Hello beautiful readers out there. This is another story I have written for fifty shades. I actually have a couple chapters written for this one already so I want to get this one out there as well. I want to share my work and see what you guys think so please review ! I enjoy constructive criticism but not bullies! So if you have to say something degrading and non helpful please spread love not hate! Enjoy :)
It's been five years since Anastasia decided it was time for us to break up. I was beyond heartbroken till this day I haven't had another woman in my life not even a submissive. Ana was everything I had ever wanted in my life but eventually my possessive nature became too much for her and she wanted out. I begged her to stay promising I would do anything to make this work. Nothing I did was enough and I would never forget the heart ache I felt when she walked out on me.
"Christian I am sorry but I just can't you smother me at every turn! I have tried to help you work out your jealousy issues but you just don't get it! How can we be together if you can't trust me enough to go to the grocery store on my own?" Anastasia sobbed. I could see it was killing her to leave me so why did she insist on doing this to herself, to me, hell to us! I loved this woman with all my heart and here she was tearing it out of my damn chest.
So I did the only thing I could think of. I dropped to my knees sobbing hoping she wouldn't run from this pitiful sight in front of her. I was a strong wealthy man but Anastasia was my kryptonite.
"Please Ana I can make this work. I can show you that I will back off I mean fuck Anastasia! You were the only person I've trusted in my life you can't walk out on me now!" Dropping my head in my hand I cried for the first time in years.
"I'm sorry Christian I just can't I need some time give me a week." Just like that Anastasia walked right out of our house and out of my life for good.
I cried for a whole year after Ana left me wondering why I ever opened up to someone in the first place. This is exactly why I never did the hearts and flowers bullshit. The only other person to have me at such a vulnerable state was my biological mother and she broke me but somehow the way Anastasia walked out on our lives broke me more.
Which is why I found it strange when I awoke to an email from her. I even had Taylor check it out to make sure it wasn't some stalker posing as her but no it was the real thing. I had half a mind to just completely fucking ignore her after the way she broke my heart, but I knew I would always belong to Anastasia. I wanted to hate her I wanted nothing more than to hurt her the way she hurt me, but I knew I would always love her. I jumped at the opportunity to meet up after these last five years. Closure. That's what I wanted and I believe that's what I deserved. How could Ana tell me to give her a week and then when I go to reach out to her I find out she's left Seattle completely. All I want right now is for her to explain herself.
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I awoke today wondering what the hell I was thinking contacting Christian after abandoning our lives so many years ago. I knew he loved me with all his heart but I felt smothered and just needed some time to breathe. Truth be told I had planned to go back Escala after our third day apart but then the unthinkable happened. I never meant to leave Christian without an explanation but after finding out I was pregnant with his child I got scared and ran. Till this day I still regretted it. I wasted Five years of time that Christian could have had with his beautiful daughter.
Scared would be an understatement for how I felt right now. The night I left Christian at Escala I had been feeling sick for weeks and decided to see my Doctor a week prior to our break up. I never heard back from her so I assumed all was well. That was until my sickness got worse and I decided to call her myself. Turns out there was a mix up at the office and they thought they called me when they hadn't. As if that wasn't bad enough to make matters worse I was indeed pregnant. I freaked out I told no one not even Kate and I left to Ray's. I've been living with him ever since. At first Ray flipped out thinking Christian had tossed me to the curb with his child but I ended up telling Ray the full story. Of course he thought I was crazy and should tell Christian but he left the choice up to me. I was terrified to tell Christian I knew he would be more than just angry that I kept something so big from him and not only that I mean he is the Christian Grey for fucks sake! It's not like a child was something that he needed at the moment. I mean we weren't even married and had only been dating for a year. I knew it was way too early for him and I knew he wouldn't be ready. I didn't want to push this burden on him just yet so I put it all on myself. I knew I was wrong though because as soon as Emma turned 5 she started asking why she didn't have a father like the other kids in her class. My heart broke and I knew I had to tell Christian. And this is how I am now standing outside Escala holding Emma's left hand.
Taking a deep breathe I made my way up to Christians door ringing his bell hoping to see a happy Christian because I knew this meeting would make or break him.