Crying was the first instinct. I couldn't help but cry my troubles away, even though I knew it wouldn't help any. He was gone. Gone forever out of my life. He didn't love me anymore, and I had to accept that. I was curled up in a ball on my bed, the sound of sleet hitting my window was in the background. But occasionally there was a strange ripping sound that interrupted it. Oh right, that's only me. The door slightly creaked open and revealed Charlie's sympathetic face.
"Bells…? Can… I come in?" he muttered. I nodded slowly.
"You okay kiddo? I made you some soup, but I don't think you'd want it. It smells kind of nasty." I didn't reply, but instead took deep breaths so I wouldn't be sobbing in front of my dad.
"Listen, Bella, I know you're taking this hard, but c'mon. Edward's just a guy, and there's gonna be more that you'll set your eye on."
I broke down completely at the sound of his name. I was sobbing loud enough to wake anybody within a ten-mile radius. Charlie jumped at my sob, and I'm guessing decided to leave me alone to cry until my tears ran dry, since he walked out the door and shut it behind him.
I sat up and buried my face in my hands, with tears dripping in heavy amounts onto the floor. I looked up and out my window and saw a silver car whiz by. The tears were flowing even heavier, and my hands were shaking violently.
"Come on, pull yourself together. Maybe he wasn't that big of a deal anyway." The tears started to flow much slower now, and my hands were barely trembling. "Yeah. I mean," I stood up. "Maybe it was just puppy love. Maybe it was just a crush, not the real thing." I remembered when I was upset when I was little, my mom would sing to make me feel better. I could try that, even though I didn't think I had a very good singing voice, but still, I could try. So that's exactly what I did.
They asked me how I knew
My true love was true.
I of course replied,
Something here inside,
Cannot be denied.
They said someday you'll find
All who love are blind.
When you're heart's on fire,
You must realize,
Smoke gets in your eyes.
So I chaffed them
And I gaily laughed
To think they could doubt my love.
Yet today, my love has flown away,
I am without my love.
Now laughing friends deride,
Tears I cannot hide.
So I smile and say,
When a lovely flame dies,
Smoke gets in your eyes…
The singing didn't help me at all. I was crying even harder now than I was before. I knew that it wasn't just a crush, but true love. I couldn't live without him. I quietly whispered through my broken sobs, "What in the world am I going to do…?"