Broken strings
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters and also the song..
a/n: italic-flash backs
Bold-song lyrics
Bold/italic-thoughts in flash backs
"Don't touch me! Don't you come near me again natsume!" the brunette yelled in irritation.
Natsume was left their dumbstruck.
Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything
When I love you
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking
It's the voice of someone else
Its been a year when Mikan and Natsume's friendship suddenly turned into a love and ended in break up.. He reminisce the past when they all together … bonded as one.. The happy moments they shared.. And the faults they always argue and suddenly turned in burst laughter's.
She is the one he truly loves .. His "polka-dots" but their fate are maybe not mean to be
My polka-dots
Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay
Mikan was passing to corridors to corridors trying to run away from the shadow , whom she'd loved and the one who hurt her feeling ..
She begin recalling the pain's she'd been experience ..
It was a bright day, it was their day. It was their5th mothsary .Mikan woke up with her usual bright smile plastered in her face .She took a bath and dress up and ready to find her Natsume.
She searches all around in the campus.
Dorm-none
Classroom-none
And lastly the sakura tree..
"Their you go natsume, ive been finding you all day" she said as she look up above the tree where natsume usually sit.
Natsume glance at her nonchalantly.
"What now, Mikan" he hissed
Her heart sank in …'she called me by my name but the emotion. is he avoiding me? For these past days he's been neglecting me..Its unusual' she thought… she want to cry ..But she tried her best not to.
"Uhm natsume...do you remember what day is today?" she asked sweetly
'im tying to understand you even though hotaru scold me of being stupid when it comes to you… ooh im stupid since then'
"Its May 18.. Why?" he said in his cool façade
"Uhm ... do you remember anything bout this day?" she asked again ...Trying to hold the tears in her eyes 'he didn't remember'
"Theirs nothing 'bout this day … if there are ... don't care!" he jumped down the tree and begin walking away from hers.
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
A lie is worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before
"What's wrong with you? You're so damn cold to these past days. I tried to understand.. I wondering if there are still us..." her tears run all the way from her eyes
Natsume glance at her..
"Mikan…" he paused and release a big sigh.. His face still cool and emotionless, but his eyes define its sadness
Silence covered the place …Mikan burst out crying
"There are no us! I don't love u … all of this are all mendacity..! It's all an act! I don't love you! Who the hell guy will love an idiot and a stupid like you?" he hissed and start again walking away from her ….
From his idiot exgirlfriend
Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late
"Natsume" Ruka spat from nowhere …
The ravened turned his face her the voice came out..
"What now?" he inquire coolly
"Getting over with sakura-san?"
"Why should i? … I know how much I love her.."
I love her.. But I hurt her
"But you know that if you continued that …love of yours, Persona will force her to join the dangerous ability class and she will do a mission… she will be hurting more. Not only emotionally but also PHYSIALLY"
"I don't know! .. I don't know want I going to do!"
"Sakura-san is hurting day by day … and she will be hurt more if Persona will joined her in the DA class .. Choose the wisest … anyway you're a genius" his blond best friend taps his shoulder for encouragement and walked away
"Im always here" Ruka added
Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay
you can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before
Mikan is walking to the class 2B when someone ….
THUD
"Watch where you're going! Hn"
'That voice'
A masculine body leans against her …
She tilled up high her head … it was him… the guy she love and hurt her.
He carefully brush away his palms from her slender waist and..Left
Mikan arrived in the classroom.. Same as well with natsume who currently sleeping.
She walked in to her sit beside natsume…
"na-Natsume.." she muttered
"What now?" he asked not even glancing or putting down the manga covering in his face
"I still love u" she confessed..
"HN!" he looked at her with a smirk in his face..
"I told you … strawberry printed that all of that is all an act! A lie! You're an idiot and no damn guys will fall in love with you!" he yelled, getting the attention of all his classmates …
Baka baka baka
Hotaru's Baka gun hit the raven, but unfortunately he dodged all of it and jump down through the window.
But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late
"You sucks Natsume!" she cursed to the walls…
Her window pup open.. Reveling the intruder …
"Natsume" she whispered …
The wind blows ….
Her eyes narrowed as his words keep on repeating in her head
"There are no us! I don't love u … all of this are all mendacity..! It's all an act! I don't love you! Who the hell guy will love a idiot and a stupid like you?"
"I told you … strawberry printed that all of that is all an act! A lie! You're an idiot and no damn guys will fall in love with you!
His exact word..
"What the hell are you doing here?" she yelled
"Mikan, just wait. let me tell you everything.. I want to reconcile with you. Please listen to me first, please forgive me" He pleaded
"For all these years! For all the time. You've been waste, want to reconcile with me? Forgive you as if it's only a joke?Damn you Natsume!"
"There are no us! I don't love u … all of this are all mendacity..! its all an act! I don't love you! Who the hell guy will love a idiot and a stupid like you?"
"That was your exact word. Isn't it natsume?" she asked sarcastically
"It was all a lie. I love you Mikan. I just said that words to you because persona will force you to join the DA class and do missions like me if he still see me hanging out with you I don't want you to get hurt ." he said his eyes pleading
"Why didn't you tell me that earlier? It's been a year. I already moved on.. I don't love you anymore." she murmured.
"I don't love you anymore" she repeated
I don't love you anymore
xxxXxxx
A/n: yeah … it was done! hmmm… how was it? Crappy? Mushy? Sucks?
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Doumo arigatou … mata nee!