It's mainly an experiment with River-like POV... A bit influenced by Forward, I admit, but I tried to set my own tone and logic to the text.

Disclaimer: No, I don't own Firefly. Don't we all wish we did?

Youaxisofmyworld

There are more things in heaven and earth that are dreamt of in your philosophy – Horatio, it is proper to remember Horatio – but the first thing is the ugly arrowfeeling that runs and hits me with hungergreed.

It's more arrow than feeling, because it hurts, because I look at the wide wide eyes and they can see me in that place again – and thinking of that place is being in that place even though it shouldn't be and they're coming – coming – coming at me – go. away.

You. You. Where?

(Human beings shrink and regain height in a regular basis – vertebrae are eighty-eight percent water and they lose and they regain water like a merry-go-round – anomalies and deterioration with age may interfere in the process.

I am young. I think.

There isn't any anomaly of such sort in my vertebrae. I think. I know. There wasn't.

Therefore, I cannot feel smaller.)

(But I do.)

Small. You.

Where are you?

Showers can be of rain and of asteroids and of arterial blood, arteries being pierced and I never see/saw/seen so much blood– and I look amazed and afraid as they hit me from all sides – this time, they're of feelings, different timbres and voices and your voice and there's fear.

There are tears in my eyes as I start to do the math – because youaxisofmyworld – and the manCaptain who is closest is fast but I can be faster and the womanZöe umlaut over the o sees what he doesn't see and that's what makes her a good firstmate and the manJayneCobb who is holding you has no right of doing that isn't intelligent but is smart and might harm you faster than I can reach younot counting the element of surprise, so he's gotta go first—and the oil-covered woman with the big eyes—

(Sexual desire is biological drive, much in the same way as hunger. The primary function of the body is to survive the act of mating is prolonging survival the search for sexual pleasure is a mindless incentive that ensures that the body keeps on mating.)

(I'm naked.)

Your scream and your fear hits me tangentially as I drop to the floor and the showeroffeelingsfromallsides does not threat but pities. Pity feels very, very weird against my tongue and there's hands.

Simon.

Your hands are so little in mine.

Simon!

The fear is in your eyes is forofme.

Oh, how the mighty have fallen – The weapons of war were perished.

"Simon," you're speaking. "Simon, I'm here, it's River—Simon—"

There is a cut in your face. Blood drips at a velocity of 1cl/s. Tears do not belong, have to be erased.

"It's okay," it's not"we're gonna be okay,"we're not "it's all going to be okay"NEVER again.

Arms shake and tremble and tears feel wet – and you don't belong - intelligence of mind does not preclude maturity of mind but "there's no place like home."

(Humans can find comfort in certain actions.)

Your breath against my shoulder is wet and panting and salt in your hair but you feel better and I feel better. "Are you safe?" I ask.

Still Simonbigbrother, happiness, "Of course, yes," fornow.

Laughing and crying at the same time is creepy, the manJayneCobb saysthinks and he's right.

I've unlearned how to stop crying. I ought to learn again –Iknow youaxisofmyworld don't really mind, but a big brother shouldn't let his little sister see him cry.

I said it was an experiment with River-like POV, not with River's POV, hehe... Seriously, now, I guess everyone who watched Firefly thought about how things would be if Simon was the crazy one, and not River. I guess things would be more difficult, since River is a seventeen-year-old girl who probably barely knew how to take care of herself, and Simon is physically stronger than she is. Simon would have his own brand of craziness - I tried to write him as rationalizing things to try to control his thought process, but being unable to -; also, his instinct of taking care of River surely wouldn't be gone, and I think he would be more prone to attack whenever he perceived River to be in danger. River would have to use the safeword a lot more than Simon does... :( Kaylee feels some lust for Simon because, hey, pretty naked guy, but it's not as big as deal as Simon thinks it is - because Simon is still his proper self at his core, so he'd be embarrassed, obviously.

If anything, Mal would have a good surprise when he opened the box. XD

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