Chapter 1- "Artist's Ambition"

Night had fallen. It was stormy and the rain poured all over. Deidara was busy with a sculpture, one that he had intended to finish but every time a mission gave way he had to stop and he fell more behind on finishing it. He wanted to do more art and became obsessive about being an artist, no one knew he had thoughts about giving up being an Akatsuki member to become an artist and leave that career behind. He only told Tobi, who choked on his food while he ate and couldn't believe that he would make a decision like that and hoped that the leader didn't here about it. He lost his smile as he looked at Deidara.

"Tobi. I want to make something of myself, yeah." Deidara replied, Tobi looked at him and he seemed worried. "I'm tired of this...We're all going to stop sometime, yeah."

"...Deidara." That was all Tobi could say, he knew Deidara wanted more to do with his life but leaving wasn't going to be easy for him. "The leader said once our membership is final...There's no turning back...you can't quit..."

"I know, yeah but this is something I want to do, yeah." Deidara still focused on being an artist and wanted to give up membership all together. "This is what I want, I want to stop."

Itachi overheard the conversation and came over to Deidara and Tobi, Tobi dropped his plate as it shattered to the ground. "Is this true, Deidara? That's what you want do?" Deidara knew things were going to get out of hand now that the captain heard about his plans. "I should report you..."

"Let him find out for himself, yeah." said Deidara. "Art is important to me, yeah. All the missions make it hard for me, yeah. I just want a stable career, yeah."

Itachi walked away. He wasn't going to tell the leader, he had too many things to worry about at the time to even bother. Tobi stilled looked at Deidara. Tobi feared it would cost him his life but it didn't matter, they weren't suppose to care if their fellow members died or let it bother them unless they killed them themselves. The leader wasn't due back until tomorrow evening and the wait was agonizing for Deidara, he wanted to leave as soon as he got the chance but feared he'd be killed if he left without the leader not seeing him. Soon all the Akatsuki members crowded around him and he knew that everyone knew about his plan, some were outraged and some didn't know what to think.

"Itachi, the guy is a liar..." replied Kisame. "There is no way he just said that without thinking for the consequences...Deidara, you have to be kidding."

The blond moved his head. "No. I actually want to quit, yeah. It makes no sense I stay with an aspiration in mind, yeah." Kisame lost his gentle tone as the others watched him get mad about the situation. "Deidara! I advise you to choose a better path, this one is going cost you your life and put you in stress!"

"That not only it, yeah." He braced himself for saying the next thing. "It's cause I'm in love with someone, yeah. I know we're not supposed to, yeah. I want her..."

Itachi's gazed shifted into shock. "Who's the girl? This better not be a lie, Deidara. You're starting to sound pretty ludicrous by now, look what it's doing to you!"

"It's one we've kidnaped before, yeah. That's who I love..." All the members went into shock, they knew what he was after. "Nadia Himnaki, the girl I long for...I love her..."

Tobi smacked Deidara with a book as Zestu smacked him with another book. Another rule was broken by the blond, he wasn't suppose to have feelings for any hostages or former hostages that have been brought into their area. Everyone began to talk all at once and yell at Deidara for making regretful decisions and putting himself in jeopardy all at once. The blond looked at his team members and saw their angry reactions to his decisions, he even felt that Sasori was mad at him too. He probably would be if he was still here but Deidara felt he couldn't go on like this anymore and took off his head band and got a lighter to burn his hat and his overcoat. Itachi stopped him as everyone took turns holding him down and forcing him to stop him from abusing his title and place as an Akatsuki member, Deidara pried them off and began trying to remove his ring with no luck. He expected everyone to get this way and wanted nothing to do with it.

"You are crazy, Deidara..." replied Tobi, he smacked him again as Deidara looked at him angrily. "Why are thinking like this? You were fine...The leader is going to have it out with you..."

The clothes burned as he threw in his headband and watched the items burn. He no longer was a member he had just gotten rid of what mad him a member. "I'm finished, yeah. I'm going to be an artist, yeah. My career with this organization is over, I'm no longer a member."

Zestu glared at the blond in the most displeasing way and wanted to turn him inside out his way. Everyone wanted to harm Deidara now for doing what he just did and he was happy he was giving up his title. The ring was the only thing left that remained of his existence in the Akatsuki organization, he couldn't remove it and it stayed on his finger. Deidara returned to his art section to only realize that it had been messed with, the leader was there ripping sketches and throwing down paintings and doing other destructive things. Tobi was right all along and now the leader knew about every little detail. Deidara had no fear and no one had ever saw the leader this outraged before. Everyone was going to hear it now.

"So...You want to quit?" replied the leader, his back turned away from Deidara as night played it's scene in the room. "YOU'RE FINISHED! Displaying that kind of hate for this organization in that manner, get all your shit out of here by tonight..."

"I quit sir, things were getting too hard." Deidara was telling the leader why he chose to quit without any fear in his voice, he sounded sure. "I'm sure you'll understand, yeah."

"NO! I don't understand!" The leader began to get impatient, he choose a favored painting of Deidara's that had night scene and a mystical beach. "I should just burn this but I won't." he threw it near Deidara as he looked at the leader with seriousness. "I always thought art always messed with your head...Your aspirations have now lead you down to this...Your membership was final that day and you decide to do this, after three years?!?!"

The leader summed up everything with more yelling and cursing until after half an hour Deidara came out of his office with the same emotion and all his things packed, he looked at all his team members and made his way to the door. Each one of them watching as he left, he was fed up with being here and took his leave. His paintings were carried out last and he looked back.

All the members glared at him and didn't care if he said anything or did anything, he closed the door behind him and looked up at the moon in the sky. He headed up the trail, he was now entering the world that he wanted to be in. It was the first step to being an artist. Killed or be killed, Deidara knew he wasn't going to turn back.

So what did you think? It's my first Deidara fic and it was an idea I had a few days ago and I decided to make into a story. Please R&R.