Hey, guys! I have written another new story! I was listening to some sad music and was thinking about how Bella emailed some letters to Alice in the movie New Moon, so I thought that I'd expand that idea and make it my own. So here it is, I hope you enjoy it!

Alice,

I know that you're never going to read this, but I just have to let out some of the pain your departure has inflicted on me. I'm not blaming you or anyone else in your family. I may be dead inside because of a certain brother of yours…I can't bear to say his name…, but I cannot blame you for what he did. He has hurt me, Alice. Deep, deep down. I feel like a large part of my soul has been taken from me. And I am sure that it will never mend. The part I have lost will never come back to me, and I'm going to be left, ripped open, to die a slow and painful death alone.

It hurts me just to think about…him. He has left me without the strength to lift myself up from the ground. What I am now is not Bella Swan. I am just a lifeless carcass, begging to be taken away from this prison that is life. The real Bella is still in the woods where he left her. She's still lying in the dirt, crying out for him. She screams with agony and heartbreak. Her tears drip to the wet ground beneath her lifeless body. The real Bella Swan will always stay there; waiting until the day she can finally leave this loveless world of hers, and watch over her love in heaven for the rest of eternity.

How is he, Alice? I know that it's no use asking you questions when you are never even going to read them. I can only imagine how he is. I can only guess where he is and what he is doing. I sometimes imagine him happy and living with you all, enjoying life. At first, I am angry and wish for him to be just as broken as I am, but then I realize that I am wishing him in Hell, which is where I am. I would be wishing the person I love more than anybody the most heartbreaking pain imaginable, and I know that I could never live with him in pain. I hope that he is happy. He deserves happiness, even if he took away mine.

I sometimes wonder where you are now, what you are doing. There are so many questions swirling around in my mind, begging to be answered. Maybe it will help me to write them out. Since you are never going to see this, I'm not expecting you to answer any of them, I just want to get rid of them. Some may be to you, some to your brother; but most, I think, will be to you both.

Why did you leave me??? What did you think I'd do; forget about you instantly? Did you really think that I could give up on everything we had and just…move on?? You know that I love you more than anything in the world, right? Didn't you love me? Did you even love me the tiniest bit? If you did, you wouldn't have sentenced me to this hell. Isn't it true that if you loved me, you would have stayed and protected me from your so-called "danger," instead of running away and leaving me open to it and broken? I really want to hate you. It would be so much easier if I could just be angry with you and wish for you to never come back. It hurts far too much to love you and long for your return. Why did you do this to me? Why did you leave?

It doesn't feel much better, writing those questions out, because no one's ever going to answer them. No one is ever going to read these letters. You all are like distant memories to me now. You have taken away not only my love, but my memories of you. He took all of the pictures of us and the CDs he made for me. I have nothing left to remind me of you except the wound I got on my birthday, which is fading quickly. Soon, I will have nothing left of you except the blurry images of what we used to be; and what I used to be.

When I think back to those times, I realize how happy I was and how I was such a different person than what I am now. I say "what" because I really am not a living person anymore, so I don't really matter to the rest of the world…and to you. If you loved me, you would have stayed, Alice. I thought we were best friends! Why didn't you stay? If you really cared, you would have said that you'd stay and keep me from dying of heartbreak. I would've at least been a little better if you'd stayed. I don't want to take my hurt out on you, Alice, but there's no one else to yell at. I can't yell at Charlie because he's already hurting enough because of me. I can't go to anyone at school because they'd never understand what we had. There is no one who truly understood me except for you and your family. My whole life centered around you all and now I've been thrown out of orbit and I'm left flying through darkness, looking for the light.

Every day, I wish for your brother to come back to me. I am always looking around, searching for him to return, but he is never there. No one is ever going to be there; at least that's what I assume. He will never return to me, right Alice? If he were, you'd see it and tell him that it was the right thing to do. Then, he'd be here in an instant, but he's not, so I guess that means he isn't coming back. It would be like going to heaven if he came back to me. I can't even grasp what it would feel like, having my soulmate back. I can't even describe what it feels like to lose him, but I just know that it would make all of this pain go away, and that I'd be healed.

When you all left, you took a huge part of me with you. You took my happiness, you took my soul. And now, I am left alone, with my whole life stolen from me. You have all taken from me and left me to cry on the cold, wet ground with only my memories to keep me going. But one day, Alice, the memories aren't going to hold me together, and I'm going to break. I am going to finally let go, give in to the pain, and lose myself completely. I am holding onto the last tiny bit of Bella Swan inside of me and soon, she's going to be taken over by the darkness, and she will be dead. Forever.

With all the love I can give,

Bella.