It's six-thirty in the morning and I'm on my way to work… yeah… I'm a real grown-up now.
Unlike my sister who's already famous and rich, I on the other hand was dead broke. It's not like I'm a superhero as everybody thinks, if they only knew… I'm a certified slob after the war.
- Hey, don't get me wrong. I don't want to be on that mobile suit again. Honestly, that whole "ultimate coordinator" stuff sucks!
Now that everything's in peace, and Lacus… well my ex-girlfriend Lacus Clyne is already one of the Supreme Council Representatives, together with my best friend… or should I say… another ex-best friend Athrun (they eventually ended up together, leaving me and my poor sister all messed-up)… I was the one who picked up the trash.
I'm not bitter about that anymore, neither is Cagalli (I hope). She was too busy "saving the world " to think about that.
I on the other hand, I was so damn bored of being good all the time. I ran off for while, and was somehow stranded. I couldn't get things right. Maybe this was my Karma. I've learned that word from " Sarah" – one of my temporary " good- for- one- night" conquests. She's cool… never forgot that word ever since.
It's like I'm all over the place…on someone's bed, or in one of my sister's estates. She practically punched me after learning about my outstanding debt- which of course, she " willingly" paid.
But I'm trying to change now. To become that same good person that everyone expects.
I'm currently working as a computer technician in some cheap IT service company.
My earnings? – Don't ask.
No one knew who I was, or my achievements were, and it was somewhat exciting.
I get to see the other side of me… that clumsy, stupid side. My co-workers were not amazed by my skills. Whenever I get to solve some complicated stuff, they just say…
" Of course he must know that! It's his job!"
That's cool for me…
I remember one day when Cagalli confronted me about this whole thing.
" What the hell are you trying to pull off Kira?"
I just stared at her.
" This "I- want-to-be- ordinary" thing? It's pathetic! You can do more sensible things with your skills. Help me in running this nation…"
" I don't want to be your first- gentleman…" I joked.
" That's not what I mean!" She fired back.
" You want to work on some wasted computer shop, while I'm offering you to become the captain of one of Orb's fleet… do you see the difference?"
I was laughing at her and she asked me what's so funny about that.
I told her, " You're starting to have wrinkles on your forehead. Men don't want that…"
" I… don't care about wrinkles… or men!" She stressed the last word.
" Still bitter?" I asked. I was a little bit harsh, I admit.
She didn't speak for sometime.
"No," she said flatly.
That was my sister. She's so emotional about everything, and sometimes, her crying episodes were really annoying… although I really missed her, especially when I moved out. The way she calls me for help, and those times when she hugs me... and asks if she could sleep in my room… because she's lonely.
Yeah… my sister…
Honestly at first, I didn't want to believe that she was… because I'm attracted to her.
She's more beautiful than Lacus. Not because of her physical looks, but her confidence and her being fashionably insensitive. I find her sexier, but my illusions were suddenly cut-off by the fact that we're twins (!) I admit, I was practically drawn, as my ex-best friend was to her.
She was called the Goddess of Victory… I know a lot of people felt the same as I did… even Shinn – knowing that he's from Orb. It's impossible for him to shrug-off the fantasy of making out with my popular twin sister.
So I've finally confessed that I was lusting after Cagalli…
But that wasn't the worst thing that happened within my twisted head.
That time when I kidnapped her after the wedding… I didn't do that because I refuse to ally Orb with the Earth Forces…
I didn't want her to marry that loser, because… I simply didn't want to.
And even if it were Athrun she's marrying instead, I'd still kidnap her.
Possessive? - Yes.
So I guess that's all I should be… a faithful and possessive sibling. I sometimes think If I could change things according to my will… but I was being selfish.
(End of reflections)
After working for almost ten hours, Kira was again in his apartment. Lying on his spacious bed… alone.
He was staring at the ceiling… thinking.
(Reflections…again)
I really miss her. I remember that day when she almost found out about this growing infatuation… I messed up in front of her.
She was lying on my bed (back at the mansion), and we were talking about our past relationships… I find it irresistible to kiss her… Her face was very close to mine.
Her golden brown eyes were like the ocean…within which I'd love to drown.
She closed her eyes and placed her hand on my chest. I on the other hand, reached out for her hips as I pull her nearer. I sometimes think she's aware of what's going on… and somehow enjoying it… but again I was being conceited. She opened her eyes… and what I saw in those orbs made me hold back everything…
Tears. She was lonely.
She moved a little bit close, and I could almost feel her flesh… she hugged me.
"I miss Athrun…"Her words were like a bucket of ice water. Painfully irritating. I felt cold. I held her as she weeps. I kissed her forehead.
For some unimaginable reason… I cried too.
It's always been like this... the two of us together. When everything's over, whether good or bad things happen...
I never left her side... she never left mine.I guess this makes our relationship doomed since the beginning. I don't mind about bloodlines... I love her because she's Cagalli. And even if one day she finds another one who can replace Athrun, I know I'm indispensible...
I know there's something... that's sacred and reserved only for me.
(End of reflections)
Kira was beginning to fall asleep, when his phone rang.
"Hello?"
"It's me…"
Kira's heart skips a beat.
" Why…"
" I… miss you… I mean… I'm on my way there." It was Cagalli.
Kira jumped off the bed. He went to the drawer to search for his trousers.
"I didn't cook anything… it's a mess in here!"
"I bought some food… and refreshments… I want to get drunk," Cagalli answered.
Kira didn't answer back.
" Are you still there?"
"Yeah. I'll be waiting…"
" Good. I'll be there in ten minutes."
"Fine…I…love… you…sis." Kira finally said.
" Yeah… whatever… love you too…"
It's a hormonal surge… I've always been a fan of KiraCaga even before ASUCAGA… so I guess those who can relate…somewhat enjoyed this as I did.