Fix You (part 1)

Alexis stood outside the metal door of the apartment wanting one person she trusted. She was shaking, her eyes red and puffy from all the tears she had shed in the last hour. All she wanted was for someone to hold her and tell her everything would be alright, that no one could touch her again. She got chills at the thought of him touching her. On the other side of the door there were footsteps then the door swung open.

"Alexis, what are you doing here?" The older woman asked. "If your looking for your dad he is…" She noticed the tears. "Come on in." She set Alexis on the couch and got her a glass of water.

"I'm sorry detective I didn't know who else to come to. I don't exactly have a mom to turn to." Alexis said taking a sip of water.

"Call me Kate, and it's quite alright Alexis. May I ask what's the matter?" Beckett asked resting her hand on Alexis's knee.

"I made a really big mistake and now I'm so lost. I don't know what to do." She sobbed.

"I know the feeling. I've made some bad choices myself."

"You slept with your professor?" Beckett sat shocked for a moment.

"No, I slept with my training officer… Did he hurt you?"

Alexis shook her head. "No, and it was consensual. It was so stupid, he's hot and he liked the same stuff I did and one night it just happened. But now ever since then he'll grab my ass and just… It was nice at first but."

"Alexis you can tell me I promise not to judge."

"I took a TEST… It came back positive." She said bursting into tears. Beckett put her arm's around her, pulling her in closer trying her best to comfort Alexis.

"You'll be alright. You have your dad and I."

"What do I do about Nathan. I don't know if I should tell him or what."

"I think the question is, do you trust him to be a father? Or do you even want him to be apart of the baby's life?"

"I don't even know." She admitted.

"You know you need to tell your dad though."

"Yeah I know."

Castle apartment: later that night…

Opening the door she slid in quietly. It was late and her father didn't know she was coming home. Shutting the door behind her it clicked shut, very loudly.

"Who's there?" Her father called.

"Your worst nightmare." Alexis replied, her father came out of his office smiling happily. She ran to him almost knocking him over, holding him tight she again started to cry.

"Sweetie what's wrong?" He asked pulling away to look at her.

"You'll hate me." she cried.

"I could never hate you pumpkin." she pulled away.

"But you will because- because I g-got myself kn-knocked u-up." She was angry now and he stood silent. "See. I told you would be mad. I know you. You hate me because I just became one of those girls. Instead of your little princess who would never do such a thing."

"Alexis, I-I don't know what to say. But I'm not mad, disappointed is more like it." He replied taking his daughters hands.

"That's worse." She said shaking him off and storming up to her room. He ran after her but she slammed the door and locked it. He sighed and fell against the wall.

SEVERAL HOURS LATER:

Castle had seated himself at his desk and was staring at an old photo of he and Alexis. How was it his baby was having a baby? It didn't make sense. Don't get him wrong he knew the day his daughter had a family would come, he had just wanted her to be married and over twenty. Wasn't she smarter than this? Didn't he teach her better? Would things be different if she had a mother figure around? He wanted to cry, the thing he hardly ever did, more than he had wanted to a year ago at her graduation.

Looking up when he heard footsteps he saw Alexis in the kitchen. Getting up he walked in to join her.

"Hungry?" He asked, she jumped.

"Why do you care?" She retorted.

"Alexis Marie don't you dare think for a second that I don't care a bit about you. You are and always will be the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I am so proud of you. Mistakes are made but that doesn't mean that I feel any different about you."

"Dad, my whole life has been trying to make you proud of me and then I go and get myself pregnant. I disappointed you and I don't deserve to have you be proud of me."

"You thought wrong. I know how hard it was or you to walk in hear and tell me, that took a lot, that is why I'm proud of you. Yes I wish you didn't have to be in this position right now just like you but all I can do is be supportive and try to make the best of it." He said wrapping Alexis up in his arms but she pulled away.

"I'm scared daddy. I can't be a mom. Not yet."

"Alexis, have a seat. I need to tell you a story." they sat down on the couch and Rick pulled his daughter in close to him. "Once upon a time your mom told me she was pregnant with you and I was so excited. Until that night when we were in bed I realized that I wasn't at all prepared to be a dad or had any idea how to take care of a baby. So for months I couldn't get excited about the aspect and as time approached even after all the books and classes I was still terrified to be a dad. Then your mom had you and the minute I held you in my arms you started crying." Alexis laughed. "I felt horrible, like I was some terrible person. I reached out my pinkie and you latched on with those tiny fingers and I said 'don't cry pumpkin, daddy's got you.' and just like that you stopped crying. And from that point on I knew that I could do this."

"So what's the point to that story?" Alexis asked.

"The point is that sometimes you think you aren't ready but something kicks in once you hold that little person in your arms. And you know I will always have your hand."

"I know. And for a single dad you did a good job."

"But if I had only done a better job you wouldn't have done this."

"No. Dad please don't blame yourself, what I did had nothing to do with your parenting. I was stupid and thought how amazing it was to have an older man like me."

"Wait how much older?" He asked shocked.

"He's 25." She replied guiltily.

"What?" He said threw gritted teeth.

"Dad please just don't, I can't handle more crap right now. All I want is for you to hold me like when I was little and for a little while forget about everything." She pleaded.

"Come here pumpkin." He replied pulling her in tight, letting her rest her head on his shoulder. She fell asleep like this and he couldn't help but smile at his little girl.