Disclaimer: I do not own the x-files *sniffle* I wish I didn't have to keep
reminding myself
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I stand there at the edge of the grave. I know it's empty, I know you're not in there, I know we'll find you. I have to find you..I have to. I suddenly become aware I am standing up as my knees begin to feel weak. However, I don't think the little boy in my arms would like me falling. He wakes up in the middle of the night looking for you yea know. I watch him sleep so I know what he's doing. He gets up and looks around then when he doesn't see those blue eyes that match his so well he begins to cry. He knows your smell because the only way to calm him is to go get your pillowcase. I never washed it, I want it to smell like you forever. Well, at least until I can have the real you. I wrap him in it and I hold him, sometimes he still cries then I cry with him. Not out of frustration, but out of the same longing he feels. I know it's my fault you're not here. Maybe if I was here they couldn't have...wouldn't have taken you. I could have protected you. But I could my blessings everyday that Mon and John saw how tired you were and offered to baby sit that night. I'm not saying I don't miss you Scully...just saying I am great full for what they DIDN'T take. We need you, and Will needs two parents not one. Just as he is reading my mind he opens his eyes and looks around for the ones that match them. As soon as he doesn't find them he begins to cry. A funeral party standing near by shoots me dirty looks so I take him back to the car. We both sit in the passenger, me trying to calm him before the drive and him crying harder than ever. I knew what was wrong I didn't have the pillow case. We sit there until the funeral party leaves and night falls. Then we go back and I sit down on top of your grave. I lean against the cold stone and I silently cry. I am suddenly aware of how cold I am when the warmth of the tears seems to burn my cheeks. Just then Will wakes up looking for you. Again he cries in defeat. I rock him slowly as I cry with him.
"Shhhhh...I know Will I miss her too."
That made him cry harder.
"I'll find her Will.... I promise....."
Both became aware of how tired they really were and Mulder whispered one steady thing as he fell asleep.
"I promise Will..I promise."
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This was kind of a what if Scully was taken wail Mulder was away. This COULD go farther...if anyone wants it to...or it could stay as a short little grave site scene of grieving father and son..whatever just comment.
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I stand there at the edge of the grave. I know it's empty, I know you're not in there, I know we'll find you. I have to find you..I have to. I suddenly become aware I am standing up as my knees begin to feel weak. However, I don't think the little boy in my arms would like me falling. He wakes up in the middle of the night looking for you yea know. I watch him sleep so I know what he's doing. He gets up and looks around then when he doesn't see those blue eyes that match his so well he begins to cry. He knows your smell because the only way to calm him is to go get your pillowcase. I never washed it, I want it to smell like you forever. Well, at least until I can have the real you. I wrap him in it and I hold him, sometimes he still cries then I cry with him. Not out of frustration, but out of the same longing he feels. I know it's my fault you're not here. Maybe if I was here they couldn't have...wouldn't have taken you. I could have protected you. But I could my blessings everyday that Mon and John saw how tired you were and offered to baby sit that night. I'm not saying I don't miss you Scully...just saying I am great full for what they DIDN'T take. We need you, and Will needs two parents not one. Just as he is reading my mind he opens his eyes and looks around for the ones that match them. As soon as he doesn't find them he begins to cry. A funeral party standing near by shoots me dirty looks so I take him back to the car. We both sit in the passenger, me trying to calm him before the drive and him crying harder than ever. I knew what was wrong I didn't have the pillow case. We sit there until the funeral party leaves and night falls. Then we go back and I sit down on top of your grave. I lean against the cold stone and I silently cry. I am suddenly aware of how cold I am when the warmth of the tears seems to burn my cheeks. Just then Will wakes up looking for you. Again he cries in defeat. I rock him slowly as I cry with him.
"Shhhhh...I know Will I miss her too."
That made him cry harder.
"I'll find her Will.... I promise....."
Both became aware of how tired they really were and Mulder whispered one steady thing as he fell asleep.
"I promise Will..I promise."
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This was kind of a what if Scully was taken wail Mulder was away. This COULD go farther...if anyone wants it to...or it could stay as a short little grave site scene of grieving father and son..whatever just comment.