Chapter 1: Kept in the Dark
~No matter how much he makes me hurt...I keep crawling back...hiding the tears...the pain...just a secret lover...how much longer can I take this...~ Kida Masaomi
The blonde haired boy sat in his room at the desk in the corner, he was tapping the pen on the paper, he didn't know what to do. His phone was sitting next to him and he wanted to call that certain boy that was bugging his thoughts. He didn't know what to do. 'Call him or not...forget it he can call me...' Kida looked at his phone, it was silent, no voice mails, no text messages. A picture of him and Izaya was on the background of the phone, he never really let anyone see his phone so he didn't have to hide that did he. He leaned back in the chair, and just looked up at the ceiling. He wanted to call him, he really did. The boy went back to trying to work on his homework. He usually would have avoided it , maybe because he didn't want to do it. He wanted to go out, and well he figured he might as well. The blonde boy heard a knock on his bedroom door, he shoved his phone and the notebook that he had been scribbling on into the drawer next to him.
"What is it..." He looked to the door, moving to unlock it after making sure to shut the drawer. Standing at the door was a woman, she usually stayed away but lately she had been bringing food around. Or she was worried about him, she was the one who had gotten on him for not finishing his homework. But that was because she had found his report card or whatever, not that he cared. He hated school, thought there was no real point to it. "I brought you some food Kida-Kun..." She was usually nice, so he was nice to her. Even though he didn't wish to really talk to anyone right now. "Oh Thank you!" He regained his happy composure, laughing as he moved to close the door behind him. He was standing out in the hallway to his home, she had the key, since well her job was cleaning up. He paid her for that, and she had offered. "I made some of the stuff we had last time you came over to visit...and a few of your favorites. I made sure to make extra in case you know you need it..." She was one of the few who had an idea he was seeing someone. Though she never told anyone of course, she might have brought it up with Kida from time to time but that was all she did.
When he wanted to talk to her about it she knew that he would, until then she would just help him out. It wasn't that hard living alone at his age, or so he had said. But still it wasn't' exactly right was it. He carefully took the bags from her, and handed her the money for her work this week. He paid her weekly whenever she brought him food, he knew she had two other jobs. One was dealing with him, after all he was making a bit of a problem for himself. She didnt' know he was part of the Yellow Scarves gang, no she just knew he got into quite a few fights. "Well you probably have to get home I have something for the kiddies though..." He smiled and dug out some toys for them, and then the calligraphy set he had gotten for her.
He knew she liked to do that kind of thing, there was also some parchment in there and of course a book for her husband. "He asked me to pick up, I paid for it to...it's all I can do after what you've done for me..." He moved to open the door for her, he wanted to be alone right now. "Kida Kun...are you sure that you are alright...?" She touched his arm, and just looked at him with that concerned gaze in her eyes. "Yea I'm fine um...tomorrow when you come over I'll have my test back...I think I did okay..." He was being positive even though underneath it he didn't feel that way. He was sure of it that he would be fine, and well if he did better then at least he would be able to. Lately his thoughts had been distracted by this whole Izaya situation. "That's great. I'll look over it again and help you with your math okay..." She gave the boy a hug, waved to him and turned to walk out the door shutting behind her.
It was better if she didn't know what he did after she left or when she wasn't' watching him. She was so nice to him, and yet all he did was cause problems. Why would someone be that way to him, he went back to his room, grabbed his notebook, before tearing out the drawing page and throwing it away. He closed it and after pulling his phone out locked the drawer so no one could get into it. "Wonder what she brought me this time...she never told me...Heh." He laughed and moved towards the kitchen looking to the bags that were sitting on the table. As he dug into them, he pulled out Miso glazed scallops with Soba noodles, and a few other things. She made him enough food to last a few days, and of course as always she left him with more then usual.
But he knew Izaya wasn't coming here tonight, he would be eating alone again. Which really didn't bug him, he would just sit down and watch TV, distract himself from his homework. Play some games, probably shower then go lay down in his room. He would finish his homework before he had to turn in it. He took one of the boxes and put some of the food in it before he grabbed a beer from the fridge. He might as well have something to drink even if he was not really in the mood of eating or drinking. He just wouldn't let good food go to waste, he wasn't that rude. He flicked the tv on, and yawned before he leaned back sitting on the couch. He didn't want to be sitting here now, but he didn't feel like going anywhere either.
It was some zombie like movie, Resident Evil or whatever it was about, he didn't really pay attention to them. He was way to bleh to even think about it. He poured some of the beer into his mouth, and took a bite out of the steak like thing she got him, and he was hungry so of course his stomach growled. But it was not like he was starving it, he just had skipped breakfast this morning because he had gotten up late. Thanks to staying up late tracking down Izaya at their special little place. The things that happened there he would keep to himself for now. "Don't go alone...it's gonna get you..." He sighed and placed the barely eaten food thing on the table. He was tired, but he wouldn't sleep, after removing all but his boxers he just curled up on the couch his eyes seemed glued to the TV.
He was trying to ignore his phone, but he kept looking at it, as hard as he tried to just ignore it. That was complicated, and he might as well deal with it. Kida got up moving to the fridge to put the food away, putting the beer in his hand away too. He had finished two and was on his third, so he figured he should stop before he got too wasted to do his work. He heard someone behind him, but he just ignored it figuring he was hearing things. That was until he felt someone breathing on his neck, the arms that were wrapped around him he knew all to well." Ignoring your phone...why is that?" Izaya had a habit of appearing out of nowhere, and well he was standing behind the smaller blonde male. "Not like you care you were busy with her again..." There was hint of anger in the voice, but he didn't care he wouldn't stop it. He was Izaya Orihara's secret lover, someone that was there whenever Izaya wanted.
It lead to things, but each time Kida tried to run away he always got dragged back again. "Oh do I sense a hint of jealously..." Izaya leaned down to bite the boy's neck his hands slipping down to the boy's boxers after all it was all the boy was wearing, he would probably tease the boy till the kid spoke. "No...and so what if you did..." He shivered, moaning just ever so slightly at the bite mark. "I..izaya..." He pressed against the boy and tried to get away from him, maybe cause he was trying to be mad at him but it wasn't working. Izaya pressed him against the wall, and held the boy there. "You aren't getting away...you should know this by now..."
Kida looked at him, and glared, before he slammed his foot on Izaya's storming away from him. He was not in the mood, he had homework to do. Though he was glad Izaya was here, his hands went to the mark on his neck. He would have to make sure to cover that up. He went to sit on the bed staring at the desk, ignoring Izaya who walked into the room after him. "Aww come on loosen up already you are too tense..." He sat behind Kida, pulling him back on the bed. Kida hissed, and tried to fight him, though he ended up pinned against Izaya's chest this time. He sighed, it looked like he wasn't getting out of this one. He leaned up to kiss the older male lightly before he curled up on his shoulder nuzzling Izaya's neck.
"I missed you..." He muttered, he barely wanted to talk at all, though he was still annoyed with Izaya. He wanted to tell the man to pick who he loved. Was it him or that girl, he would make him pick. Or maybe he would just let this game go on for a little bit longer. He stayed where he was laying, feeling Izaya pull the blanket up over them. He knew when he woke up in the morning Izaya would be gone, but he didn't mind at all. He had the warmth of him being here right now. That was all that mattered to Kida now. He felt a hand on his neck, and then he heard some words but didnt' know what they were before he passed out. He was too tired after all that had gone on today. He just didn't wish to deal with it anymore.
"Izaya you can't stay here forever...you are going to have to let go of him eventually..." The person standing in the room, had been outside of it. She was wearing a yellow helmet, her bike could be heard still on outside. She was typing on a phone, it was her way of communicating. "Maybe one day for now let's see how long this kid can last...before he breaks..." he was messing with Mikado, maybe it was why he was trying to steal Kida away from his friend. 'You won't be hurting this kid again...just be glad he doesn't' realize what you are up to...' He moved to put the boy down on the pillow, he kissed the boy's forehead before he moved out of the room. He had left a knife necklace around the boy's neck, it was some sort of tracking device. And also a way for him to protect him, maybe even some sort of thing that marked Kida as his.
~The next Morning~
Kida opened his eyes, the sunlight was flooding into the room, he rubbed his eyes, the space next to him felt empty. He knew Izaya was gone, but he didn't know how to react to this one. It was just not that easy, He moved his hand under the pillow Izaya's knife was there. He knew the older male had more then one of them. He held it to his chest hearing the clink of metal against metal. He felt the necklace around his neck, Izaya had gotten it for him it seemed. "Time to get ready for school..." He got up, and looked to the desk, his homework was done when he didn't remember doing it yesterday. 'Izaya you did it again...' He sighed, he was grateful for the help though he was afraid of failing and he hated it. Maybe he wanted to do it himself, but he had fallen asleep, oh well at least it was done, and it looked kind of like his handwriting so not like his teacher would notice the difference.
He picked up his bag, after shoving his homework in it, he had almost overslept again he had to go now. He raced out of his room, only to stop at the table grabbing his book. He grabbed a piece of toast and the thing of coffee that had been there. Izaya must have left it for him, not that he cared. He would at least be somewhat awake when his class came. He raced out of the house holding the toast in his mouth. He had shoved it in his mouth before he reached where he was supposed to go. He would get out of here, and then later when he got back. He had to hope Izaya was here at home, it was just easier that way. He would wait again and probably fall asleep before he showed up. "Darn I'm gonna be late!" He moved almost running into Mikado.
"oh uh hi Mikado kun...you wanna walk to school together?" He smiled and laughed latching onto the other male, he was wrapping his arms around his neck. "Uh sure Kida...Let's go..." He grabbed onto Kida's hand after escaping from him. The two of them would run to school and hopefully get there on time.
Author notes: Well this chapter ends on a somewhat good footing. thank you very much for reading this if you do it's posted on My deviant and fanfiction. Izaya/ Kida yaoi ideas have been in my head for awhile thanks to watching Durarara. Probably some Shizaya in there to somewhere. Lol. Next chapter will be up soon after I get the zombie one started.