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I can feel him. The stiffling sensation of his reitsu clouding me and my five senses. It's almost as if he's dragging me in. I need to see him.
Yes, this was probably my most stupid plan yet. Here I was, stumbling, injured and half dead through a fake town gone battlefield, towards the epicentre of the fighting. Where Ichigo was facing off the one person I ever truly...
I wasn't about to betray anyone, certainly not. But I had always had a sickening, unwathering faith in Gin. I couldn't ignore it anymore, I couldn't continue to lay, waiting for death without seeing him once more. Without him knowing.. Knowing that I could somehow forgive him. I think perhaps I'm kidding myself.
My hand clutching at my wreched side, bloody and painful. Each step on takes more and more effort, I'm wearing out and I'm finding breathing difficult. To what extent will this make my death peaceful? Even if I could speak to Gin, he would just mock me with words and mindgames, probably even toss me aside. The thought of him hurting me made me pause. I couldn't help it, I couldn't help the tears that now trickled down my cheeks. My free hand, the one keeping me upright, gripped pointlessly at the wall I had stopped beside, too solid for me to squash and relieve my anguish.
A weak moment, keep going. I stumble on, the sensation that was once localised to my wound has now spread up my side, down my arm. I can feel my lungs drowning. I'm going to collapse, I can feel it. But I must keep going.
What are you doing? my inner self asks. What am I doing? I'm a disgrace! My own Captain has fallen and I couldn't even move to find him. Yet, here I am, running after that TRAITOR. I've done some stupid things, but this takes the damn biscuit. He'll probably kill me.
I hope he kills me, it'll be better than watching him kill everyone I care about with that ridiculus smile wiped across his beautiful face. Another weak moment.
I must stop you. I will stop you.
This is just a bit of drabble really. I read the chapter (I can't remember the number..) and was instantly inspired to write this. The angst of Gin and Rangiku kills me.