Hello people, please be nice. This is my first time posting a story for this account, I hope you will review and give me basically any advice that could help me with my story writing. Thank you for showing interest for my story :) Based of a song ^^

/Nem A.K.A not girly at all & Roses Thorns Will Scar You

The Reason is

Ichigo stumbled through the hall. Her beautiful brown eyes was bloodshot and her cheeks was all wet and red as well. Through her sobs she was muttering about how much she had to do and how sorry she felt for herself.

Living in the big and lonely house in the middle of nothing was harder than she thought it would be and the pressure she always had torn her apart. She always had something to do and when she forgot about something it was a living hell to take care of it later.

Now you probably wonder why a 13 year old and insecure girl named Ichigo had to live all on her own. The reason she is all alone is because 6 months ago her parents went away on a trip together with her grandparents to the sea. No one knows why, but her parents never returned from that trip. She reported them as missing but the police never found anything about their disappearance.

Ichigo was supposed to get adopted, however. She refused and told them could take care of herself on her own. But, she didn't know how wrong she had.

The bills had to get payed and to pay the bills she needed to get a job where she could earn enough money for the bills, food and having some money left that she could buy detergent. Taking care of herself was way harder than she imagined it would ever be.

As more of her tears ran down her cheeks, she rise her hand and wiped them away. But there was no use. They just kept falling, all those tears who shouldn't be there anymore. It was unbelievable that after 6 months of crying she still had tears left to keep crying. The tears just kept on falling, they never stopped. With those tears who had fallen, she swore she could fill a river. But, what could she do about all that crying? She had no reason to live, nor to stop crying and smile instead. Normally Ichigo was a happy and positive person, but the disappearance of her family changed her. She never did anything anymore, never brushed her hair, which made it look like a bush. However, she brushed her teeth and took a shower all the time. If she didn't she would put other people through a lot of horrible smell.

After a while her tears finally stopped falling and she went downstairs to get some breakfast. Just for one second she looked out the window, just for one second, and saw a boy in her age on his skateboard, with sparkling eyes and a happy smile. The second after that he passed the window and was out of her sight.

Ichigo gasped, that was the first time she had ever seen somebody so happy and with such joy of living. His sparkling amber eyes and happy smile was stuck inside of her mind. How come somebody could be so happy and sparkling in this world? Was it really worth living?

She was staring out the window, all frozen.

"Wow.." was all that she could say.

Ichigo sat down at her chair still looking out the window. Such.. joy.. Could she be that happy too, one day? Would she get the courage to try? She turned her head and looked at the news paper in front of herself. On the first page it said with big letters: PLANE CRASH, ALL PASSENGERS DEAD.

How could people find happiness and something to smile for, when the journalists always wrote about horrible things that happened. Just because it catches someones eyes, but, what would happen if they tried writing something good on the first page? Why would she want to read about people who died? She rather would prefer reading about a little girl or something who's biggest wish got granted, like getting a barbie doll or something. It could be something that silly, just that the little girl got her wish granted.

Ichigo sighed and tightened her fists. There they came again, the tears. She was the little girl she was giving an example of. The barbie doll she got that she wished for so much when she was little, that didn't get into the news paper. Instead a story of someone who tried to kill another one came into the news paper. Sure, she did understand that, however, why only showing people the bad things happening in the world?

Once again she sighed, then a song started playing on the radio.. The reason by Hoobastank.

Ichigo listened and then started singing along, with a cracky voice of all the crying.

"I'm not a perfect person. There's many thing I wish I didn't do.. But I continue learning. I never meant to do those things to you.. And so I have to say before I go.. That I just want you to know.." she only planned to sing a long with the first verse, however, she kept on singing as her voice got stronger. "I've found a reason for me. To change who I used to be. A reason to start over new. And the reason is you.." Ichigo smiled through the salty tears who fell down her checks and landed on her lips. "I'm sorry that I hurt you. It's something I must live with everyday. And all the pain I put you through.. I wish I could take it all away. And be the one who catches all your tears. That's why I need you to hear! I've found a reason for me! To change who I used to be! A reason to start over new. And the reason is you! And the reason is you! And the reason is you!" she smiled more and kept on singing. "I'm not a perfect person. I never meant to do those things to you. And so I have to say before I go. That I just want you to know! I've found a reason for me! To change who I used to be! A reason to start over new. And the reason is you! And the reason is you! And the reason is you.. I've found a reason to show. A side of me you didn't know! A reason for all that I do.. And the reason is you.."

Ichigo smiled while tears falling down her cheeks and wiped them all away. Finally a song playing on the radio had a meaning, the songs playing was usually about boys thinking of girls as sex objects.

"My reason.." she said. "Will be.."