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I own none of the characters they belong to rachel caine. so i now present my first chapter of dancing with tears in my eyes enjoy! ^.^ R&R!
"Claire." I quietly knocked on her door not knowing if she was asleep or not hoping for the latter. "Claire?"
"hmmm..?" she mumbled in her sleep. God she was so cute when she did that wait stop Collins you can't think about that not with what you are about to do.
"Can we talk?" I silently opened her door and walked to her bedside where her hair was over her face as she snored slightly in her almost sleep. I hate myself for this why am I doing this again? I asked myself as I moved her brown hair from her face. "Because it's the right thing dummy" I mumbled
"What's the right thing?" she asked looking up at me. I hadn't even known she was awake. "Crawling over here and holding me would be the right thing." she laughed and moved to make room then saw the expression on my face. "what happened? What's wrong?"
"nothing." I replied 'not yet' I thought to myself. "well Claire listen.." don't look her in the eyes i told myself it will make you back out.
"what is it Shane?" she sat up against all her pillows looking worried and then hurt when I moved to the foot of the bed when she tried to put a comforting hand
on my shoulder. "what happened?" she asked again.
"nothing. But Claire I ummm got a job outside if Morganville Ameile said I can go...but..."
"but alone." she finished
"yeah... I don't want to hurt you butt would hurt either way if i went and kept you tied down but If I let you go you will hate me. I can't tale the latter but I want you happy Claire honey."
"so youre leaving me?" she asked looking at her comforter and playing with the loose threads. " why can't you just stay?"
" Myrin offered the job... You know I can't turn him down Claire." I said sadly
"Stop. Stop saying my name like I'm a pity case..."
"I'm not"
"Yes you are you are acting like I'm going to break down but in a girl yes I'm hurt but it's not like I've had slot if love I just hoped you would stick with your word when you said you love me."
"I do love you Claire. I do. I just I can't have you tied down when I'm gone you will want freedom I know it. If you want me when I cone back I want you will you have me when I'm back?"
"Shane I will always have you." she looked pitiful. Dammit I looked in her eyes. The eyes said everything I was killing her but she wouldn't show it.
"You better get packing I know you leave today and Myrin is impatient." she looked up and gave me a weak smile. "Call me when you can I will be waiting shane. Goodbye for now ok?"
I nodded that was all I could do before walking out and leaving, I already was packed and loaded thanks to Micheal and eve who now looked sad,betrayed, yet somehow happy for me as they waved me away. I took one last look at the glass house for who knows how long I'd be gone and could only imagine Claire and her crying wanting me there to hold her but I couldn't not anymore not until my job was done. My job was going to be tough, and only Micheal and Myrin knew.
'So here I come' I thought, 'Be ready. I'm killing you this time. I swear it for claire's sake your dead.' I was off on the hunt to kill my own father.
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