#1
As much as Allen hated to admit it, there was something bugging him. Not to the extent when he thought about it all the time, but there were certain moments when that one question refused to leave his mind. Like now, for example.
He was lying in bed with his gorgeous boyfriend, doing nothing in particular besides not wanting to get up because it was Saturday. They were tangled together in a chaotic heap of limbs, but somehow were perfectly okay with it. Allen felt nothing but comfortable and warm. But then again, there was this one little thought nagging him to no end. Frustrated, he opened his eyes with a sigh, no longer able to remain in empty-minded bliss characteristic to lazy mornings.
"Mmm?", Kanda more groaned than said, still half-sleeping, but apparently feeling something was off. After a moment, he opened one eye, looking sideways at his lover.
The albino was still lying on him, but he was watching the ceiling with an expression that could only be described as stubborn.
"What are you sighing for?," he mumbled, simply curious.
"Just thinking," Allen said offhandedly, but even he did hear the uncertainty in his voice. He didn't have to look up to see Kanda's sceptic gaze, he knew it was there.
"So you can do that after all." For his honestly surprised-sounding voice, the man got himself an elbow to the ribs. To which, he barely reacted at all.
It was quiet for a while then. Kanda suspected that whatever was bothering the bean sprout, he'll voice it sooner or later, no need to rush him. It turned out to be the sooner.
"We're together quite long, aren't we?," he began, tone betraying nothing in particular.
"Longer than I thought I could put up with you, yes," Kanda agreed, making Allen smile a little despite himself.
"Aand... how much you would hate it if I wanted to talk about the serious stuff?"
"Sorry to break it to you, but we technically can't have kids, bean sprout." The long-haired man flicked his lover's forehead to emphasize his point, but all he earned himself for that was a snort.
It took Allen quite a while to get used to how Kanda behaved when he was relaxed . He wouldn't go as far as to say that he was nice at times like that, but it was undoubtedly true that the man's words and actions had significantly less of the customary bite. Allen really loved him like that... but not only like that, really. Then again, love, huh? The damned thing.
Now that Allen decided to voice his concerns, he was actually starting to feel more than a little embarrassed. He wasn't going to be stopped by that though.
"I'm serious, BaKanda. What I meant― I just want to know― do you feel something? For me, I mean." It took Allen all he got not to stutter like a fool. Nervousness clenched at his insides, but he steeled himself not to show it and focused his eyes on some spot on the ceiling. He didn't really need to look at Kanda, he was sure it would do everything but help. The moments of silence stretched for eternity and it got to the point his hands started shaking a bit and he closed them in fists on the sheets to calm down.
"I do", the low voice he knew so well answered him at last and he felt relief wash over him, his chest constricting pleasantly, but wanted the man to clarify.
Looking up over at his face, he mumbled "like what?", his throat tightening.
Kanda sat up, making Allen change his position as well and he ended up perched up on his elbows, head turned to the side to observe. "You...", Kanda began, his eyes half-lidded and gaze intense. "Aggravate me as hell. And make me irritated. Angry often. I want to beat the shit out of you most of the time," Kanda finished with a smirk, seemingly not noticing how Allen's expression went from heartbroken to mad as he was speaking the words – words that were not what the albino wanted to hear.
Jaw tight, Allen said "you're the biggest asshole I've ever met, I hope you know that."
Kanda didn't look like it hurt him any, the air of self-satisfaction getting even more prominent around him. Allen was then going to get up and make some breakfast for himself, planning to ignore Kanda as much as he could for the rest of the day. The man didn't let him, however, apparently not feeling like the conversation was over. He pinned his slightly smaller partner's body down in one fluent movement, leaning in close so that his lips were moving against the other's as he spoke.
"Am I? I love you though."
I took Allen a few seconds to register what was being said to him. His mouth stilled before he could tell Kanda to get off, his heart speeding up drastically. God, he wasn't even aware how much he really wanted to hear that. Warmth spreading across his whole body, he fought his smile down not to grin like a fool and let his hands rest on Kanda's back.
"You really said that," he laughed airily, giving him a short kiss before saying "I love you, too."
"Of course you do," Kanda snorted, but quickly initiated another, deeper, kiss before his lover could call him on that.
Satisfied with how Allen melted against him, he backed away and managed to smoothly kill the moment just by speaking up.
"If you're done being a teenage girl then let's go fuck in the shower. I'm not really in the mood for changing sheets." Kanda, apparently back to being a dick he always was, got up and marched naked to the bathroom, leaving the door open in invitation.
"You know what, I take back what I said, you prick," Allen called after him, irritated, despite himself getting up to follow. It's not like he was going to refuse sex, offended or not. He knew he should probably be grateful that Kanda even let him have his sappy moment anyway.
"Sure thing, bean sprout. Come here and say it with my dick up your ass." Raised voice was followed by the sound of shower water flowing.
"We'll see about that," the albino mumbled under his breath, shutting the door behind him as he entered.
a/n
I hope it was not too fluffy, I tried to balance it out as well as I could :v . Oh, I imagined it in a AU setting by the way, not that it matters much.