Love Letters
I tightly shut my eyes. What has my life come to? I read it again and again. The same sentence, the same words, the same meaning. 'I'm sorry, I love you, and I will miss you always. Promise me you will be mine one day. All my love. Joe.' My body broke down into a sob. Shaking, I stood up, holding the crumpled letter to my chest. I have to move on, I thought to myself. But I can't, whispered through my mind.
It's been five months since Joe and I broke up, five months since my entire world fell apart. One day, I had everything a girl could dream of, and the next, it was gone, vanished, with only a letter reminding me of what once was. I stared down at the picture of the two of us. We were both smiling huge smiles, both just so happy. What went wrong? His brilliant blue eyes stared back at me, his blonde hair gleaming in the sun and that cute dimple on his left cheek. I wiped my tears away as they splashed down onto the photo, bouncing off, leaving water marks everywhere. It's over now; the happy days are gone.
I stood at the gates, waiting. I just wanted to see his face one more time, just wanted to hear his voice. I want him, but I know can't have him. Is it that too much to ask for? Just too see him one last time, for him to tell me he loves me? My heart started pounding, my eyes teared up. He was there, standing one mere meter away from me. His blonde hair was spiked today, leaving a tiny fringe at the front, and his skin glowed. He was even more goregeous than before the holidays. His shirt was pressed, and his pants were ironed. For the first time, his tie was done in a neat knot all the way to the top. He looks so smart, I thought to myself. He smiled, parting his lips to reveal those gleaming white teeth I was so used to seeing. Looking so familiar yet so different. He walked past me, not he sending a glance in my direction, not paying me the slightest bit off attention. It then occured to me what was so different: his eyes. They weren't as warm and friendly as I remembered. Instead, I saw a blue oceanic pit of despair. My heart fluttered. It's really over.
As I trudged towards tutor, tears fell down my face. I guess reality finally hit. He didn't care any more, probably never did. I pushed open the door and sat in my seat. Everyone was excited to be back at school, seeing all there friends. Me? I just wanted to go home
The day passed slowly, numbness filled my soul. What has happened? We was so happy. My mind flashed back. Back to the row.
"Look we can't go on like this, there's no point" He said, calmly, his face was composed but his eyes, always his eyes. "On like what? I put all my effort into this relationship! And what do you do? Oh thats right nothing"I screamed. My eyes were filling up-again. "How can you say that, who was the one who suggested we talk about would off happily gone on like this." I could see the anger in his face now, his normally pale cheeks were glowing bright red and his nose flared. "I don't say anything because I dont want to loose you, I love you." This is it, it's over, I thought, he's going to tell me he doesnt love me, he's going to say he never even wanted me. I prepared myself for the blow, I waited and waited, my eyes closed so tight green and pink spots were starting to appear. I gently eased my eyes open, peering out. He was sat with his head in his hands, "Well?" I asked. He ignored me, "Joe?" there was a slight panic in my voice. At least when we are arguing, he was showing he cared, but now, I have nothing. His eyes flickered towards me. They were cold and dark. "I'm done" He said, those simple words broke me down, torn apart my heart and ripped out my soul. I was speechless, no words could describe how i felt, no words would come I out. I was unable to protest. I just sat and watched him walk away, taking my shattered heart with him.