The World spins madly on.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything or the show would be shown on Showtime or HBO considering it would be rated R ;) most of the time anyway. ;)

A/N: Yes right…I am back. Fled the country for awhile to LA but I came back…just kidding…I only went there for vacation…and I saw Chandra Wilson…so yay me…I would have loved it more to actually see Kate Walsh…but maybe it was better that I didnt meet her or I would have asked her to come with me back to Germany -laughing-.

Of course I brought back a gift for you. A brand new Addisex Fanfiction. Think this will only be two chapters…but maybe I could write a sequel?! (if you want to)

Oh btw…in addition to the Addek denial house I also built an Addisex denial house (cause really…what's the point of building up the tension for 10 episodes when nothing is going to happen?) and I also added a Maddison house (Because we all know…with the spin off…one of them will screw up the 60 days bet…) so feel free to join.

oh.. before I forget it.. HIATUS SUCKS.. big time. I need my kate/addie fic every week..seriously!!

Btw.. the fanfiction is M rated... not for this chapter but for the next.

Thank you Claire for beta-reading.

On with the story.

The world spins madly on

Woke up and wished that I was dead

With an aching in my head

I lay motionless in bed

I thought of you and where you'd gone

and let the world spin madly on

Everything that I said I'd do

Like make the world brand new

And take the time for you

I just got lost and slept right through the dawn

And the world spins madly on

Chapter 1

His fingers travelled lazily to her side of the bed, but all he could feel was a cold and empty space. Grabbing the bed sheets he turned around, only to be greeted with the sight of an equally empty room.

"Addison?" He called out, his voice still hoarse from sleeping

"Addison. Where are you?" he sat up and looked around the dark room which was only lightened by a few sun stripes shining through the side of the windows.

Uncovering himself and searching for his boxer shorts which he eventually found draped over a nearby chair, he made his way to the bathroom and knocked gently on the door.

"Addison, are you in there?" He opened the wooden door but was only met with more darkness. A thick lump started to build up in his throat and a tight knot formed in his stomach.

Something was definitely wrong.

As he made his way back to the bed his eyes caught sight of a sheet of paper with his name on it sitting on her pillow. His shoulders fell and his eyes started to tear up as he went up to her side of the bed and picked up the letter.

Flashback 24 hours earlier

"You know you don't need an appointment to see me Addison." Richard Webber greeted the red haired attending with a smile as he held the door open for her.

"I know Richard, but this thing… I want to talk to you about… its really important and its better if there aren't any interruptions." She passed him and sat down on a black chair at the opposite side of his desk.

"Sounds serious." He cocked an eyebrow and made his way back to his desk where he sat down, looking her straight in the eyes.

Addison sighed and took a deep breath almost loosing her voice. She knew she had to have this talk, considering she had put it off for far too long…but she was unsure of his reaction to what she was going to say to him. She finally decided it was for the best to just get it over with.

"Michael Anderson called me." She blurted out suddenly.

"The chief of surgery from LA City Hospital?" Richard asked, his eyes widening in surprise as he folded his arms in front of his chest.

"Yes." She nodded not daring to meet his eyes.

"Well…what did he want?"

"Actually…he offered me a job."

"You already have a job…here!"

Addison sighed again in desperation. This was going to be a lot harder than she had imagined.

"I know… I …I know that I signed a contract for two years…but…"

"But what Addison?"

"Please Richard…You know exactly how hard it's been for me here the last couple of months…with Derek…and with Mark…" And with Alex, she had wanted to say, but the chief apparently had no clue about what was going on with the both of them, so she figured that it was probably better not to mention it.

"I know you have been through a tough time Addie…but I thought you were regaining your strength, that life was returning back to normal for you…and that you liked working here."

"I do…I really like it here…it's just…it's too much. I can't do this any longer. I am not getting stronger…in fact I am falling apart more and more each day and no one is here to pick up the pieces." By the time she had finished her voice was almost inaudible.

Richard sighed deeply. "When are you going to leave?"

Addison looked up in surprise. "You're letting me go?" she asked, shocked but relieved at the same time.

"Do I have a choice?" Addie…you know you are like a daughter to me and all I want…all I care about is that you are happy. So…when are you going?"

Addison smiled but immediately turned serious again. "Tomorrow." She swallowed the lump in her throat.

"Tomorrow?" he called out and stared at her in shock. "How long have you known about it?"

"Almost two weeks." She replied sheepishly. "I am sorry Richard… really…I just couldn't bring myself to talk to you sooner...I…I wasn't sure how you would react."

"Gosh Addison…how am I supposed to find a replacement for you in just one day? There are so many things to do…to figure out…and there is no one around to…" he stopped midsentence when he noticed a single tear slipping down her cheek.

He cleared his throat "Well…I am sure we can arrange something."

Again she looked up at him putting a strand of hair behind her ears. "You sure?" she asked uncertainly in a husky voice.

"Yeah…Yes I am positive. We will find a way. And you make sure to get there safe…oh… and Addison?"

"mhhm?"

"Keep in touch. I will miss you."

Now tears were running freely down her face. Addison jumped up from her chair and met Richard who took her in his arms, hugging her tightly.

"I will….Thank you so much Richard."

xoxoxo

3 hours later

"So...have you heard the news yet?" Christina asked, dropping her lunch tray carelessly on the table and sitting down in a chair.

"What news?" Neither Izzie, Meredith nor Alex had a clue what she was talking about.

"Satan is leaving Seattle…for good." She took a bite of her sandwich, smirking.

"Wow…I didn't expect that." Meredith mumbled not really into the conversation. She didn't really mind her leaving nor would she have minded her staying…she didn't care at all.

"Yeah…wow…I…I kinda liked her. She was a good teacher…and…a good listener…I guess I will miss her." Izzie threw in thinking about Addison and her departure.

Christina shrugged her shoulders. "I couldn't care less, didn't work much with her." She looked around, her gaze landing on Alex who was staring into space "Anything you want to add to the conversation?"

"Huh? What?" he asked snapping out of the daze he was in, feeling suddenly sick to his stomach.

"Anything to add? To the topic that the wicked witch of the east is leaving?"

"Don't call her that…" He hissed "And no…nothing to add…excuse me." Alex stood up quickly leaving his tray on the table, not even caring about it as he quickened his steps and made his way into the hospital.

"What the hell is wrong with him?" Christina asked but not really expecting an answer.

xoxoxo

2 hours and 30 minutes later

Addison walked down the crowded floor, her heels clicking on the pavement. She couldn't hide the smile that was practically glued on her lips. This would be her last day at Seattle Grace Hospital and she felt more than relieved about it.

She had already said her goodbyes to her patients and to most of her friends in the hospital such as Callie and Miranda, and now she was filling out her last chart before finally being done with work.

The pretty redhead was so focused on the paper in her hand that she didn't notice the male body appearing in front of her, and consequently she bumped right into it.

"Uh sorry, I wasn't looking…"

"So you are leaving?" Alex cut her off.

"What?" Addison looked up to meet his eyes which were filled with emotions she couldn't really point out. "How do you know?"

"That's not important! Is it true? Are you really leaving Seattle?" Alex's voice cracked at the end of the line so he cleared his throat.

"Yes. Yes I am leaving... for good."

"Were you even going to tell me? Say goodbye?"

"Alex...that's none of your business." Addison sighed putting her glasses back into place.

"None of my business? How can you say something like that? I…I thought that…I…you and me….us…I thought we had something." He was practically yelling now.

"Well…" She looked back at the ground. "I was starting to think that too...right up to the point when you told me you weren't interested. So would you please excuse me Dr. Karev...? I am done with work and I still have to pack." She swung around on her heels leaving him standing there…all he could do was watch her leave.

2 hours later

"What's wrong with you?" Ava, formally known as Jane Doe asked Alex, gently touching his forearm as he was about to control her vitals.

"What?" He pushed her hand away. "Ah...its nothing. Just had a bad day. So can I check on you and the baby now or do you have any other things to bother me with?" he asked a little harsher than he had indented.

"Whoa… relax…" She held up her hands, letting Alex do his work

"Looks like everything is all right…oh…the bandage will be removed in a few days and after that…we will release you...so I guess you will be out in about a week. I will be here throughout all of the time, so you don't need to worry."

"I am fine Alex…It's really not me I am worried about."

"The baby is also fine Ava..."

"That's not what I was saying…" She took a deep breath "Its Dr. Montgomery isn't it?"

Alex looked up surprised so she started to explain

"She came to see me a couple of hours ago…told me she was leaving and she said goodbye… so I guess this is the thing that is bothering you…"

"It's not bothering me at all." He hissed as he hung the chart back on her bed ready to leave the room when she called out

"You need to tell her."

"Tell her what?" Alex sighed, not daring to turn around and face her.

"That you love her. You have to tell her. It could be your last chance."

He ran his fingers through his hair. "I…I don't know how...I never felt that way about anyone else in my entire life. And I already messed it up anyway."

"How so?" that got Avas interest. She had noticed the chemistry between the red haired Dr. and Alex in an instant and maybe playing a little matchmaker would do her good.

"She… she kissed me, a few weeks ago, and then she started to ignore me…guess she got scared or something like that…and so I dragged her into an empty on call room…"

"Oh…. Juicy…" she grinned

"Not at all." He sighed "I told her that I wasn't interested… and I kinda insulted her, telling her that not every man around her is pining for her."

"You are a jerk Alex…seriously."

"Thank you…" He rolled his eyes "As if I didn't know that already. And there is no way back now."

"There always is…trust me…she is not gone yet, you still have a chance to make things right."

"You think?" Alex looked at his feet

"As a matter of fact I do…and now go… hurry up and get the girl." She smirked at him and motioned for him to leave.

"All right…fine…I'll go...I'm on my way…thank you."

"Don't mention it… good luck." And with those words he was gone.

All right. This was part one. I really hope that you like this story, cause it means a lot to me. I thought a lot about how to write it .. what to add.. what to leave out... what people to include into this story because I wanted to write it good. Oh and ... you will probably kill me for the second chapter... I have a feeling about that... trust me... Please leave a review if you liked it so far.. cough lots of reviews make me update faster cough

I think I will update around the weekend.. but if I get more than 20 reviews I will update right as soon as I got them ;) (no pressure here -laughing-)