Chapter1. This Is The Life
Here I am lying next to the best sex I've ever had with, Jacob Black, my best friend. I lay there watching him sleep thinking when is this game going to end badly. We've been on this for a year, and I'm scared I'll be losing him. The hard part is that we only do this because we feel like it.... just meaningless sex. I'm probably better off with Mike Newton, the drug addict, and Jake's best customer. I've seen the way Jake sees him because the poor idiot loves me, shudder.
"You look beautiful when you're thinking," he said, making me come out of my train of thought.
"Hey"I said making myself create a fake smile for him, I'm not OK today. I'm going to tell him.......that we can't do this anymore, ever. Finally noticing that he is staring at me I say, "What are you staring at?"
"I love the way your eyes glitters with happiness, it also makes me happy."Why does he do this to me!
Buzz ...buzz
"Oh crap, baby I gotta go" Yes! Sweet victory thank god for Mike. "Will I see you tonight at the party?"He asked, and I hesitated.
"Of course... I'm the center of attention aren't I?"STUPID! STUPID! STUPID! I should just ditch the stupid party and get drunk at a bar.
"All right I'll see you later," he kissed me at the top of my head and walked out of my messy big room… maybe I should clean. As I heard the door slam I stumbled my way out of bed and started cleaning my room, until I found one of Jacob's briefs. What the point of cleaning during a hangover anyway.
"Yeah that's what you always do give up!"Here comes that stupid voice inside my head, my mother, who died a while ago with my father in car crash. If it wasn't for me they would be alive right now, but no I had to be a screw up. Their deaths have been haunting me since after the funeral. I always tell myself that it's my subconscious trying to lead me out of harm's way, but I never listen.
Flashback:
It was one of Seattle's hottest ever, and I was dancing drunk with Jacob in a club we snuck into. When I feet my phone vibrating in my pocket, I answered it and it was my mother yelling at me because she thought I got hurt. I remember thinking why would my mother care where the fuck I was? When someone crashed into me making me fall, I lost the grip I had my phone. As I got up, I forgot all about my phone and started grinding Jake. I knew that when I reached home, I'd get yelled at so instead of staying with Jake, I went home. I love it when they yell at me because it's funny when that nonsense wouldn't have changed anything.
When I went home they never came back which was strange.
I felt like it would be a good time to watch Sponge Bob, but I stopped when I heard of a car crash. I just froze when I heard the license plate, and seconds later I heard the phone ring. It only meant one thing…
As time passed, I received condolence letters from lawyers and all that shit. I found out that I will inherit their money, the house, and I was left with a letter that made me cry every time I read it. At the age of fifteen these things aren't so easy to handle. When I turned eighteen, I will receive the money and the house, which I can't bear to live in, so I'll be putting it on sale.
Now today is my birthday, and it'll be celebrated at Sam's club. He hates me for the arrangement I have with Jacob, but I don't give a fuck about him. The only people I trust are Alice, Emmet, Rosalie, and Jake.
I made my way to the bathroom, and realized that tears were on my cheek. By starting off the day, I would be taking a long hot shower, and then cleaning the loft.
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Oh thank god the loft is clean, I'm clean, and that took just the whole morning. All I need now is Rose and Alice to come over and barricade me in makeup and all that girly stuff. With a few bangs at the door I instantly knew that they're in a hurry, and I should not complain the whole times...gulp, I'm scared already. I inhale a huge amount of air, and opened the door.
"Hey gu-,"
Before I could even finish my tiny gesture, a high annoyed voice yelled at me saying, "No time for chit chat! We only have one hour to fix you, then us, then two fucking hours to get to the club, and you guys know I hate being late even if it's about our wardrobe!"
"Aw Alice don't get mad you'll get worry lines" Rose said through laughs of hysterics.
"Great now we have to work twice as fast to catch up to the time I spent talking to the idiot!"She screamed.
"Relax we'll be fine "Rose said "Now let's get to work"
"Oh no." Here comes the horror.
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They've done so many things that were impossible to explain, but I do know that I felt like Roberts in pretty woman. One thing's for sure is that's never going to happen. Besides that movie sucked.
"Now put this on while me and Rose refresh ourselves" Alice said from the bathroom. When I looked at myself I was speechless. I was wearing a backless black cocktail dress with its straps like a halter top and it was short. It complimented all of my curves and not to mention my cleavage.
"Wow" was the only word I come up with for my hotness.
"I know you look hot, I bet every guy's eyes are gonna be on you""Rose said from behind me.
"God you scared me! Anyway I'm not doing this for the guys, only for you two. I'm not looking for a relationship" I said.
"So what about a fling… or Jake" said Alice.
"I have plenty of sex, and I so won't go there with Jake you know that"
"Don't you see the way he looks at you half the time, you guys would make a cute couple" Rose stated.
"Don't make me gag, please! Jake is better off with someone else anyway"
"Better off! For god sakes, he's a drug dealer and he grew up in the ghetto! His life was fucked up before he even realized it!"
"That was his decision." I said, referring to Jake's choice of...carrer.
"Guys don't turn this into a fight. It's a stupid matter anyway" Alice said
"Sure, sure" I said, "We gotta get going anyway."
I hate lying to them, but it's just a fling thing. Nothing to worry about, and I'm ending it tonight....on my birthday, great.
"Alice, I'll call the cab" Rose said, while making sure she looks perfect for Emmett, who she fell head over heels for when I introduced them.
Flashback:
Jacob was dating Tanya, some chick I hated from the moment I met her. It was a party at some dude's house that Jake told me about. And that's when I met Tanya and her cousin Emmett. He was a big guy with short dark brown hair like mine, but different. He was cute, but not my type. We got to know each other, and when we wanted to meet up so I decided to invite Alice and Rose. From the moment Rose and Emmett saw each other, I knew they had an attraction and both of them knew it 100%, but only one made an attempt, and that was Rose.
"The taxi will be here in two minutes, let's go" she said.
"Wait I have no shoes on!"I realized.
"Put on the black pumps!"
"Yeah, yeah"
"Yay! It's my first time going to Club Twilight!" Rose said excitedly.
"That's right Rose" I said, slightly annoyed. "Let's go" I said as we stepped out of my loft and on our way to Club Twilight.
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