I got this idea while I was watching Garden State. The chapter titles are songs. I do not own Degrassi, or the songs, I just like to write.

Chapter 1, part 1: At your funeral

My mom just died. It's still so weird to think about. Even though my child hood sucked every single aspect of it. My 'father' came and went as he pleased, not caring about me or my mother. Honestly, I think she really did try her best, even though it wasn't much. Granted, my upbringing made me... rebellious, but she was my mom, so none of that matters now... right? I haven't spoken to anyone at all since I started living on my own, back in high school. My Aunt is the one who left the message on my machine... "Jason, I know we haven't spoken in a long time, and I wish there was a better way to tell you then over this answering machine, but, your mother passed away last night. She drowned in the bathtub. Please come down for the funeral, it would mean the world to her." I had been lying in bed while she left the message. I just continued to stare blankly at the ceiling. "It would mean the world to her", but she's dead, so shouldn't that be in past tense? I always knew something was going to happen to her. My mom was a paraplegic. I don't have too many memories of growing up, but the ones I do have aren't that great. All I can picture is the yelling, the fighting, and the occasional time when my mom and I would just sit and watch TV. That is the only okay thing that pops into my head when thinking about her.

Anyway, I decided to attend the funeral. I felt like I had to, ya know. I took a plane ride back to Toronto. My head was elsewhere the entire time; I couldn't remember anything that was actually going on during the plane ride. I got this incredible headache, it felt like lightening. They stopped coming once I got to the funeral. I just stood there, watching people around me cry, and having to listen to some cousin sing a horrible song, and her voice made it even worse. The song was about three times a lady or something. Horrible, horrible voice. During the wake my aunt filled me in on what I missed, which wasn't much. My mom apparently decided to redecorate the house. The house is nice, especially compared to the dump of an apartment that I raised myself in. I really just wanted to leave, yet I just sat on the couch, emotionless. I was tired of hearing people cry and listening to stories. I never fit in with my 'family' and I definitely didn't fit in now. I couldn't bring myself to think about that. I tried to think about my mother, I felt like I should be crying or something... I don't know...

Finally I got out of there. I am now hanging out with Alex and the old Degrassi group that I never got along with. Apparently Alex and Paige are still an off-again-on-again couple. So here I am, sitting in this club, drinking to ease my mind. I half-heartedly reply to something Marco asks me, with no idea as to what he is talking about. I close my eyes, feeling that rush of a headache coming back to me, like lightening, and now its gone. I turn my attention to the entrance, for a reason unknown to me, almost like my eyes were being forced to look. Coming into the bar is one of the most beautiful girls I have ever laid my eyes on. The dress she is wearing is amazing, it hugs her in all the right places, but she doesn't look at all slutty. Never have I ever seen anything like her before in my entire life. Would you listen to me? I sound like a fucking chick or something, but she is almost breath taking...

Chapter1, part 2: Get Fucked Up

She looks familiar, actually they all look familiar [her and the two girls that came in with her. I can't really get a good look from where I am, I mean I can see her body, which is hot, by the way, but I can't really see her face. Her friend is hot too. The three girls sit at a table, order some drinks, and are obviously talking about something funny. One of the other girls is dragging her off to dance, and she looks like she doesn't want to, but she's laughing. I wish I could get a better look at her. She's a pretty good dancer, moving her hips back and forth, the dress slowly coming up, and then falling back down. Incredible. Alex sits next to me with a little smile on her face.

"Do you know who you're staring at?" Alex asks him, a smiling creeping across her lips. She looks at the two girls dancing, and then back at Jay, who hasn't moved her eyes off of her.

"Who is she?" Jay removes his eyes from the girl to look at Alex's smile on her face. She laughs a little.

"If you don't already know who she is then I'm not telling you. I would love to be there when you finally find out who she is though." Alex says, and then gets out of her seat to go back over to Paige. Why couldn't she just tell me? Sometimes Lexi annoys the shit out of me. I'm done here; I need to hang out with my own type of people.

Jay left the bar, and took a drive to the ravine, just to reminisce. He walked around his old party area, not surprised to see new kids drinking and dancing, and the same old van. A little smirk escapes Jay's lips as he thinks back to his high school days.

"Jay, man, is that you?" Todd asks, approaching his old friend.

"Yep, it's me."

"What are you doing here?" Todd and Jay share a man-hug.

"Um, my mom just died, I came back for the funeral."

"Sorry dude, that sucks."

"Uh yeah, so what are you doing here, most these girls are probably jail bate." Jay looks around at the group of people. Skanky as always.

"Nah, I know a few who are eighteen. Hey, Scott's throwing a party; it's supposed to be good."

"Then what are we doing here?" Jay and Todd get into Jay's orange civic, which he just couldn't part with, and headed over to Scott's. Jay was greeted by a bunch of old partying buddies.

"Someone get this dude a beer, he shouldn't have to wait for one." Scott says over his shoulder to a few people that were in the kitchen. Someone got Jay a beer and the two headed over to the couch. "Nice to have ya back man." Jay nodded as he sipped his beer. Scott took out some coke, set it out on a little square piece of glass, and pushed it towards Jay.

"Nah." Jay says, shaking his head.

"Then take this." Todd gives him some X. Jay looks at the pill with the smiley face on it.

"I guess I'll see ya later." Jay throws the pill in his mouth and puts his head back as he swallows it. A couple of girls giggle and Todd pats him on the shoulder. Jay was out of it from that point on. He knew they started to play spin the bottle, and thought it was kind of weird. A bunch of twenty year-olds playing spin the bottle, but they were all either drunk or high.

Jay woke up the next morning on the couch. He sat up tiredly and looked around, trying to remember where he was and what he was doing there. I feel like shit. He stood up and made his way to the kitchen.

"Morning Jay, haven't seen you in forever. Have some cereal." Todd's mom poured him a bowl. "Okay, I'm off to work. Don't stay in the house all day; the monoxide detector was beeping all night so I took the batteries out. Love you." Todd's mom picked up her bag and headed out the door.

"Still living with your mom." Jay said, in between his bites of cereal.

"I love living here; I pay for nothing and do as I please." Todd announced, finishing his breakfast. "How long are you staying for?"

"Um, a few days I guess. I gotta get going, I'll see ya later."