It's only Natural

I guess it's only natural to feel this depressed after someone you've loved died. But I don't feel like the others, I feel a stronger sadness. No one else had what we had. And now I have nothing really that brings me joy in my life. I guess my job is to stay in my room crying for the rest of my life. I miss you so much Cosmo. More then you can even imagine. I love you.

"Get up!" Sonic tried to pull my feet but I kept holding on to the couch with my feet. Man, why can't you just stop pulling me.

"No!" I screamed. "Let me go" But he kept pulling and I kept holding.

"You have to go out and live your life!" I rolled my eyes. Please don't get my life into this. I have none. Not anymore at least. I haven't invented anything for a few days now. Ever since it happened.

"No" I wimpered "I'm not going anywhere" I struggled to keep a grip of the couch "Please, just let me be!" I said and suddenly Sonic let go.

"Okay, Fine! I give up!" The sudden let go caused me to fall to the floor, then I got up. "I'm trying to help you, but if you want to live your life doing nothing that's fine by me! I'm going for a run"and with that he was gone. He seemed pissed. I started to think. Maybe Sonic was right, I shouldn't be such a drama queen. All I'd do is sit in the house sobbing and eating my butt load in ice cream. The thing is that I don't really want to go anywhere. I'm not in the mood.

I sat there, on the couch. No purpose in life. Nothing. What was I good for? Of course I couldn't do anything about it. I'm smart enough to realize that if I kill my self, I would just be selfish to the others around me. Doubling their pain. I don't want that. I can tell Sonic cares about me. I looked at the black TV screen and the remote. I didn't feel like watching something. No matter what I tried I couldn't get her of my mind.

Her- Cosmo. I miss her so much. I will always love her. I know one thing for sure, I am not falling down that love path again. It's too painful in the end. Sure once your with the person you feel so happy like anything can happen... and before you know it your stuck in your room with a bucket of peanut butter sobbing your heart off. It makes no sense. I'm only 12! Usually people need to be in there 20's to feel this great pain.

I lied my head back on the couch. Still feeling so... empty. I've never felt this sad before. This pain. Never. I just wanted it to stop, I wanted to go sleep and wake up and everything would be okay. This nightmare would be over again. I could be with Cosmo. But that kinda stuff never happens. She's not coming back. I need to realize that. I still water her seed. Every day, sometimes twice. Can't some one just take away my blues and make me happy. Everyone has tried. Sonic, Amy, even Knuckles gave it a shot. I just sat there with a confused face. I could hear them talking from the kitchen about me. They wouldn't shut up! Just let me be alone to my sadness, please? Why won't Sonic realize that nothing he says or anyone really can make me feel better. Either way I'll still not have Cosmo back. I heard foot steps coming my way. It was Amy, I know the way her pink boots tap when they walk. I know Sonic's too, and Knuckles.

"Go away Amy" I grumbled.

"Do you need anything?" She asked.

"Cosmo"

"Need anything I can get you" Amy asked once more. Sure, I could of had a lot of things. A teddy bear, an iced tea, a cheese sandwich, a hamburger no pickles, or fan because it was a little hot in here... but I didn't say any of that.

"No thanks" I replied sadly. I was depressed. Everyone knew that, and everyone knew why. Also they kept trying, but nothing they said helped. It kinda made it worst.

"Okay, well if you need anything I'll be in the kitchen" Amy sighed and slowly walked away, leaving me alone. Which is what I wanted, kinda. What in the world was I going to do with my life? Is this natural? I wanted to get up and invent something, but no ideas came to mind. I never have nothing in my head. What is wrong with me?

I sighed and lied back down. I really wanted Cosmo back to me. She was the only thing on my mind. I am never going to see her ever again. Never. Ever. Never. Ever. Never. Ever. My heart has turned into a back whole and I can never love ever again. I closed my eyes, why don't I take a break from this life thing?

I closed my eyes... and fell asleep.

Hey everyone, I really am sorry for all the crappy writing I've been giving you lately, but I think this is kinda good... well better then most... Hey guess what! SNOW DAY! No school! I hope you liked this, It might stay a one shot, unless you guys really like it then I might add more.Please let me know what you thought about this and if you want more. I love you!1!one!1!

Pasta

P.S. Song of the day is Grenade by Bruno Mars.