This is a remake of baby doll gone wrong story I did in 2008. For that time in my life it was good writing, but now I'm coming back to it and redoing the chapters putting more details and hopefully a better experience to read. Same story line as before, hope you all enjoy.
Baby doll gone wrong
So a new kind of new moon. Edward left Bella telling her not to do anything stupid and all of that. She goes off and gets mixed up in the 'wrong crowd' and soon is doing drugs and parting 24/7. What happens when Edward comes back after 6 months (like he said he would) and sees her the way she is. Can he help her?
Disclaimer: I do not own ANYTHING in the Twilight realm, but I do have some of my own charters that I put in there.
Chapter One: After He Left
I lay in bed alone, holding onto the blanket that Edward and I had cuddled in not too long ago. I was blank. I couldn't move; I didn't want to. Days passed by slowly but also within a blur. I didn't know what day of the week it was, and my father stopped knocking on the door to see if I wanted to eat with him.
It was missing. All our pictures together have mysteriously disappeared. Well it wasn't much of a mystery. He said it would be like her was never here. I wish I could believe that. These memories, and my feelings are all I have left. Our memories are killing me.
Eventually my body gave into the need to eat and drink. So I made my way downstairs in the middle of the night and grabbed a water bottle and snack food from the cupboard.
I quickly made my way back into my room and shut the door. I knew that I would have to go back to school eventually, but I didn't want to. How could I face any of my classmates? Especially with how I was found in the forest after Edward left me.
The whole town must know by now.
Slowly weeks passed. I went to class; I didn't talk to anybody. At first everyone was worried about me, but after days of trying to talk to me, everyone started to give up. I don't blame them; I would give up on me too.
I couldn't find any reason to live. He left me all alone in the stupid woods. I wish he just never talked to me, and that I never moved to Forks. What's so good about this stupid town? NOTHING! I tried to tell my self that everything would get better, but with each passing second I fell deeper into myself. I was lost in my mind, and I couldn't find a way out.
At first I felt like I was drowning, but the longer I stayed inside my self, the more I liked it. I was numb to the world around me. I choose not to feel, and distance myself from everyone and everything around me.
I thought about killing my self-everyday, but I could never do it. I was afraid to die as well. I ended up cutting myself a few times, but even that didn't help a thing. I just had to hide the marks from everyone.
I needed a change.
I left. I went out to Seattle. I told Charlie that I was going to go shopping. He was thrilled that I was doing something; he gave me some money and told me to have fun. I took it and left.
The drive took a while, the whole time I wasn't really paying attention to anything. I was just suddenly where I wanted to be.
I looked around at all the shops. There were people everywhere and I felt so alone within the crowds. I didn't stand out in anyway; I was a wallflower, cute but nothing special when compared to all the other flowers on the wall.
I walked some more and stopped. There I made a decision. I walked in. There were black cloths everywhere. Trip pants, chains, and clothes that showed off way too much skin hung on the walls. This is what I needed.
A teenage boy came over and asked if I needed help. I nodded and explained that I needed a change and that this is exactly what I needed. He nodded as though he knew my pain and showed me a bunch of clothes that would suit my body well.
I spent too much money that day, but it was worth it. I had a new wardrobe.
When I got home, I threw out all my old cloths. Everything reminded me of him. He liked me wearing certain clothes and some of my clothes were from him.
He was everywhere. I let him in too much and now, I was alone with all the memories. All I wanted to do was forget him, but I couldn't
People started to call me 'anti social.' I didn't talk to anyone, what was the point. Weeks turned into months, and I was stuck in this same routine. I felt myself slowly dying, and for some reason I liked it. As though everyday was now a punishment for him. See what he's done to me? Edward did this, I just wish he could see me now. See how much better I am; even though, I know better.
That was when they showed up.
We got two new kids at school. Both of them also wore the dark clothing I wore. At lunchtime they came to sit with me. I was used to being by myself, or at least that's what I told myself everyday.
"Hi," The girl had straight black hair said as she and another other girl sat down with me at the table. I nodded not really knowing how to respond. I haven't said a word in months, but they didn't seam to care. "This place is quite the dump," she said as she looked at me, "o how rude of me, I'm Melissa and this is friend, Claire."
"I'm Bella" I said finding my voice but it coming out a bit crackly and sore. I cleared my throat and continued. "Why did you two move here?"
"My mother wanted to move into a small town. She came because our moms are together." Melissa said. I nodded understanding what she meant.
"It gets annoying sometimes, but at least we stay together." Claire looked from Melissa back to me, "So why are you here?" Claire asked me.
"My dad lives here and I left my mom. She has enough to deal with without me being there." It felt weird to finally be talking after so long. My vocal cords hurt a bit. They both gave me a understanding look.
"I'm sorry." Claire said, but strangely it felt like she meant it. We didn't even know each other. "We should hang out sometime."
I nodded what else could I do. I was denying contact with everyone I knew, everyone who knew what happened. These two have no clue about Edward or the Cullens.
We decided to ditch class. I've never ditched class before, at least not like this. I went along though, and I felt adrenaline as we did it. There was a fear of getting caught that I couldn't help but like.
We went off to hang out in my truck. I started the engine and we pealed out of the parking lot.
"Do you smoke?" Melissa asked me. I was suddenly hit with the fact that they were probably not the best people to be hanging with. A part of me didn't care though.
"Not really." I said back truthfully.
"O, do you mind if we smoke in here?" I pondered the thought for a moment. I was 18, it wasn't illegal for me to do it. I wondered if Charley would care. How would he feel? I had to stop thinking that way though, it only causes me pain. I do what I want, not what anyone else wants me to do, I thought to my self.
"No, in fact can I have one?" I asked looking over at Melissa.
"Sure." She passed the cigarette over to me. I lit it up and took a puff, a coughed a bit. It wasn't as bed as everyone makes it seem. I smirked, there goes more of my life. I don't give a shit about my life. He left me; he left me to die, that dick. I am going to die.
Both of the girls gave each other a look and we ended up going out of town to one of their friends houses that lived about an hour out. Honestly, this has to be one of the most reckless things I have done. I really didn't know what I was doing, but I knew I didn't want to keep doing what I have been doing in the past.
I parked my truck and looked at the house we pulled up to. It was a decent nice looking place. Melissa walked up quickly and range the door bell. A guy with shady brown hair answered the door, "Melissa, Claire, what are you two doing here?" he asked.
"Well, we thought we should stop on by." Melissa gave the guy a hug, "O and this is my friend Bella." Melissa said pointing to me. He looked over at me and I swear he did a double take. "She is off limits" Melissa added quickly before giving him a look.
"Ok I get it." He said as he put his hands up in surrender. He then walked over to me and smiled. "My name is Tommy, you can call me Tom." I looked over and saw both Claire and Melissa roll their eyes. We started to walk into his house and I was hit with the smell of, I have no clue what it was but it wasn't legal.
I saw everyone sitting down in a circle and the other three joined in, so I did too. At first I was just going to watch, but what fun was that?
People make sure a big deal about this shit. The longer I was around these people, the less taboo it felt. When the joint passed by me I asked if I could have some and the group of people were all for it.
I took a few puffs of the cigarette before passing it. Not too long after it would come back to me. Then we got a pipe out and started to smoke from that.
Eventually I understood why people say to be careful with it. People were talking but I couldn't understand a dang word anyone was saying. It was fun at the same time though. Everyone was laughing and enjoying just being with each other. Then I thought, oh shit I still had to drive home.
Time started to pass by so fast, and I didn't feel anything. I was flying high in the clouds, everything around me didn't seem real anymore. It was bliss, and I enjoyed it so much. All the pain left me, all the memories distant as though it didn't happen. I didn't have to think about Edward, and that was the best feeling in the world.
I loved it, being able to forget and enjoy the moment. I wanted it to last forever, but in the back of my mind I knew it wouldn't. It didn't matter though. Nothing mattered, not tomorrow, not what happened yesterday.
Everything felt so right, but at the same time so wrong. Claire came over to me after having some shots of Mad Dog with a smile. "So how do you like it?" she said with her words a bit slurred.
"Great, everything feels perfect" I said with a smile. It was goofy and uncharacteristically me. She laughed and dragged me up and to the kitchen where everyone was taking shots and laughing. Melissa was running around looking for food, and that's when I noticed I had the urge to eat, and eat a lot. "Wow I am so hungry." I said sounding like I haven't eaten in days.
Melissa came bouncing up to me, "Munchies time!" I laughed not really knowing what she meant, but I followed her anyway. She had a bag of chips and we stood around the kitchen and ate. I ended up on the counter sitting next to Melissa. We laughed and ate. I don't know how much we ate. Some of the boys joined in with us while getting cereal and brownies. Any junk food was fair game.
I felt so… good. Then I started to feel numb, but not in a good way. It was like a wake up call. My body was starting to push through the haze and clarity started to form. Before I knew it everything went back into place. I couldn't describe it, but I knew that I wasn't high anymore. Everything seemed to be the way it was before.
I was off the trip I was on and it came back to me that I could feel. I didn't like to feel; I didn't want it, and before I knew it I was craving to be high again. I was starting to have an anxiety attack. No, no! I don't want it to go back to they way it was. That was when a joint was passed to me. I sighed, I didn't have to go back to the way it was before. I happily took a few puffs and passed it to the next person. Melissa took a few puffs we laughed and jumped off the counter.
We went back to the circle this time I was offered a spot on the couch. Melissa sat next to me, and Claire next to her. Tommy sat next to me and he started to talk to me. I don't know what it was about. He seemed so excited to tell me though, so I nodded as though I was actually listening. On the inside, I was not there anymore. I saw patterns and beautiful things around me.
For a second everything stood still, and in that second I was able to think about my life. It was as if I relived everything that happened in a second, My whole stupid existence.
I sat back and watched everybody. Somehow I still couldn't imagine that I was here. Doing what I was doing, why was I doing this again? I thought to my self. I was hallow and I thought I would hear my own thoughts bouncing all around my body. It was the weirdest experience ever.
I shut my self off and was lost inside my own head. In my head everything was right with the world Edward didn't leave, and I was picturing how my life would have been.
We bought a whole lot of stuff from them, and then we left. We were laughing and sometimes I forgot I was driving, but I somehow navigated back to Forks and dropped them off at their place. Then I amazingly drive my self home. When I pulled into the drive way I saw my dad waiting for me on the front porch. O shit, was the only thing that went though my mind.
Here I was fucked up and my dad was waiting for me. Not only that but he was a cop; the people that bust others for doing drugs. He knows all the signs of someone being under the influence.
Thank lord Claire gave me perfume before we left, but I didn't know if it could out do the weed, cigarette, and alcohol smell off me.
"Hey dad" I said as I opened the door and shut it. I was giddy, something Charlie hasn't seen in a while. I was so fucked cause I stumped out of my truck, but he didn't seam to notice.
"Where were you?" He asked in a serious tone. I tried so hard not to laugh because his face was all moving in a circular way and his face was multicolored. I never knew that I was missing out on so much in my life.
"I was hanging out with some friends." He looked at me and smiled. He looked relieved for a second, but then his serious face came back on.
"That's good, but next time could you be home before 12." I swear it was 11. I don't think I was out that late, right? i
"What time is it?" I asked sounding confused.
"1:30" Holy crap cakes, where did all my time go.
"Shit I am so sorry dad; I didn't mean it." He looked at me and I noticed that what I said didn't make sense. "I mean that I didn't know the time could fly by so fast. I promise to be home earlier." I said with a fake smile.
If he didn't noticed something was up her was rather the dumbest cop ever, or in denial. That or he was happy that I wasn't as lost as I have been. He nodded and I ran up the stairs; I didn't really want to be stuck talking to him while I was in this state.
I got to my bed and quickly fell asleep while I was trying to forget about hands that used to be around me as I did. The hands that would save me time and time again. I had tears slowing sliding down my cheeks, but I refused to wipe them.
An: ok there is the first chapter, I will keep going on and fixing up other chapters. For anyone who is reading this, thank you and please drop a comment below.
Ashley