Hello again... This is the result of being up until almost 3 in the morning on a school night and being... well... tired and angsty
So anyway... This is another Tyki/Allen fic, because I love them dearly. The Japanese words are lyrics from a song called Bronze ~Saishuushou~. Those English words below them ARE NOT a translation... they are sort of thoughts from Tyki's perspective in response to the lyrics... Yeah, kinda confusing, but in my defense, I was only about half-conscious when I wrote it. There's an English translation of the lyrics at the bottom for those of you who want to know what those Japanese words say and can't read them.
Warning: slash content (if you don't know what it is, look it up, cause it's not my prob if you don't like), but no smexing or anything... there's kissing and stuff, though
Disclaimer: Tyki and Allen both belong to Katsura Hoshino *sniffle* not me
Hitori heya no sumi de uzuku matteta
I would wait forever for you, my innocence
Anata no hada no iro omoidashiteta
It's so pale against my darkness, so pure
Dakishimeru to fui ni kieteyuku yuki
Like newly fallen snow, but when I touch
Murasaki no sora kara futtekuru
It melts away every morning with dawn
Zetsubou…
And leaves me only with despair
Tyki sat in the silent room, waiting for his lover to return to him for the night. His shounen, his Allen. He knew that he shouldn't be here, shouldn't be anywhere near here, and shouldn't be waiting for anyone, especially not an exorcist, the thorn in the Earl's side. He shouldn't have come here, but… but…
I can't give him up… His golden eyes slid shut.
Hajimeteatta hi wa chikakute touku
I can still remember seeing you for the first time
Sagashiteita hito wa mujaki ni warau
You possess a beauty that I could never obtain
Hikareteyuku ore wa kotae mo miezu
You captured me like a butterfly in a golden net
Kinou, kyou, ashita wo nakushiteku
I can't imagine being without you anymore
The door opened, and he looked up to see the shining face that haunted his dreams and every waking moment. A grin in place, Allen appeared everything he was not. The boy set aside his exorcist garb, one of the many symbols of their difference, and came to him. Tyki leaned gratefully into the embrace, breathing in his lover's sweet scent. "Shounen…"
Ano kuroushisa hageshisa
I can't breathe without seeing your face
Ano kizuato ni kuchizuke
The scar that marks it burns my lips
Ano chigiresouna omoi mo
Everything swirls together
Nemurenu hodo no itami mo
I ache, knowing we can't be this way, but
Dare ga ubaeru mono ka?
I won't let them take you from me
"Tyki," he breathed back, gently pressing his lips against his lover's dark ones. "You're here."
"Of course I am, shounen. I couldn't forget about you."
Silver eyes glanced up at him, flashing with something bordering on delight. He would do almost anything to see those eyes sparkle so. "Really?" his lover whispered, leaning close, so close that his warm breath washed over Tyki's skin, sizzling it. "I guess… Maybe I'm afraid that one day you'll realize what I am… and then you won't come back."
The reason I come back is because of what you are.
Soba ni ite ikanaide ore dake mitsumete
You're mine; I will always be here
Mune wo kogasu anate e no ai
It hurts so sweetly, my shounen
Dakishimete hanarenai dare ni mo kowasenai
No one could take you away from me
Donna kami ni mo sumuitemo ii
Not God, not the Earl
Inochi nado nakushitemo
My life would be worth nothing
Anata dake ireba ii
If you weren't here
"How could I ever forget you?" Tyki asked, smirking back at his sweet lover and breathing in mouthfuls of that sweet scent. "Silly shounen, come closer."
He pulled Allen down into his lap, wrapping his arms around the boy tightly, unwilling to release him. It seemed like every force in the universe conspired to rip them apart, to shatter them into little pieces until they were unrecognizable to each other. Someday it may be my job to kill him… and his to kill me… But he would rather his shounen killed him. He didn't like the idea of a world without Allen Walker.
You shouldn't have gotten so attached.
He couldn't help himself. When had obsession morphed into more? He didn't remember anymore.
Moshi mo kono shinzou nukidaserunara
If only I could find a way to show you
Ima sugu anata ni kono ai misetai
You would see and understand
Mi wo sakareruyouna yoru ga tsuzukeba
We have more than passion
Akkenaku yume nado kieteyuku
When daylight comes, should it disappear?
Soft lips pressed against his, a little harder and hotter, sending little shocks down his spine. Everything about Allen intoxicated him, pulling him under like rich red wine until he was drunk on their passion and love. Did Allen not realize…? Did he not see…? Tyki couldn't forget him, not even if he wanted to, not even when the sun came back up and he returned to the Earl, returned to being enemies.
All I want is you, shounen, and you're the one thing I can never have.
Ano nayamashisa setsunasa
I go back, though, to what I was
Ano eien ni inoru yo
And every moment I wish it was different
Ano shibireruyouna toiki mo
My sighs go unheard and pain unfelt
Tada tsuka no ma no yasuragi mo
My world stops when I see your eyes
Dare ga ubaeru mono ka?
No one can take that away from me
But I won't let them pull us apart, even if it goes against everything we should be.
They were different, light and dark, two sides, enemies at the opposite sides of the universe who met in the middle secretly. If anyone ever found out… Allen would be expelled from the Order, or worse. But it wouldn't come to that… couldn't… He was in too deep now to let go. He'd fall too far, and hit the ground too hard.
Allen pulled away, tears pricking his glimmering eyes. "I missed you," he whispered. "I hate that you have to hide."
"I hate it, too, shounen, but it's the way things have to be." Resigned, he leaned down to press their foreheads together. "I'm here now, though, so don't cry."
Their eyes caught and held.
Koko ni itekurerunara ni do to wa nakasenai
My fingers brush away those tears forever
Aishiteiru anata to chikau
Let me love you; let me make you smile
Hazurenai karameau tsumetai yubisaki
Entwined for eternity, dark and light
Donna kami ni mo sumuitemo ii
Even now I defy all that I am
Kono tsumi ga nandatte
Hell would be kinder than being alone
Anata dake ireba ii
Without you when the darkness falls
If it was a sin then so be it; Tyki didn't care. His fingers wrapped around Allen's dark hand, itching at every touch, yet to him it was like a breath of fresh air. Allen was the innocence he never possessed, his sweetness and kindness. Allen was everything he should hate, everything he was not, and everything he reached for with all his strength. Could he ever truly let Allen go?
No, he decided. I cannot.
Allen sniffled and nodded, though his eyes were damp, little droplets clinging to his snow-pale eyelashes like crystals. "I wish things didn't have to be this way."
Tyki's fingers brushed the glowing cross in his lover's arm, scraped across a pale cheek like a shadow. His lips hovered against soft skin. No one will ever keep you from me; not the Earl, not the Order… not God himself will make me stay away. Defiantly, he held Allen's left arm as if it was made of the finest glass. Maybe this is all a hopeless dream, but if it is, than I would dream forever rather than live in the dark.
Soba ni ite ikanaide ore dake mitsumete
I need you and your light, my shounen
Mune wo kogasu anate e no ai
I love you so much I could cry
Dakishimete hanarenai dare ni mo kowasenai
Nothing will tear us apart now
Donna kami ni mo sumuitemo ii
I would do anything for you
Inochi nado nakushitemo
I would give my life for you
Anata dake ireba ii
But I can't live without you
This is entirely experimental in nature... I'm not even sure what this is, to be completely honest
Anyway, here's the English translation of the Japanese lyrics... it might be a little rough around the edges, but I'm not an expert or anything
Achingly, I waited alone in the corner of our room
I remembered the color of your skin
When I embraced you, like snow, you melted away
And fell from the violet sky
Despair
The day we first met is so close yet so far
The person I was searching for smiled innocently
I was dazzled by you, and unable to answer why
Yesterday, today and tomorrow are lost
That insanity, that violence
That scar which I kiss
Or that seemingly broken memory
Or the pain that keeps me away at night
Can someone take these away from me?
Stay by my side, don't go! Gaze only at me
My hearts burns with love for you
Holding onto you, I won't let go
No matter what gods we must go against
I don't need my life or anything else
Just as long as I have only you
If I could pull out this heart of mine
I would show you this love right now
If the night of animalistic love-making could continue
Then the fleeting dreams would disappear
That torment, that oppression
That eternal prayer
Or that numbed sigh
Or that momentary tranquility
Can someone take these away from me?
While I am here, I won't let you cry twice
I love you! This is my pledge to you
Connected, entangled cold fingertips
No matter what gods we must go against
What sin is this?
Just as long as I have only you
Stay by my side, don't go! Gaze only at me
My hearts burns with love for you
Holding onto you, I won't let go
No matter what gods we must go against
I don't need my life or anything else
Just as long as I have only you
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