A/N I also have another story up, this one is not related to it at all and is strictly faberry, I have no idea how long it shall be. It is A/U, and starts in high school and builds up. Some flashbacks maybe. Just feeling my way in the dark. Thanks :)
I do not own Glee.
You can do it Rachel, you are a star, a girl like that shouldn't bug you, even if she...even if she... Rachel snapped out of her thought and looked up at the girl looking back at her. Hazel eyes shining with tears that Rachel couldn't stand to see. They were only 16, why should this feel so damn tiring? Rachel ignored the eyes of her now enemy, once best friend. Oncce everything. Rachel instead focused on what the tall boy was saying about duets and notes and voices. But Quinn's hazel eyes kept popping up in her mind and she couldn't focus on the tall boy Finn. Finn might be looking at her with a smile because her voice surpassed all others. But Quinn's eyes were still burned into her vision and she could not see anything else.
"Rachel, do you think we should sing the duet?" Finn asked. Finn Hudson, quarterback and exboyfriend to Quinn Fabray. Rachel seethed as she glared at the tall boy.
"No." She said simply, he may have the best voice male vocals but Rachel could not focus on that, all she could think was that this thing once touched the precious cargo that is Quinn Fabray.
"What? But I know you want to win Nationals Rach." Finn frowned and Rachel's brown eyes lit up at the word win. Winning always meant a lot to Rachel Berry, winning the lead in musicals, winning the solo's in glee club. But she had never expected to win something she never tried to win. Then she had lost it just as quickly, making her see gray everywhere she went. Making her forget her nightly ritual. Making her stop the vocal training.
Rachel was all about the music. She was all about being on top. She was a junior in high school and applying early to schools. She was. Now she had stopped. She was sort of lost in a sea of memories and confusion. One year of complete bliss and then IT happened. Rachel shook her head at the memories that threatened to break through her shield. The tears would come with it, and then she would look at Quinn Fabray and break down.
So winning had no affect on her anymore. Not since she had lost the one reason she had to keep going. She lost her will. She lost her Quinn.
If you had talked to Rachel three months ago she never would have said that she could give up so easily. She would have insisted these dreams of hers were for her, and her only. She would have shrugged off the idea that even with out her other half she could not survive fully, thrive the way Rachel Berry should.
Anyone who looked at her knew she was different. She wasn't lecturing the glee club about proper singing or sitting up straight. She wasn't singing loudly in the halls in order to "keep up with the proper vocal training all of the stars have had" and she wasn't dressing like a sexy librarian/school teacher. She was just a girl. She was not THE RACHEL BERRY. She was merely Rachel.
It made Quinn want to wail out loud when Rachel didn't even look her way. Rachel was wearing all black, her hair was messy, her face pale, her eyes not shining like they used too. You would think that someone had died, in a way someone did, Rachel Berry was no more. Quinn close d her eyes against the tears that threatened to come out. She was a Fabray, and Fabray's stood strong, even when you're father did things that no one knew about, even when your mother had no idea, and even when you were to afraid to speak out against the things that happened.
She had and look what happened, Russell Fabray threw her into a wall and made her back crack. So if she was strong through all that, she could stand strong now, with out Rachel murmuring sweet things into her ear. With out the girl she loved by her side. She would just go home after this glee club session, ignore the whispers from the others, ignore the passes from her exboyfriends, she would go home. She would ignore her mother asking her how her day was out of desparation, out of guilt for missing what had happened for one whole year. Quinn shook her head of the thought of any memory of her father, or of Rachel Berry and listened to Finn Hudson try to convince the best singer in the whole Lima, County to be his duet partner.
Finn Hudson just wanted his hands on that piece of ass. Quinn knew it. He could conquer Rachel and rub it in Quinn's face. He had gotten her, and she never would again. Revenge for cheating on him with her, it had been an accident, over a year ago. Quinn closed her eyes to Finn's annoying voice and the way he put his large hand on Rachel's shoulder.
Luckily Rachel shook him away forcefully and for this Quinn grinned, her feisty little diva was still in that broken shell of a girl. If only Quinn could get close enough again to see what happened, and how she could make it better.