**Disclaimer: I do not own anything related to twilight except for the new ideas. Everything else belongs to Stephenie Meyer.**

Bella was sitting at her desk trying to occupy herself. She wanted to clear her thoughts of everything. She wanted so bad to go back in time to try and convince her mom to let her stay with her and Phil. At least then she wouldn't have to feel this pain. At least then, things could have been different. Like an idiot she had gone with Alice to try and save Edward from making a huge mistake and exposing the human world to the vampire world.

Bella's eyes began to water. She tried to fight back the memory but it was all too lucid for her and way to surreal. The memory came anyway.

"Edward! NO!" Bella was yelling for him to stop but he wasn't listening. Why won't he listen? She kept running towards him when she realized he couldn't hear her. "Edward!"

She was too late. Edward had stepped out into the sun, showing all the humans around him his sparkling body and all were mesmerized. The Vulturi were furious. Red cloaks came in from everywhere dragging him to an alley. She knew there was nothing she could do anymore.

Bella fell to the ground in tears, but before she could process anything she felt someone lift her up and speed away with her. It wasn't long before she realized it was Alice.

"Alice. I am so sorry. I really tried. I tried so…"

"I know, Bella. I know you tired, but you have to get out of here. I am taking to the airport. You're going home, and you won't hear from us anymore. We won't risk your life anymore. But know that you will always be loved by us. Forever."

Bella sat staring at her computer screen not really paying attention to it anymore. It had been a month since the incident and she was getting to the point that she was finally able to move on. She wasn't paying attention to what she was doing. Then she heard a faint sound come from the computer. When she focused in she saw an instant message coming from her mother.

Are you ok?

Great! Now her mom was on the worry kick again. She wondered just how much Charlie had been telling her.

I'm fine.

Maybe that answer would be sufficient enough for her. Maybe she wouldn't make that big of a deal out it.

You're lying.

But once again she pulls on the full blown mom act.

Mom. I love you

but I have to go.

Bella turned her computer off and went downstairs. It was about time for Charlie to get home and she needed to start dinner for him. While she was in the middle of making Lasagna Charlie came through the front door.

"I'm home, Bella." Charlie said.

"Hey, Dad."

"Mmm… something smells good. Is that Lasagna?" Charlie gave Bella a hug and a smile. "Bells. I'm really worried. Why haven't you talked to Jacob?"

"He's upset with me. And I don't blame him. He just needs his space."

The truth was Bella really did miss Jacob. He was always able to fill the holes that caused her so much pain. She could set her mind free with him. Oh Jacob. Would he ever forgive her?

"Billy's coming over later." Charlie had snapped her out of thought. "Do you want me to ask him to bring Jacob?"

Bella thought about. Maybe if she could just talk to him.

"Sure, dad, if it makes happy?

There was so much tension in Bella's room; you could cut it with a knife. Jacob refused to say a word and he would not look at Bella. She wondered how long they could sit there like that. Finally, it was time for somebody to say something.

"I'm glad you decided to come over. I wanted to talk to you." Bella looked at Jacob hopeful.

"Yeah, well my dad dragged me out of the house without telling me where we were going." Jacob was still upset with her. She could tell. She was so sorry she had caused him pain. She knew she would upset him when she chose to go. She had chosen at that very moment to consider her own feelings instead of his, but she refused to feel selfish. She had truly loved Edward and wanted him to live, but now she knew that it just wasn't meant to be.

"Jacob, please. It has been a month now. I know what I did hurt you. I am sorry, but you have to understand where I was coming from."

"I do understand, because had I had two women after me and I had to save you, I would have chosen you as well."

Hurt by what he said, because she knew it had meant to be a sting, she yelled. "Look! You got what you wanted. He's dead and out of the picture and I have been miserable."

"You think that's what I wanted? For you to be miserable?" He's face dropped. He looked shocked and upset at the same time, and immediately Bella regretted saying that.

"No, that's not what I mean."

"Then what did you mean?" She had never seen him so upset.

"Jacob." Bella took a step toward him. "I just mean that he is not in way. Our friendship is here to stay, if you want it too. I miss you." She leaned into hug him. He held her close. His body temperature was just as hot as ever.

"Bella. I would never have stopped being your friend. I just wouldn't have been allowed to be around you. I've missed you, too. More than you know."

They were interrupted by a knock on the door.

"Billy says it's time to go, but I am glad to see you two have made up." Charlie winked at Bella before heading back downstairs.

"I'll see you soon, Bella." Jacob leaned in and kissed her on the cheek. When he left the room, Bella felt whole again. She walked downstairs to wave them off and to say goodnight to Charlie. He gave her the look that she knew all too well, the look of I knew it.

As she was crawling into bed, she heard a noise. It came from directly outside her window. She walked quickly to her window only to notice a brief flow of red head into the forest. Of course! How could she forget about Victoria? Howling came from the woods. She knew the wolves were out but she wanted Jacob by her side. She had never been so scared. She looked down to see the big wolf coming out of the forest. It was her big wolf. She could hear Charlie snoring in the other room so she knew he was asleep. He was always one to fall asleep quickly. She opened her window and called to him.

"Jacob. Jacob, please! I need you! I need you here with me!"

The wolf nodded and she knew to move back away from the window. She had kept a pair of Charlie's sweatpants in her room because she often liked to wear them to bed. She threw them down for him so he had something to wear when he transformed.

"Bella!"

"I forgot she was still out there looking for me. Please don't leave me. Stay with me."

"It's alright. I'm here. I'm not going anywhere."

He lay beside her in her bed and watched as she drifted to sleep. He couldn't help but think about how nice it was to be there with her and how it felt right. He loved Bella and was not going to let anything happen to her. She was the love of his life. He would be the one to fight for her, whether that meant for her love or for her life.