AN: Chapters will be short- longer than this chapter, but still short.
I make no promises on the updating schedule. I will try to update as often as I would like, but no promises.
Prologue
BPOV
I stare at the doctor, dumbfounded. How could this happen to me? I mean, I knew what I was getting myself into. We knew what we were getting into. We knew the risks; why flirt with the devil?
What would I tell me family? Oh god, my family is going to kill him.
It was a mistake. I was stupid. I should have known or taken this more seriously. I don't know why I didn't. Christ, I ran youth groups for things like this!
"Now I'm sure this is a surprise for you Ms. Swan but I can assure you that…"
But it's not a surprise to me. I practically asked for this. That's what my mother would say, what everyone would say.
I knew, and I still made the decision to unprotect myself. I am my own worse enemy.
"Bella…" I hear him choke out painfully. Why is he reacting negatively towards this before me? I can answer my own question. It's because he's lived with this his entire life. He knows what this means. I, on the other hand, have no damn clue. "I am…so sorry," he continues. His voice sounds so pained.
What will my future look like? There are restrictions for these kinds of things right? All I want is to be a registered nurse.
Can people who are HIV positive even work in a hospital?
I felt my chest cave in. I have no future. A dead end, that's what I am.
"Ms. Swan?"
I'm panicking. I feel it. My breathes are shortening, my chest is tight, and my hands are shaking.
"She's having a panic attack, call someone!" I hear him screaming. I feel his hands on me. All over me.
Suffocating me.
I scream.
And wake up.
It was just a dream.
Now I know there are probably a lot of questions. In time, this story will answer all of them. This is a subject I do not take lightly, trust me. I simply want the people who wish to read, to enjoy and be prepared because this is a whirlwind of a life that I have..
I am in need of a Beta, a serious one, to take on this fuckery. Message for the deets if interested.
What's the most shocking news you've ever received?