....No..How..how did it go? At this point, I..can not even bring myself to remmember.
...So many memories..So important, and yet....I don't want to..
...But I have to remmember. Rainbow, Oh Rainbo-...My pencil dropped. Argh, I'll have to pic-...What's this?..
...This thing lying on the floor..My...my..
...Of course she wouldn't take something so stupid with her. It's just a stupid stupid 'good luck' charm I made for her.
...'She' could buy her a much nicer one.
...Oh, Nagisa-chan, my nagisa-chan..I..I still...To this day, I don't understand why you -Wet spots have dried over time, causing illegibility-
Since the day you came, I had been the perfect friend. I did every single thing I could for you? Who always cheered you up..it was others helped, but..but..
Whenever you didn't know what something was, I told you.
When you needed something I was there.
I can't think of a single time I made you cry.
But 'she' made you cry constantly.
She built you up with sob-stories, and tried to pick you out as the one to help her
You were her doll. She tried to make you into her 'New Kaori' in my eyes.
Hanging around her...Every other week, you'd wind up crying. You never cried because of me. But I always made you better. Then you went back to her.
The year came. We got chosen to attend the Etoile election.
...I was so incredibly happy. Etoile is in partners, I actually got you as My Partner.. -Slightly illegible from dried wet spots on the paper-
In my head, it meant I would finally...If we won, I would get to be with my Nagisa-chan forever..It wasn't even the thought of Intimacy, just the thought of being paired up with you so romantically, I..I just...
But then...She..it's all HER fault..That...that evil woman..I..I swore to protect you, but I let her have you.
Why was I such a fool?
Baka...baka..! -A slight stain of red-
...As I stood there, during the after-party..Or, I guess you'd call it that..No one found me. I hid in my dorm, for some reason..No one..no one even came looking..Did no one care? I just..Why...why did it have to be like this, nagisa-chan?
W-why did you choose here over me!?D-doshde?
I-it doesn't..I've run it through my head 47 times..It still..I've gone over so many scenarios, and it doesn't add up! Everything points to you being with me, your best friend..
How much I would give to be under that umbrella with you just..one more time..I would give my life for a single second.
...I know what I'll write..now..Two poems..Two poems to end it..To bring a close to my chapter of sorrow..I'll send them to the literature club, but I know I can't read them.
If I read them I would break down crying, thinking of you, my...my Nagisa-chan.
-Roommate-
A girl staring through the window.
She stares out, awaiting for her roommate to return.
A feeling of De Ja Vu overcomes her.
A tear falls.
She wonders why it just fell.
Everything's going great.
Her roommate is off in love, happy.
She'd waited three years for a roommate
She was so happy when she finally got one, and yet.
Now she awaits behind the window.
She stares out, awaiting for her roommate to return
As she stares out, the wind, the howling wind.
It slowly sweeps all emotions away, protecting her.
Through the seasons, she stares out the window.
A year, two..it passes by so quickly.
She gives up. The pressure on her heart.
A heart can't take it...A shattering sound is heard.
It's heard around the world, Her heart...it is broken.