Disclaimer: I do not own anything related to Twilight or the song 'Hate Me.' Though, I wouldn't mind owning Edward or Jasper...
Edward's PoV
I was driving in my car up to Denali and to meet my family. I can't believe I just left Bella, but with what happened at her party I can't do this anymore.
I turned the radio on and the song caught my attention. It fit this moment so well.
(If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If your dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me.)
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
I'm sober now for 3 whole months it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your brown eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "You... don't... want me?"
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
For you
For you
For you
The radio DJ came on, "And that, ladies and gentlemen, was Blue October's new song 'Hate Me'."
I pulled into the nearest mall and raced to the music store. I purchased Blue October's CD – 'Foiled'.
I walked back to my car and popped it in the CD player. I turned it to track five and replayed that song over and over, shaking with tearless sobs. When I made it to Denali I ran up to my room and locked myself in. I didn't have the desire to deal with Tanya or anyone else.
I listened to that song on repeat for days, never leaving my room. Eventually, they broke down my door and forced me to hunt.
I quickly hunted down a mountain lion and three deer's and ran back to the house. I moped and moped until I decided to go track Victoria down.
Yes, I changed a few words to make it match Twilight.
"Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand"
"And then she whispered 'How can you do this to me?'"