Okay, here we go guys another story

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Chapter 1 Let's Take a Break

The hospital was in utter chaos, the shooter was dead, but not before leaving a trial of death and destruction in his wake.

Cristina could see Meredith and Derek; they were going to be fine, and when he heard about the baby he would be so happy. He was that kind of person.

Cristina left them alone, they needed space.

She was unsure of what to do next. She didn't want to be alone, but she needed peace. She should go see Owen, but she wasn't ready to see him just yet.

She didn't know what she wanted when it came to Owen right now. She knew that she loved him. When she had seen him get shot and thought he was dead she had nearly lost it but, as soon as, she saw he was okay she had gone back to being angry and hurt with him. But he'd still be there tomorrow, he could wait.

For the first time, in as long as she could remember, she wanted to get out and be far away from that hospital. Cristina figured a walk would clear her head; it was a still night, not raining for once, which didn't happen so often in Seattle.

She walked along not really knowing where she was heading, her mind started to wonder.

She thought of Meredith, who was having a baby, so grownup an adult. She knew Mere was ready, she had changed so much since they'd met three years ago, but then so had she.

Then there was Owen. She was hurt when he hadn't answered her. How could they have gone through all they had and he not be able to tell her he loved her? Stupid, stupid man.

She walked back to the apartment. As she walked through the door she expected to see Callie, as she had every night, crying over a tub of Ben and Jerry's. But instead, Callie was on the sofa with Blondie, all over each other.

'Great,' she thought, 'just what I need; two lesbians making out on the couch.'

Callie rushed over to her when she saw her enter the room. "Where have you been? I can't believe what happened today. It's terrible, so much death, and Derek and Owen. Oh my goodness, are you okay?"

"Callie, I am okay, I'm fine. Shaken up but fine, and Derek and Owen will be fine.

So, what is going on here? You two back on?"

"Yeah, isn't it great? We got back together. So err... what about you and Owen?"

Cristina sighed. "I have no idea. I guess we will talk tomorrow, but right now I'm going to shower and sleep."

"Okay, well if you need us we will be in our room."

"Great, thanks for the heads-up."

Cristina didn't get much sleep that night. The day's events playing over and over again in her head like a movie, she could feel the man holding the gun to her head, hear Meredith's screams and could still feel McDreamy's beating heart as she operated on him.

She saw Owen get shot, she could hear him talking, could see his face. She wanted him to be with her so badly right now.

She woke in the morning feeling better. A sleepless night, much of the time, but she had gotten enough to clear her head a little and she knew what she was going to say to Owen.

When she got to the hospital they told her Owen had gone home.

She and many of the other staff members had been told to take some time off so she headed for Owens's house.

She checked her blackberry on the way and she had an email saying all staff members were asked to attend mandatory counseling sessions, as the shooting was traumatic and many had seen their friends shot and killed.

She soon pulled up outside of Owens's flat.

Cristina went into the elevator. After awhile, the memory of being in the elevator with the shooter hit her and she broke down and began to cry.

The lift stopped at Owens's floor, the doors opened but she stayed, sitting on the floor for awhile, sobbing.

She pulled herself together and stepped out of the elevator.

She knocked on Owens's door, after a short while he came to the door. It hurt to see him because of what she was about to do, but she had thought about it long and hard. And it was the only option if they were ever to move forward.

"Hi." He looked tired but then, they were all tired. "Come in," he gestured towards his living room.

She smiled and walked through into the living area. "So, how's your shoulder?"

"Oh, it's fine, it's nothing. How are you? Do you want some coffee? I just made a pot. I didn't sleep so well; those hospital beds are not comfy."

"Yeah I know, I didn't sleep well either, lots to think about. I will take some coffee, thanks."

She sat on the sofa while he brought over her coffee. They sat in silence for awhile, he spoke first. "Do you want to talk about it?"

She shook her head 'no' and began to cry again.

Owen put down his coffee and moved to hold her; they sat like that for awhile.

He held her close to his chest and stroked her hair. "It's okay to cry," he assured her. "You were so brave yesterday, not many people could have handled that; I'm proud of you, you saved Derek's life and stood up to a gunman."

"I'm okay, I'm fine, I came here to talk about us. I have something to say and I need you to listen to me and not argue, okay?"

"Okay."

"I have been thinking that we should take a break. I will be honest, you hurt me. I don't trust you anymore and to get that trust back I need some space.

I gave everything to Burke and he left me at the altar. I won't go through that again, I deserve better than that. I deserve better than to be with someone who, after months together, can't tell me he loves me. So I think we should take a break.

I love you and I know you love me, I know you do. You proved that yesterday, but it doesn't change that you hesitated. Or that you lied to me."

Owen looked like he was going to cry but he didn't. Instead, he held her close again.

"I wish you wouldn't do this Cristiana. I made a mistake, a huge stupid mistake, but I want you. I always have. But, if you promise me we will talk and work on this then I will agree to it, I can't agree unless I know I'll still have you in my life."

She took his hand. "You will always be in my life, I love you but I'm not sure if I can be with you anymore. I will always be there for you and be your friend, but right now that's all I can give."

"Will you stay with me for awhile?"

"Okay."

They kissed and hugged and they went to Owens's room and made love before Cristina left hoping that it wouldn't be the last time.

TBC