I see your face in my dreams,
I hear your laugh in my ears,
I feel your touch on my skin,
I still taste you on my tongue,
I still love you in my heart.
That's the poem my lover Zexion wrote and sent to me the day before he died.
It's really sad to think that he died the day after our one year anniversary.
The day I found out he died was the worst day ever.
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"Hey Demyx."
Xigbar walked in my room looking sad and I knew something was wrong.
"Something happened at the castle and well ..everyone's dead. Sorry man."
I think my nonexistent heart just stopped.
"no .no NO! He can't be dead! He just can't!"
I broke down and started to cry and scream about how he couldn't be dead.
"Whoa! Calm down little dude!"
Xigbar rushed over to me and put his arm around me saying it was going to be
ok. But we both knew it wasn't. It was never going to be ok again. My heart
had died the minute Xigbar said Zexion was dead. Even if we do get our hearts
back it'll still going to be broken beyond repair. And for a minute I thought
about suicide before I realized that Zexion would be disappointed with me for
giving up so easy. And eventually I stopped crying but on the inside, I was dieing.
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It's been a couple months since then and sometimes I still cry myself to sleep knowing that Zexion will never walk trough that door again, that he'll never kiss me again, or ever see him again. But when I close my eyes I can still see his face, I can still hear his voice, feel his touch, and if I imagine hard enough I can almost feel his lips on mine. It's hard getting up every day and having nobody there for you. But I just got to think about Zexion and all the times we had together and I find the strength to carry on. And who knows, maybe I'll see Zexion in the after life. Then, we can continue the after life together when we couldn't on earth.