I did this when I first started 'Shin Makoku'. It took me till now to finish it but I'm thinking about turning it into a two-chapter long. It deepens if people will want me too, or if I will think it will make that story better.

This is a Yuuram and angst. Be prepared!

Hope you'll like it!

Love Xxx

Is it something he did?

Was he wrong again in the eyes of the one he loved so much?

He tried so hard, he really did. He changed himself just to make the one he loved look at him. To give him that smile that he always gives to others, but him.

He could still feel the tears that were falling from his semi-opened eyes. Eyes that were looking at something but never really focusing on that thing.

He was in his room, yeah, his. It sounded so weird even in his mind, it was their room for so long, he just wasn't used to it. That what he told himself.

He could still remember the words.

"I would never marry you!"

His hands were now on his ears, hoping that maybe it will stop the him from hearing that voice, or more likely, the words that voice say.

"I could never love you!"

Pleas just make it stop. He didn't want to remember it all, that face that he made when he said those things. Full of anger and disgust.

"You're selfish! You didn't change at all! How could you say to her that she is a slut, just because you think I'm cheating on you?"

Now his eyes where closed, trying to block the image of all that hate in those black eyes.

"I have some news to you, I'm not cheating on you because we're not engaged! You need me to make it official? I hereby annul our engagement!"

He choked out a sob, trying not to let the scream of all the pain he felt out.

"It hurts, isn't it?" a voice asked, surprising the crying blonde.

"W-who's there?" the blonde asked, cursing himself as his voice cracked at the beginning.

"My name is of no importance, Wolfram" he could hear the voice, Wolfram thinks it's a man voice, say.

"How do you know my name?" Wolfram ask him, now standing, ready to fight.

"I know a lot of things, like who hurt you're because of the one you oh so love" the man chuckled.

"You know nothing about how I feel!" Wolfram yelled, looking for the man. It was like that voice was coming from everywhere.

"Oh but I do, young one." The voice said from behind the blonde, making him turn to look at the mirror in his room.

Wolfram could see himself, his hair messy, eyes red and lower lip bruised. He looked horrible, almost like he was dead with how pail his skin was and his, now, dull eyes.

"Look what he done to you" the voice said, once again from behind Wolfram, but he didn't look away from the mirror, not even caring that he couldn't see anyone behind him.

"You can still hear him don't you? Do you still see the face he made when he said those words?" the voice was now closer.

Wolfram could feel his eyes water again as he remembered it all, too clearly for his liking.

"It hurts, doesn't it?" the voice ask and Wolfram nod at that, no longer holding back his tears or sobs. It's not like he had any pride left, Yuuri took it all when he said it all in front of everyone in that, once, happy ball.

"Don't you want to make him feel that pain that he made you feel?" the sharp intake that came from Wolfram could be heard all over the quiet room, like it echoed from the walls and back to him.

Wolfram wanted to say 'No', wanted to shake his head but he couldn't move. He was still looking at himself in the mirror, a look of pure horror, sadness and hatred was covering his face. He couldn't recognize himself anymore.

"Answer me, Wolfram" the voice said and Wolfram could see himself nodding his head for 'Yes'.

'No! I don't want that!' Wolfram thought to himself. 'I don't want to hurt Yuuri! I love him! He yelled again and again in his mind, but nothing came out of his mouth.

Wolfram could feel himself slipping, like his control over his own body was taken away from him, with him able to do nothing but to watch as his body moved on his own.

'No… I don't want to…'

'Yuuri save me…'

Yuuri was in his office, his face in his hands as he sighed for the fifth time in just those three minutes.

"Why did I do it?" he asked himself.

"Heika, are you in here?" Yuuri could here Conrad from the other side of the door.

"Yes," Yuuri said "And please call me Yuuri Conrad."

Conrad walked inside, seeing Yuuri tired face looking at him.

"How do you feel Heika?" Conrad asked, walking to the other.

"You still angry at me?" Yuuri asked.

"I don't know what you mean Heika." Conrad answered him.

"Conrad you know I had to! I can't love him like that." said Yuuri, feeling guilty but he knew it was the right thing to do! Wolfram will come around and will also see that it was the right thing to do.

Conrad stared at him and asked "Did you even tried?"

"No, but I don't need to try! I like girls Conrad." Yuuri said.

"You got what you wanted, Lady Momo is here to see you" Conrad said in a monotone voice.

"Really?" Yuuri asked, looking excited. Two days ago he met her at the ball, she was so beautiful and kind, but Wolfram just yelled at her. Said that she was a slut and yelling at Yuuri for cheating on him.

"Yes, Heika. I just came to tell you that she's waiting in the gardens" Conrad said.

"Oh! Then I should go see her! Thank you Conrad and please do call me Yuuri." He said but Conrad didn't even look at him as he said his goodbye to his king and walked out the room.

Yuuri sighed again, it been like that since the ball, where he annuls his and Wolfram engagement.

He walked out of his office and to the gardens remembering how he and Wolfram used to do picnics here with Greta when she was small. Now she was in her kingdom, learning to become a queen.

Yuuri shakes the memory away, now was not the time to remember that. he wondered if they will get to have more picnics, just him Wolfram and Greta. That small but happy family.

Even if Yuuri and Wolfram are no longer engaged, it doesn't mean they can't stay a family right?

Yuuri walked further into the garden and saw Lady Momo. Her light brown colored hair going down in a big braid. Her dress was a sickening sweet, pink color. In her hand a beautiful Wolfram.

In Yuuri eyes the flower beauty was shamed by the too pale hand that was holding it.

Yuuri smiled, walking to the girl side, "It's good to see you Lady Momo." He said.

"Heika, it's good to see you too" She smiled at him, talking in her most sweet voice she had.

"I'm happy that you still agree to meet me, and please call me Yuuri." He told her, taking hold of her hand and kissing it. Her hand was rougher then Wolfram hand and Yuuri didn't really liked the feel of it in his hand, so he releases the hand.

"Yes, Yuuri" She said smiling at him, "And why wouldn't I? it was not your fault, but that disgraced blonde"

"Disgraced?" Yuuri asked looking confused, why would wolfram be a disgrace?

"Why, yes, Yuuri. I mean you did annual your engagement with him, meaning that he was a bad fiancé and more than that, you did it for everyone to see!" she said, reaching and taking Yuuri hand in hers, looking as he she felt sorry for him.

"You had to suffer him for so many years. You're as kind as they say, giving him so many years to try and be a good fiancé for you" she continued, now a hand touched his check making him look into her eyes.

"But he just wasn't good. A lot of people thank you for showing them that lord von Bielefelt was not a good fiancé" she smiled warmly at her, as if he just did the most, kindest thing to her.

Yuuri didn't know what to say. What did he do? Yuuri didn't even think about what would happen to Wolfram if he'd annual the engagement like that. he was just so angry at the blonde that he did the first thing to come to mind.

"Yuuri, are you okay?" Momo asked, looking worried for him, but now the face that once looked beautiful for him was now plain looking. Wolfram face came to his mind and Yuuri knew that nothing was more beautiful than his face.

"Lady Momo. Would you like to go to a ride with me?" Yuuri asked, bangs hiding his eyes but a smiled was visible on his face.

"In a carriage?" she asked, blushing at the thought of her and the king alone in a carriage.

"No, I mean on horses" Yuuri said.

"O-on horses?! I can't do that! do you know how dirty that animal is?" Momo asked, looking at Yuuri as if he was crazy to even think about it.

"I see…" Yuuri said.

"Learn how to ride, wimp!"

"You want to ride Yuuri?"

"I-I'll go on a r-ride with you, you wimp!"

Wolfram voice was rolling in his head; he remembers how Wolfram was always angry at him for not knowing how to ride a horse. he always knew when Yuuri needed out and the only way was to ride, so Wolfram would offer to teach him horse riding, letting him out of that office. The last time they ride together, Yuuri mange to make Wolfram blush his beautiful blush.

Whoa! What was he thinking?! Beautiful blush? Yuuri really needed to get himself together, he was with a beautiful woman. Now was his chance, the chance he had been waiting for.

"I wonder if Gwendal is looking for me…" Yuuri said to himself but Momo heard him.

"Is it about paperwork?" she asked.

"Yeah…" Yuuri said, now looking at her.

"Then skip and stay with me!"

"Go you wimp! You have work to do, I'll wait"

"Really?" Yuuri asked.

"Yep! I want to be with you, maybe I won't be here when you get back you know…"

"Yes wimp, I'll still be here when you come back"

"Oh…" Yuuri said, she was not the one. She didn't get him.

He already found the one, he already had them and he was the one to let them go. He took himself as an opened mind king, helping and accepting everyone but one. He didn't accept his own feelings, his wants and he didn't accept the love of the one that was always there.

He was always there. That was why he didn't accept them, it was because he knew that they would always be there for him. But now, that he knew, he was the reason why they weren't here anymore. He made them go without them really wanting to leave.

"I got you Yuuri"

"Stay behind me!"

"I will protect you, Yuuri"

Yuuri gasped, he was always being protected by him, even from his own feelings and what did Yuuri do? He threw him away like he was trash, never even thinking that he was being protected by him. He was killing himself so that Yuuri could live with himself, never knowing his feelings.

Feelings that could break him, but Yuuri knew that it was time for him to take things to his hands and that includes his real feelings. This time, he was going to protect him.

"You took your time."

Yuuri heard a voice say and without thinking a said "Maou?!"

Momo looked at him weird and asked "Is everything alright, Yuuri?"

The king looked at her and smiled awkwardly, "Everything is just fine lady Momo." But to say the true, it wasn't. did he really heard the Maou talk to him, or was it an allusion of his mind for finding his true feelings?

He didn't know, but he did know that he needs to find Wolfram and tell him his feeling, this time really slapping him and hoping he will say yes.

He looked at lady Momo only to see her making a disgusted look. he looked to where she was looking only to see Wolfram walking up to them, face facing the earth and was that a knife in hand? Was he challenging lady Momo to a fight over Yuuri?

But something was wrong. The way Wolfram walked was all wrong, like he was fighting something, like he didn't want to walk but was made to.

"Wolf?" Yuuri asked and lady Momo just told him that they should go somewhere else.

"No… something is wrong. Wolf!" Yuuri said and started walking toward the blonde only for said blonde to look up, showing his tearful face and trembling body.

"S-stay away…" Wolfram said in a whisper, like his voice was strangled from inside of him.

"What's wrong?" Yuuri asked and took another step forward only to get yelled by the blonde, "STAY BACK!"

Yuuri stopped and looked at Wolfram who was trying not to take another step towards Yuuri. He watched as Wolfram fought something but didn't see what.

Wolfram closed his eyes and when he reopened them they were hallow, making Yuuri scared for his love. Yes, he was his love.

"I shall kill you Yuuri-Heika…. Yo will die in my hands." Wolfram said in a weird voice, but then his eyes were back to normal and he glared as much as he could, looking more like he was in pain then anything else.

"I will not!" Wolfram said and looked at Yuuri with a sad smile. The double black looked back at him, fear in his eyes, that smile looked like a goodbye way too much.

"Y-Yuuri…" Wolfram said and his lips kept moving, the words said by the blonde stopped his world. Seeing the blonde smile at him, rising that knife high up and then plugging in into himself, still smiling with a face full of tears.

He remembered yelling Wolfram name, running to him as the blonde collapse. He also remembers hearing another voice crying for Wolfram.

"WOLFRAM!"

"NO! WOLFRAM!"

After that it was no longer Yuuri who was holding Wolfram cold and bloody body to his, it was no longer Yuuri who was crying over the lost love of his, the love that will never know that they were loved too.

It was the Maou. Using all of his power to bring back Wolfram, to keep him here with them. Not wanting to let go, he called all of his power, putting them into healing the blonde.

He just wanted to hear that voice calling him wimp, or that body warm by his in bed, or to see those beautiful eyes look only at him, as they did all these years. He wanted to hear him breath.

"Please wake up."

"Please wake up."

Both halves said together, wanting the same thing.

To have their love one back, the one who said goodbye without getting one back.

"I love you, thank you and goodbye."

~~ Wolfram not dead! If I do a second chapter you will see what happened to him but only if people will want me to upload more.