. While I can't even hold one emotion in." Yuna was now crying. Lulu holds Yuna. "yuna trust me you don't want to be like me." Lulu looks at Yuna's brown hair. She goes through it with her hand lightly stroking it. "But why?" Yuna still looks at the ground.
"Yuna if you were like me you wouldn't like it at all, you can never fell happy with what you are. And you could never tell the one you love that you love him." Lulu puts her hand to her mouth. She didn't now that she had said that out loud. Yuna gets up from were she was on Lulu's lap. "Lulu......." Yuna had never heard her talk about the person she loved never. Lulu looked away from Yuna and didn't say a thing. "Is it Chappu? You could never tell him...." Lulu had still said nothing. Then she burst into tears. It seemed that some one had just broken the glass that held all her emotions in and she was now the one weeping.
Yuna held Lulu. "Its okay Lulu I'm here. Was it because of Chappu?" Lulu didn't say a thing she couldn't even talk, because of all the emotions that she finally let out. Then she finally could talk she told her her story of how she fell in love with Wakka, but Chappu had died before she could tell him.
Wakka had seen the two girls head off to the woods during the party and left without saying a thing. Wakka was a little worried so he told Rikku that he was going to see what they were doing. Wakka walked down the path looking for the two. He came to a a turn and he heard the sound of crying. Wakka stoped waiting to hear who it was. The only word he could hear were from Lulu, but her voice was filled with pain and it sounded like she was the one crying. "I never told chappu that I loved him." wakka had known that they were all good friends and he knew that Chappu had a small crush on her, but he didn't know that she loved him. Wakka went back to the village sadness grew in his hart. He would never be able to love her any more because she had loved Chappu.
Wakka went to hi hut and shut the door. For some reason hi hut had no windows so no light could come into the small room. Wakka sat on his bed and thought. He wouldn't be able to love he because she had loved Chappu first and he would be betraying his brother if he loved her anymore. Wakka's love for Lulu left him that night for he had tucked it away in a corner in his hart that he wouldn't find.
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"I do love him, but His brother would hate me for what I did with out telling him." Lulu wept on in Yuna's lap. "Its more likely that I would want to be more like you Yuna." Lulu could now share all her feelings with some one instead of just holding them inside. Yuna had thought for all the years she had known Lulu that she loved Chappu, but then she realized, because every time she was around Wakka it felt like she was a little bit happy.
"Oh Lulu...... You should tell him." Yuna smiles feeling like she could help her smile how. Lulu looks up her eyes still filled with tears. " But Chappu...." Lulu was cut off in mid sentence. "Chappu would forgive you." Yuna took her hand and wiped some of the tears away. "He'll love you for what you are Lulu." Yuna felt partially grown up then. Through her life people acted for her not letting her fix her problems,but this time she wanted to fix somebody else problem. Lulu stood up her eyes all red and puffy. "It looks like the fire is dying down. We better go back." Yuna took Lulu's hand they both went back to the village.
When they got back Rikku and Kimarhi and a few others were the only ones out side. Lulu went off to her hut so that no one would see that she was crying before. Rikku ran up to Yuna with not a smile, but a conserd look on her face. "wakka went to look for you guys, but he came back with none of you and a sad face. He went straight to his hut and shut the door and locked it." Rikku was worried about her friend. "What happened?" Yuna suddenly turned in shock. " Oh no." Yuna raced to Wakka's hut. He must have come over and accidentally heard us talking about Chappu.
Yuna knocked on Wakka's door, but there was no one to open the door. "Wakka it's me Yuna." No one answered, but the sound of some one moving around was heard. The door opened. Yuna looked up at wakka . He had a smile on his face, but it was a smile you could easily see through. "Wakka I need to talk to you." Yuna could see that he had been in there for awhile. Wakka's smile faded and he stepped out of the hut. Yuna walked down to the water with Wakka following her. "Wakka tell me what you heard." Yuna had just went to the point.
Wakka paused, knowing that she knew he had heard them. "I......" Wakka couldn't say anything. Yuna looked out into the water. " Wakka I know you vary well and I also Know Lulu vary well also." wakka didn't understand what she was getting too. " But Chappu has made you both a bit diffrent. You are both hiding what you realy are, and I want you both to be the way you want to be not hiding your emotions" Wakka was surprized at Yuna, She had become more mature of the year and she like an adult, than a child.
"Wakka do you love her?" Yuna's voice was sharp, but still calm. Wakka was silent for a moment, then he remembered what Lulu had said about Chappu. "She doesn't love me tho." A look of sadness went across his face. Yuna looked up at him. "No.......She." Yuna wanted Lulu to tell him that she loved him. "Wakka if you do love her tell her, Chappu will forgive you, I know it."
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Wakka had no idea how to tell her, but he new she loved Chappu, but he couldn't stop loving her so he decided to tell her anyway. He could never throw away hi love for Lulu and he wasn't going to give up on it either. Wakka loved her and no matter what happened he would still love her.