Disclaimer: I don't own twilight or any of its characters.
Bella, Beautiful Bella... What am I to do? I didn't expect that I'll fall this fast. The minute I met you my whole world turned upside down. As each day passed that I have known you, it's getting harder to try to hide my feelings. I can't hide my feelings for you anymore. Do you feel the same way for me? What am I to do? I'm sorry; I didn't fall for you on purpose. But every time you laughed, every time you smiled, every time I caught the twinkle in your eyes, I just couldn't stop myself anymore. Sometimes I wonder why it's you. With many friends around me, I always wonder why it's you. Do you know how hard it is loving a friend who you can't even tell what you are truly feeling? I asks always ask myself; if you knew about how I felt for you would you accept it? If you can't accept my feelings I don't think I will be able to take not having you in my life. Words can't even describe how I feel for you Bella. I don't have it in me to lose you. That's why I can't tell you how I feel. Every fiber of my being screams at me to tell you... but I can't... knowing of the great risk. I would rather have you as my friend than not having you in my life. I love you so much Bella. I love you so so much. Even if I can't tell you in person... I want to say I love you, very very much. My beautiful Bella…
Gah! I'm so pathetic! Actually writing everything I feel in a note which I know I will never have the courage to give Bella. I've been having this note for almost 3 month now, just trying to get enough courage to give it to Bella. I see her almost every day in school, but I just can't seem to give it to her. I get nervous and start thinking of all the possible outcomes. One that seems to always pop into my head is the outcome of her rejecting me. That thought crosses my mind every time I think of giving it to her. It's what's actually keeping me from giving this letter to her. I've known her since the beginning of sophomore, and that day I met this beautiful person is still fresh in my head.
Flashback
First day of school and Mr. Banner is trying to teach us something. I mean who actually does that in the very first day of the year? I tried blocking him out because honestly, I already knew all of this. I mean who possibly can't know this?
I completely block him out and start thinking of my family's next camping trip. We haven't gone in a while since there has never been a nice day here in Forks. I saw the weather forecast and it seems like there might be great days coming soon.
I came out of musings when there was a sudden bang. Mr. Banner and everyone looked as the door opened and in comes walking this petite brown haired girl.
"And who might you be to be interrupting my class?" ask Mr. Banner to the very red faced girl.
"I'm Isabella Swan. I'm new here and I kind of got lost." Replies the girl in a very quite voice.
"Very well. Let's find you a place to sit."
And I knew it would be next to me because it was the only seat left empty.
"Ah there by Mr. Cullen. Edward raise your hand." And I did as told.
Isabella came and sat next to me. She turned towards me and with a bright smile says "Hey if you don't already know I'm Isabella Swan, but you can call me Bella."
I turn towards her and say "Well if you also don't already know I'm Edward Cullen, nice to met you."
End Flashback
At that time I really didn't know how important Bella would be in my life. It has been exactly 2 years since we met, and we have became really great friends. She even has my sister, Alice, as her best friend, so I see her often. It's our first day of senior year, and I really hope Bella is in one of my classes this year again. I quickly stuffed the cricked note back in my pocket as I see Emmett and Jasper coming towards me.
"Hey there Eddie!" Screams Emmett.
"Hey Edward" Jasper greets me.
"Hey guys how have you been?" Even though these two were my best friends, we really didn't get to see each other during the summer because everyone was so busy. Emmett with his training for football and Jasper with his work.
"Still haven't given her the note have you Eddie"
I guess I haven't hidden the note fast enough before they could see it.
"Man Eddie you should just grow some balls and give it to her already. I know she likes you too so what's the use of not telling each other?"
Emmett and Jasper both know that I've been in love with Bella since the end of sophomore year. They always told me she liked me too, but I never really saw it. She treats me the way she treats all of her other friends, so I doubt she likes me.
"I have to agree on Emmett on this one man. You are seriously being pathetic in not giving it to her already." Jasper adds to try to convince me to give it to her.
"I'll give it to her when I'm ready guys"
"Sure sure, and by that time she will already be taken away by all of those drooling boys always following her." Emmet says.
"Edward it's our last year of high school. The least you can do is actually tell Bella how you feel."
"I promise I'll tell her when I'm ready" And as I say that, the bells start ringing, signaling the beginning of class.
"Hey man I'll see you in class"
"Bye Edward."
I say bye to Emmett and Jasper and think of when I'll actually be ready. It's been a long time since I've kept my feeling, and I think their right. I have to tell Bella how I feel before she gets snatched up by any of those other guys. I made up my mind and decided to tell Bella soon. My classes came and passed, and I found out that I have Calculus and lunch with Bella.
I stayed after school for a little while to wait for Alice to finish whatever she had to do. I wait for her at the door and notice that Bella was with her too. A smile comes to my face as I see Bella laughing at something Alice said.
"Hey ladies. About time you guys came. I was getting worried; I thought your teacher ate you or something." I joked at them.
"Oh Edward were here already, so stop complaining." Alice replies back.
"Oh sorry for keeping you Edward. If I knew you were waiting for us I would have hurried Alice from decorating her locker." And my beautiful angel smiles apologetically to me.
"It's alright. But I think we should better go before they kick us out."
As I lead them to the car, it suddenly started to rain. We run to the car. All of us were soaked and laughing. We stopped finally and Alice gasps.
"Edward turn around and don't look! Give me you sweater please."
I do as Alice says, and when she tells me I could finally look back, Bella was blushing, wearing my sweater.
She laughs nervously and says "Bad day to wear white huh…"
I finally understood and turned back in my seat blushing. I finally calmed down and turned my car on. I dropped Bella home and let her keep my sweater.
"I promise I'll give it back ok Edward?"
"It's ok Bella. I think you should go and change before you get sick."
Bella runs to her porch and waves bye to us. I drive off her house and I could see Alice smirking at me.
"You wanted to see her without your sweater on didn't you?"
"I don't know what you're talking about Alice"
"Oh I know you do. Why don't you just tell her you like her?"
"It's not as easy as that Alice."
"Ugh Edward your too stubborn for you own good!" Alice screamed.
We finally reached the house and I have never been happier to get back in my bed. People keep telling me to tell her but it's harder that it seems. I go to the piano room and play some music to help me from thinking about it for a while.
BPOV
I walk inside my room completely soaked and embarrassed. I was just glad Alice noticed what happened before Edward did. I would have died of mortification if he saw. I decided to take a shower, so I put Edward's sweater on my bed.
As I'm in the shower I think of that gorgeous man I just saw. I think I fell in love with Edward since the moment we sat next to each other in Chemistry class. I have never had the courage to tell him, because face it; he is so out of my league. He is so gorgeous with his striking green eyes, pouty lips, and his bronze hair. He looked like he came of a modeling catalog. And there just me, plain old brown haired brown eyed girl. I would never looked be able to be with him. So many pretty girls like him, and he would obviously pick them over me. Even Tanya, one of the prettiest girls in school like him. What chance do I have against that goddess?
Taking myself out of my pity party, I got out of the shower and went to my room. I changed into my pajamas and decided to put Edward's sweater in a safe place. As I picked it up, a folded paper comes out of it.
Please tell me what you guys think. I really want to know!! Review