This is a companion to my other (not finished) story Altered Moon. Now Edward has a few things to say…Edward….Now *points at readers*

Edward: I'm sorry I ran away from Bella. It was wrong and thankfully I don't act…ummm…attempt suicide. Apparently I already was….*whispers to TC* When was a suicidal?

TC: After you hunted human scum for 80 odd years…

E:oh…Enjoy and please give feed back or I'll never be updated again…wait a min…REALLY! I'm dead meat.

I had run right from the woods, never looking back. I wish I had. To see that angelic face again, just once more. But If I did I wouldn't even made it a mile away from her. This was my choice. The only thing that would keep her safe.

I didn't even go home. I couldn't bare their disappointment, understanding, or even love. I deserved nothing less than Hell. And it came.

It felt like I couldn't breathe, that the darkness was pressing against my chest and for once in the life I couldn't think. Desperately grabbing at my chest I kept running. Just running away from the light that let me breathe and feel joy. My beautiful light.

My sky was dark and starless. I would never see the light again.

Passing the Canadian border I collapsed. Dry wrenching sobs broke though as I struggled to breathe past the thick binding darkness choking me. It wrapped around me, clawing at my un-beating heart and pounding at my aching skull

It was a long time before I had the strength to get up, and I only did it to stay away from Alice and Carlisle. They were a few miles away now searching persistently for me.

I thought about staying out of the eyes of everybody and left the rest of my mind remained numb. I just needed to escape this life and get away from everyone in it

"Edward wait! Please wait!"

"Son… Son…Clam down and come home. Don't do this to us again."

Their voices faded quickly, but not without forcing more pain onto me. Too much of her still lingered in my mind.

I didn't stop until I had lost them, then a few more miles afterward I dropped onto the forest floor again.

I would never see her joy, happiness or love again. She would have a…husband…kids…life. Without me

I couldn't live, but exist I did though the night A never-ending night.

My thoughts became a jumble as the reality of what I had done hit me. I had left my only chance of love and happiness behind. I had thrown away my only opportunity to be with someone I adored, to feel human again.

I can still feel the touch of her warm hands smoothing my hair, her hot breath on the side of my face. I can remember her dazzling smile, the sideways glances and the way her blush creped over her soft cheeks when I stared at her for too long. I recalled her crooked nose, alluring lips, piercing brown eyes and her unbalanced walk. But most of all I remembered her exquisite mouth-watering aroma. It hovered around her, teasing and daring me. I felt venom pooling in my mouth at the thought, disgusted, I spat it out on the ground.

My light was gone.

GONE

I stayed there sobbing in till I was numb again.

*************************************************************************************Edward: Was I really that big of a baby?

TC and BFM: Yep

TC: for people who don't know BFM is my Best Friend M; and is willing to show up after reading sometimes…

BFM: yeah…I can't seem to work the net well enough to find all the chapters…

TC and ED: YEP!

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