Spencer
I don't know how to start this letter, and what I have to say is not going to be easy for me. But if I don't tell you now then I can't leave this earth at peace without you not knowing how I feel about you, and you have the right to know. For the past five years I have been in love with you. I was afraid to tell you because i didn't know how you would react and I didn't want our friendship to die because what we had as friends was really great and I didn't want to ruin it. But there were so many times when i wanted to tell you but couldn't because I was afraid and I didn't want to get hurt. I know this all sounds cliche but it's not. I first felt this way before you and Aiden ever started dating and when you guys did, it hurt like hell to see you with someone that didn't treat you right. But as a good friend I had to except that fact that you were with someone else and help you in anyway possible. That also hurt in ways that I can't describe. But knowing that you also liked girls gave some kind of light. So when the day that you and Aiden broke up I thought I had finally had a chance to swoop in and be the hero. But knowing me I would of took advantage of your emotions like I always did with all the other girls back in the day. But I couldn't do it because it was wrong and I would of hurt you more, so I decided to let your heart heal until you were ready. But that was also another mistake on my part because I was to late, another person had swooped in before I could capture your heart. Her name was Carmen. So again I had to watch you be with someone that didn't treat you any better than the last person. There were times when I tried to stop and love you and move on but every time I looked in to those baby blues or saw that smile my heart would melt. Spencer you have no idea how much I love you. There was a moment in Breaking Dawn when Bella realized how much Edward really loved her, that it could kill a human because no human could have so much love for someone. That is how I feel. I feel that I can die because I am so in love with you that it can kill me. But death is not a joke in this situation. I was once was afraid to tell you how I feel about you but now I am not, now I am afraid of death it self. I would have taken death in any shape or form but all I want now is a little more time with you. Every time we were together I would cherish every second because I didn't want to miss anything with you or about you. But as these last ten days of my life go by I just want to know that you will be by my side till the day I take my last breath because the last thing I want to see when I leave this earth is your face. All I want is you, my angel.
Ashley
The letter that you just read was written ten days before I left this earth. If you are wondering if Spencer had ever got to read this letter stop wondering because she did. My name is Ashley Davies and I died of leukemia at age twenty one. I may have not had a full life but my life ended when it just began. I was sixteen when I first met Spencer Carlin. It was my junior year of high school at King High. I was a proud wild gay teenager that needed a good wake up call. That call came when I fell in love with Spencer. But lets go back to the beginning where it all began. This is my story.
Hey guys I am taking a little break from my other story to work on this one I hope you guys like it. Please let me know what you think. I promise to update soon when I know where I want to go in my other story.