Thank you for reviewing my last fic. This is the next one. It takes place about the middle of the fifth season after everyone found out. The title of it comes from the song by the Dixie Chicks. Anyways, hope that you enjoy it.
Disclaimer: So, yeah, they're not mine.
Without You: 1999, March, New York City
"Hey honey," Monica said coming into the apartment and setting her bags on the floor.
"Hey," Chandler said.
"Is something the matter?" She asked. He nodded.
"We need to talk," he said gently leading her over to the couch and sitting her down. "I got promoted."
"That's great!" Monica said hugging him.
"Mon, let me finish," Chandler said. "The job is in Los Angeles."
"Los Angeles?" Monica repeated. He nodded studying her face.
"You don't have to leave," he told her. "We can make this work. We can make a long distance relationship work." She nodded.
"I just...I don't...I don't want to leave New York," she said. "But I don't want to lose you."
"You aren't going to," he told her.
"But I think that if you move then I will," she said. He took her hand in his and couldn't help the tears that were falling down his face.
"Monica, I love you more then anything in this world," he started. "And I would do anything for you. But this is the opportunity of a lifetime, and it would mean a secure future for us."
"If you go," she spat. "Would we even have a future?"
"I think that we can make this work."
"You already decided! You already have all the plans worked out!" She knew him too well. He looked down. "When do you leave?"
"Next week," he told her not able to look into her eyes. He knew that she was crying by her deep raged breaths.
"Go," she said. She was angry. He hadn't even talked about it first with her.
"But Mon, what about us?"
"You didn't really take us into consideration when you said yes did you?"
"I did! I can come home once a month and you can come out there once a month!"
"Forever?" She asked. "No, you thought that I would eventually give up everything and move there!" Now Chandler was angry.
"I thought that you loved me that much, yes I did," he yelled.
"I do love you! But I have a great job and my friends are here and my family is here. I can't just easily move and have everything be okay. I would be miserable out there, and you know that!"
"Monica," he pleaded. She looked at him.
"I want to go," she said. "But I don't know how to. I can't leave Chandler."
"I can't stay," he said quietly. He wasn't mad now, he was just sad. It broke his heart to see the tears streaming down Monica's beautiful face.
"I'm so sorry," she said hugging him. "I love you." He took her into his arms and soothingly rubbed her back.
"I know," he said. "I know, and I feel the same way. But I still have to go."
"And I still have to stay," she said quietly looking up at him.
I've sure enjoyed the rain
but I'm looking forward to the sun
you have to feel the pain
when you lose the love you gave someone
Monica walked over to the guy's apartment a week later and began to cry when she saw that Chandler's room was now empty. Rachel came up behind her.
"He's really gone," she whispered.
"I know sweetie," she said soothingly. She gave her best friend a hug. Monica sobbed into Rachel's shoulders. She would give anything for him to be back and holding her again. They had broken up officially. He told her that he would call and she had nodded. She hadn't been able to say goodbye. It had been too hard. She had just cried and nodded numbly.
I thought by now the time
would take away these lonely tears
I hope you're doing fine all alone
but where do I go from here cause'
Without you I'm not okay
And without you I've lost my way
I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in second place ooh
Without you
Chandler had been gone a month. Monica had been walking around like a zombie. Rachel was worried about her. She was throwing up every morning and she was feeling dizzy. Chandler had called once and after Monica had stayed in bed for the next day sobbing, Ross had told him that maybe it would be better for everyone involved that he not call anymore. Chandler had agreed.
"Is she okay?" He asked.
"No." That was the only thing that Ross said. Joey got on the phone to say goodbye.
"Is she okay?" Chandler tried with Joey.
"No," Joey said. "She's been sick and she doesn't get out of bed. Rachel is taking her to the doctor's tomorrow. I'm sorry that we're phasing you out." Chandler almost laughed at that.
"I know," he told his best friend. "I wish it could be different."
"So do we," Joey said. "Take care of yourself. Even though Ross says that it's better this way, call me and let me know how you're doing."
"I will," Chandler promised. "I will."
Well, I never thought I'd be here without you by my side
It seems unreal to me that
the life you promised was a lie
You made it look so easy
making love into memories
I guess you got what you wanted
but what about me cause
Without you I'm not okay
And without you I've lost my way
I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in second place ooh
Without you
"Ms. Geller?" Monica looked up. Rachel was holding her hand. "It seems your two months pregnant." Monica couldn't believe what he was saying. Rachel's mouth dropped open.
"Thank you," she managed. Monica couldn't speak. Rachel helped her up and put on her coat and led her to the cab that was waiting for them. Once they were inside their apartment, Rachel tried to approach the subject. As gently as she could she asked,
"What are you going to do?" Monica just looked at her.
"I...don't know...I'm going to keep it," Monica said. "That's for sure, but I don't know if I should tell Chandler." She thought for a minute. "No," she finally said. "He doesn't need to know."
Somebody tell my head to try to tell my heart
that I'm better off without you
cause baby I can't live
Without you I'm not okay
And without you I've lost my way
I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in second place ooh
Without you
***Review and I'll work faster. I write fast anyway, but still I'll go even faster. I hope that you like it so far. The next part will be a little farther into the future.*****