It was only supposed to be casual. So why do I feel so lonely? It was only supposed to be for fun. So why does it feel like my hearts been ripped out? Why do I have this longing that I need you by my side? Why do I feel like I can't live with out you?
Secretly, I know the answer to all of these questions. I just don't want to admit it. Because if I admit it, then it will be real. Your not here. Those words will fully sink in and I will be completely alone.
But I know I must come to terms with it eventually. So here goes nothing. I am in love with Sav Bandhari. He is like the Fish to my Ocean, the Trees to my Earth. This is why I can't live with out you. This is why I feel like i'm dying.
But your two hundred miles away from me. There is no way to be with you at this point. So I will have to find a way to deal. It will be one of the most difficult things I have ever done, but I have no choice. The thought of being without you kills me, and I only wonder one thing. Do you feel the same way?
I know, kind of lame right? Well anyways, tell me what you think and maybe i'll post a few more chapters. Maybe i'll make it a little happier.
~Jojo