How Much You Are To Me
by: mj0621
Disclaimer: eh? Obviously, I don't own any of it...
Rating: T (and I'm sticking with it.)
Genre: Romance/Drama (not in the mood for humor today :P)
Pairing: Grillows/Pure Joy/GCR (My OTP of course ;) )
Author's Notes: Well, I just miss writing CSI Vegas fics... Besides, my brain was calling for a new fic again. The song I used in this fic is 'Get Mine Get Yours' by Christina Aguilera (album: Stripped). This song was supposed to be in my other fic 'A Right Mistake' but it didn't really fit it so here I am, feeling down so I thought I'd cheer myself up by writing about my first ever ship on the CSI series. Dedicated to my GCR buddies (waves to them). I owe you guys this fic. ;) One thing's for sure... WGF is back! Last note, this is the most complicated plot I ever wrote for LV so all mistakes are mine. POVs people! (Of course, it's me writing remember?) :D
------------------------------------------------------Ever since that unforgettable day, even though we wouldn't admit it, everything changed.
Baby you pretend that things ain't what they seem
All this tension telling me just exactly what we should be
Now I don't mind us being some kind of casual thing
Listen, all I wanna do right now is have your contact on me
Can you put your hands my waistline
Want your skin up against mine
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine, you get yours
Hang a please don't disturb sign
Put my back into a slow grind
Sending chills up and down my spine
Let me get mine, you get yours
You went to my place to ask for forgiveness for lashing your anger out on me. I know some cases get under your skin so without hesitation, I accepted.We had drinks and exchanged stories that seemed to be endless. It's been a while since we did this. Work took most of our time and not to mention, you have Lindsey. Yes, I miss this.. I miss you.
You took me by surprise when you started crying. My heart felt your pain as you shared your hardships and heartaches. I wish I could take the pain away but all I can do is hold you in my arms and say 'Everything will soon pass.'
My world went on fast forward as I realized your lips was against mine. I felt my home turn into cloud nine when you pressed your body against mine. I should've said 'no' but I couldn't.
That's how much you mean to me.
If you see me with a man
Understand that you can't question me
The feelings that you call, it ain't my fault
It can't help your jealousy
If you can handle the fact that
What we have has got to be commitment free
Then we can keep this undercover lovin' comin', hittin'
Underneath the sheets
Can you put your hands my waistline
Want your skin up against mine
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine, you get yours
Hang a please don't disturb sign
Put my back into a slow grind
Sending chills up and down my spine
Let me get mine, you get yours
Anger flowed in my system as you pulled me towards your office talking about how I 'communicate' with guys.You know as well as I do that what happened between us that night was... wasn't suppose to happen. I reminded you that we aren't anything but friends. You froze whilst my eyes pinned yours. Without saying a word, you pointed at the door. No need telling me twice. I left.
Later that day, you came to my house with a rose in hand. I saw the sadness in your eyes and I couldn't help myself but to hug you and accept your apology.
Heat rises though our bodies and what happened before happened again. Why is the most wonderful thing you ever done is always the one you weren't suppose to do? I just can't stop...
That's how much I feel for you.
Now listen
So, come on and freak my body
We can get nasty, naughty
All night a private party
Gotta hit that spot just right
Work me like a 9 to 5
It ain't about the kissin' and huggin'
Cause this is a physical lovin'
Straight sweatin', our bodies are rubbin'
Gotta hit that spot just right
Work me like a 9 to 5
We have a physical thing
We'll make love, but don't fall in love
Let me get mine, you get yours
You spend time
Just enough so you get yours, and I get mine
No strings attached
I want your body, not your heart
Let me get mine, you get yours
Come here
Don't be shy
I won't bite
Let me get mine, you get yours
We never took a step forward and what we have can't be explained.Maybe it's a 'mutual-physical' thing. No more, no less. You needed something from me and I was more than happy to give it to you. Yes, I'm a martyr. I'm a slave for you and no matter how much I wish something would happen about us, I know, it'll never happen because there is no us. There's only you and me.
I want to give you everything you want, everything you need. I want you to experience happiness even though it isn't with me.
That's how much I care for you.
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I never had the courage to bring our relationship to the next level. I had so many reasons why we aren't meant to be.
You deserve so much better. I'm no somebody and I want you to have all the best there is. I'm certainly not the best. I value our friendship more than anything. And no matter how we screw things up (no pun intended), I'll still try to preserve what's left.
I'll sacrifice everything up for two things: my family and you.
That's how much I love you.
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The smile on Gil Grissom's face vanished as Catherine Willows handed an envelope to him.
"What is this?"
Catherine sighed, "My resignation letter."
Gil scanned the paper twice before speaking, "Why? ... What's the real reason?"
"I... need to get away from this place."
"From me."
Catherine remained silent. She spun around to exit the room but Gil's strong grip on her arm prevented her from doing so. He walked towards her and whispered, "What's happening to us?"
"Nothing."
"This is not nothing, Cath..."
Upon hearing the first syllable of her name from his lips, tears rolled down on her cheeks.
"I have to leave... You deserve to be happy. I can't make you happy."
Gil pulled her against him and wrapped his arms around her fragile body. "You are my happiness."
"You deserve the best."
"I don't need the best. I need you. And if you keep insisting that, for me, you are the best."
She rested her head on his shoulders and cried. At that moment, as if someone from above sent a sign, both of hem spoke at the same time but their words weren't different from the another.
"You mean so much to me."
END
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I know it's OOC... XD but hey... I tried. Please do tell me what you think. I'd appreciate it a lot. I wrote this very early in the morning to pardon :P. Should I return back to the other shows and never return in here again? Tell me. ;) mj(wgf)