Stupid Boy
By MyNameIsCAB
"Stupid Boy" is a song by country singer Keith Urban. I was listening to this the other day and thought about how sometimes how Max and Fang's relationship in the book frustrates me sometimes because they keep pushing each other away. The song itself is about how Urban pushed away someone he just needed to love. So here's my first try at a Max Ride songfic.
Thank you.
--Fang's POV--
Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
Max was perfect.
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different
I loved Max, from the bottom of my heart.
Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holding back the wind
She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
So I had opened up to her and she laid her trust in me. There were times when we talked about how we could have a future together. God, we talked about getting married. Max had so many plans. But I crushed them.
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
I think part of me was afraid to get close because I was afraid she would get burned by being with me. So I started to push her away.
Stupid boy, stupid boy
So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it push it around
When we were happy, after a while, I started to take her for granted. I got careless.
I guess you build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down
Of course, once I got careless, she started to lose faith…
She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
And so we stopped talking about a future and we fought and argued.
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
I could see her slipping away and I didn't understand why she was pushing me away.
You stupid boy
Oh, you always had to be right but now you've lost
In my eyes, she had been the problem, not me. But that wasn't true. I was wrong. Always wrong.
The only thing that ever made you feel alive
I realized not having her was going to kill me slowly.
Well, she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
So we ended up tearing the flock apart. They all sided with her. How could I be so stubborn not to see that it was always me that was causing this mess?
Yes, you did
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Max was probably telling herself that she couldn't have me, that it was wrong that she had even tried to love me.
You stupid boy, oh, I'm the same old
Same old stupid boy
And so here I am today.
It took awhile for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone
So she ran away from me, from the flock too.
Long gone, long gone
Ah, she's gone
But running away alone cost her life and the flock blamed me, leaving me behind. I was left knowing that I could have saved her by just loving her.
Nobody's ever gonna love me like she loved me
And she loved me, she loved me
I'm angry at myself for not loving her back. No one can ever love me like she did. So everyday I stand at her grave with flowers, crying. Begging for forgiveness.
God please, just let her know
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
God Max, I'm so sorry. How could I fuck up this bad? How could I be so stupid? Max I love you…
Baby, yeah, I'm down on my knees
She's never coming back to me
And I always will