Authors note: I do not own any of secret life or its characters many of the scenes in the first part of the story are of the offical episodes just Ashley central but other will be my own plot after season 2 episode 24 with some original scene that belong to the creator of secret life including season 3 episode 5 both episodes of which started the relationship(if you can call it that) between Ashley and Ricky i got my hopes up about them two wanting to see a proper relationship but they got Ricky together with Amy so i write this fan fiction to fulfill my needs.

Falling love is not easy

Hi my name is Ashley Juergens; I am the daughter of Anne and George Juergens, sister of Amy and Robbie Juergens, Aunt of John Juergens-Underwood. I go to Grant high school but my story starts from the last year of middle school at least that's when my life changed with my sister's surprise for us all.

It took a few weeks but I began to notice subtle changes in my sister she had put on weight, she was getting herself some boobs, she was stuttering whenever confronted and my mom asks our doctor about a insurance bill that she got through the post about Amy the doctor pretended not to know I saw through it immediately she was just one of those people you know as a fake as soon as they open their mouths, we had run into her at the gas station.

When Amy went on her date with Ben Boykevich I stayed up waiting for her I was upset because mom and dad are constantly arguing she thinks his having an affair, I felt like my entire family was falling around me and there was nothing I could do I always came in second around my sister she was the good girl, this is because I did outrageous things to get me sent to the principal's office to get their attention of course it never lasted long they were always on to Amy soon enough after a few hours of shouting and lectures.

Anyway I was waiting up for her because I wanted to ask her a question which I knew if answered as a positive it could either make or break the family I suspected my 15 year old sister was pregnant.

When I asked her she stuttered asking me why I would ask that, I knew immediately I was correct Amy only ever stuttered when nervous or lying about something. She confirmed it and eventually revealed Ben was not the father but that she had in fact gotten pregnant before she started Ben when she had a one night stand with a guy from band camp who she got to know as she was starting the school he went to as a freshman after the summer was over Grant High not far from where we live, he apparently goes there as a sophomore had just finished his freshman year that summer.

I met him about a month after I found out about the pregnancy he came to our house to speak to Amy about wanting to be involved in the baby's life I had answered the door and thought him to be cute.

I didn't really have that many conversations with him throughout Amy's pregnancy but when the baby was being born and I sat in the waiting room with him while everyone was getting coffee we had a conversation, he asked me if I knew what Amy was going to name the baby and I told him it wasn't going to be Ricky, he asked me if I was this mean to Ben as I had said it rather meanly I told him Ben wasn't the one who got Amy pregnant and he asked me to be his friend as everyone who came to visit Amy would probably hate him and he need a friend, I asked him if he was capable of being a friend he didn't have an answer.

Watching as Ricky saw his son for the first time warmed my heart he was so scared of holding son I wondered why he looked so emotional that when he finally got the courage to hold him and looked like all his dreams had come true made me melt I think this is when I began to subconsciously develop feelings for my nephews father.

Amy treated Ricky horribly blaming him even when she was nice to him you could tell of the resentment which she didn't bother to hide, I just wanted to scream at her that she was being unfair to Ricky but I didn't well not scream it or put it bluntly anyway, I made snide comments here and there. Especially when she tried sucking up to him so that she could ask him to have john for the summer while she went off to Italy for the summer with Ben because she was insecure not to believe he wouldn't cheat.

Starting my very first day of high school my mom and sister kept badgering me into changing my outfit telling me to make an effort as it's my first day which I knew they would so I had already decided I would make a statement in my own way wearing a sexy knee length skimpy dress under the t-shirt and trouser I had picked and then took it off after Amy had left the car and mom had left then I made a very dramatic entrance into school causing all eyes to turn to me including Ricky my subconscious squealed in delight I however looked indifferent and make my way through the crowd.

I met Griffin at lunch time by my locker who informed he was gay and did not want to sleep with me he was a freshman there too and we had lunch together and became friends. Ricky came over to use as we were speaking by my locker and asked if he was bothering me and said he was just looking out for me I informed I didn't need anyone looking out for me and then me and Griffin walked off to lunch I could feel his eyes on me all the way done the hall.

When Adrian came to look at the house and Amy commented that there was no room in our house next door for me and dad if he sold the house we moved into after john was born to Adrian's family, Adrian said she would hate for me to have to put up with Amy so I could stay there with her and her family when I replied I'd think about it Ricky said I wasn't going to live with Adrian laughing at the impossibility didn't understand why but I don't him he could tell me what to do.

When Amy and Adrian let Ricky told me he didn't want Adrian living next door to Amy, I asked him if he was afraid she would catch he lying about where he was, he asked me if I thought he was afraid of her to which I replied ah a question not an answer he told me he didn't care if she caught him cheating and that he wished she would catch him cheating then she would break up with him, I asked him If that was why he wanted her to catch him cheating because she wanted her to break up with him or because he somehow wanted to her to stop him cheating on her, to which he replied he could stop, I told him he could do a probably do a lot of things he never thought he could do, he asked me "like what", "like be a good father maybe you could be a good guy for a change", "maybe I don't want to", "maybe you do", he looked at me and I knew I had hit a nerve.

This guy is looking at me in the hallway, Griffin comes up to me and asks if I want him to get rid of the guy for me, I tell him I don't know yet it is the same guy who showed an interest in me a few weeks previously and I thought him to be tempting on my pack with griffin not to date in high school his name is Mark when asking him of his intentions he tells Griffin to guess which I say I like which I did I found his wit funny, they argued over who could walk me to class I remarked that they could both walk me and I felt like Scarlet O'Hara and walked off to class, Mark didn't know who scarlet was an Griffin explained leaving me to be way ahead in front when Ricky caught up to me.

"Hey if you wanna go out you can double with me" 'I would love to go out with you on our own' I quickly squash those thoughts

"What makes you think I wanna go out?"

"I've been watching you watch that guy, you wanna go out" 'he's been watching me?' Why do I feel happy about that?

"Maybe"

"So who's gonna drive you he's a freshman and unlike your sister's boyfriend I doubt he has a driver"

"Well he hasn't asked me so"

"Maybe he can't get past your friend"

"Well then he can't go out with me"

"Don't you think guys are intimidated by you enough without having to get past a bodyguard?" 'I'm intimidating"

"Intimidated by me, how so?" I ask me a mischievous smile on my face flirting with him a little I recognise but shake it off.

"Don't play games with me you know what I'm talking about" Maybe subconsciously somewhere "does he find me intimidating? Is this a good thing?"

"What?" I question at his remark hoping for him to elaborate

"Ok, I'm just trying to be nice here if you wanna go out, you can go out with Adrian and me" Back to my previous thought 'I would love to go out with him on our own'

"Do you go out" Referring to him and Adrian I had never known them to do anything but have sex

"We go out" as he says this Adrian comes over to us

"What's going on?" Adrian asks in a slightly curious tone obviously having over heard a part of our conversation

"This guy is trying to date Ashley and I told her if the two of them wanna go out with us sometime they can"

"Were going out?" She is clearly shocked

"We can go out" He says this in a slight tone that I can't help but think 'Is this just an excuse to be with me?' but once again I squash the thought as soon as it comes

"Yeah ok" Adrian clearly happy over this turn of events

"Really" I direct my question at Adrian

"Yeah sure"

Mark comes up and says "hey" we walk away he asks if I wanna go out tonight, I ask him how because he doesn't drive he says his mom can take us, I don't want to meet the parents and he assures me she will stay in the car, I look behind us and see Ricky and Adrian looking at us, I can't help but wish Ricky is jealous.