First fanfic ever! Please be easy on me. If your going to yell at it because it stinks please use as few curse words as possible. Or go all out, ur choice

Mai's p.o.v

I woke up from a nightmare screaming. I shook my head for my weakness at things i had already witnessed. I was once a gang member and a killer but I was an extreme fool. I got picked up off the street by a gang man but I cut all ties from that 3 years ago. I was 11 at the time.

I paid my debts and got out. So why must i be plagued by nightmares about all I have done NOW? The answer is obvious, I've gotten attached to a few people and I'm scared. Scared they come after me with my makeshift family and that the others will hate me. That and it's almost Christmas, the day I was raped.

I know they'll come eventually. I was the best killer they ever had, to my everlasting horror and shame. I am worried about WHEN they will come. I have a bad feeling it will be soon. I haven't told anyone at s.p.r. it's not like I could without a big reason and much pondering.

I looked at my clock after my mind settled down a little and noticed it was only 1 in the morning. I shrugged and thought 'might as well go for a walk while I'm up.' I grabbed the weapons I wear hidden and put them on. I have a dagger that I put into a leather wrap around for my ankle and the 9 mm gun I put in a holder that hold my gun around my back. I left the house with the smile of a kind, ignorant person plastered on my face.

I went to a quiet park that I went too often and sat on a bench. No one was there and I couldn't blame them, it was too early for many people. Soon I realized it was 7 o clock and I realized I was going to be late. 'Damn' I thought as I ran 'i fell asleep.' I ran as fast as I could and opened the door to hear "Mai you're late. Tea, now"

I rolled my eyes at the pattern of it and went to make Naru his tea. I walked in and froze, when I did so monk and the others gave me worried glances but I didn't care. There on the couch was the man I hated most. Tama, the man who taught me to kill. He gave me a fox-like smile before saying "hello Mai. It's been awhile, how are things on your end?"

"Fine" I gave him my coldest glare, one that could beat Naru and sat down across from him. "What's the case about?" I asked, Naru answered

"If you had been here you would have heard" and he gave me the smuggest look his face could make.

"I saw her on the way here" tama spoke up suddenly "she was asleep on a bench in the park. It looked like shed been there awhile."

Everyone gave me a questioning look and I answered "haven't gotten much sleep lately and I went for a walk and fell asleep on a bench."

"Is the past haunting you?" tama asked with a sneer on his ugly face. Everyone looked confused but I didn't give them an answer.

"The case" naru began "sounds like a normal poltergeist. But we haven't been getting any cases lately so I took it anyway."

'I don't think it's a poltergeist.' I thought to myself 'I think it's I trap' I looked at tama and noticed his appearance had changed. Unlike how he used to be he had black smooth hair and a nice face with a normal sized stomach. I was shocked at the changes but made sure to not show it.

"We will be there tomorrow" Naru said and Tama took his leave. Monk came out of nowhere and squeezed the living daylights out of me in one of his hugs. Ayako got him with her evil purse then asked me

"Are you okay, Mai? How much sleep did you get last night?"

I lied about my past but I promised myself id never lie about anything else without a reason. I was cursing that promise now "um, about an hour." They bugged me for an long time about taking a nap when Lin finally piped up and said

"How do you know that man mai? Is he an old friend?" I shrugged my shoulders and said

"He's no friend, i just know him from a long time ago."

We all went to a diner to eat. I ate quietly and listened to everyone yelling about everything under the sun when Naru asked suddenly "why did you look scared of Tama-sama when you first saw him?" I was surprised that he had noticed my slip but answered

"I wasn't scared."

Monk scoffed and said "you almost died of fright. What was it?"

I kept eating and never gave them an answer. If they knew why they'd hate me, so I kept it to myself. They all watched me as I left. I walked around town until around 3 in the morning before I finally decided to head home. I go inside to find all of s.p.r sitting on my couch.

When I walked in they sat up and Ayako, like a mother, yelled "where the hell were you! We've been here for HOURS!"

I leaned against one of the walls, crossed my arms, and answered "how did you get into my house without breaking a window or a lock?" then I hit my head and groaned "the key in the mailbox." 'Damn. Why do I have to act like that much of a nitwit?'

"Where were you?" Ayako yells again

"Please leave" I answer without a second thought and I felt bad. I wanted to stop lying and pushing them away but I can't, for fear of hate and pain.

"No" the answer came oddly enough, from Naru "not until we get some answers."

"What do you mean, Naru?" I was terrified to say the least "I just walked around town."

The others grabbed me and yanked me down onto the couch. "Why does that man scare you?" Ayako demanded

"he doesn't scare me" I answered. John answered

"mai, your shaking like a leaf." 'Damn my body giving me away' I thought.

"What is it?" Monk spoke up. I decided to give away as little of information as possible and said

"Tama knows about a part of my past that if you knew about you would be deisgusted by me." Everyone gasped then Masako said

"Nothing you've ever done will make us hate you, mai." I glared at her and said

"that's where you are very wrong."

Everyone looked at me confused and I spoke again "that's all I'm willing to tell you. Please believe me when I said that I trust you. That's the reason why I can't tell you" 'that I'm a monster' I finished in my head. I opened the door and said "I'll be there for the case tomorrow. You guys should go home and get some sleep."

They all looked reluctant to leave but did so anyhow. I sighed in relief and walked to my room. I pulled my gun out of its holster and started cleaning its part to make sure it was in top form. I haven't shot a gun in three years, but I knew I might need one soon…