Bella Swan couldn't believe she had almost died; for someone who just left her in the middle of the forest. She shivered lightly as Jacob drove her home. She knew that he was furious with her, and he had every right to be. His hand moved over towards her heater, and turned it on. He took a glance at her, and he let out a sigh. He was planning on yelling her, but after seeing her wounded look he softened his glare. "Bells..." he sighed, bringing her close to his body. She was ice cold and soaked to the bone. "Why couldn't you wait for me?" he whispered sadly. She had never seen him look so broken before. "You...you weren't trying to kill yourself were you?" he asked in a hoarse voice. She looked up at him, and shook her head.
"Jacob I'm so sorry," she managed to croak out. Tears flew out of her eyes, and Jacob frowned at that instant. He knew that she was just upset; he needed to let her know that things were going to be okay. He brought her closer and made calming shushing noises. "Jake...I don't know what's wrong with me...I don't want to be broken anymore. I don't want to freeze up every time the-," she took a calming deep breath, "the Cullens are mentioned," she felt the familiar pain in the gaping hole, but Jacob tightened his arm around her. She felt the pain fade away again, and it was then that she realized that how much Jacob helped her.
"I got you babe," he whispered, "we are going to talk late about what happened...but right now I am just so happy that you're alive. I could sing...which would make anyone's ears bleed," he said huskily as they came to a stop in front of her house. He held her and brushed her lips across her forehead. As his warm lips brushed against her forehead, she realized how much she truly did love the young man holding her. He has been there for her ever since Edward left her. She was prepared to feel the pain in her heart again, but when it didn't show it surprised her. As he pressed another gentle kiss to her forehead he murmured, "I know you don't feel the same about me as I do about you..." she managed to look up as he uttered those words. There was so much pain apparent in his eyes, it made her almost start crying again. She never realized how much she hurt him with all this; any other girl would have been smart enough to take a great man like Jacob. She took a deep breath; would it be that hard to reciprocate those same feelings for him? Before he could continue, she reached up and placed a hand on his shoulder to lift herself to his eye level. "Bells?" he questioned in a soft voice, wondering what was going on.
Confusion was written all over his face, and she moved her hand to his face. He gazed at her, wondering what she was trying to get at. Could she finally have seen that she actually did love him? Was the only woman he would ever love finally coming to him? He closed his eyes, hoping that this wasn't a dream, or that she was hallucinating or something. She knew she needed to move on, and Jacob truly loved her. He said up and down that he would never leave her. She needed something healthy and loving; just what he could provide. She closed her eyes and the first time ever, she initiated a kiss. He wasn't stoic like Edward was; he eagerly returned her kiss. His lips lovingly moved over hers, and he lightly placed his hand behind her head drawing her in closer. Finally they had to pull away, so they could both breathe. He rested his forehead against hers, wondering if he was dreaming. "Bella..." he whispered huskily, "that was....amazing," he pulled his head up lightly. "Where does this put us?" he questioned, hoping she wasn't seriously messing with his head.
"Jacob...I'm tired of being broken," she murmured. Before he could try and reassure her, she stopped him. "And I am tired of being a zombie...I'm hurting everyone around me," she felt tears in her eyes, "I know I don't deserve you, but if you will still have me..." she was about to say more, but Jacob's lips descended on to hers once again. He felt a leap of joy go throughout his entire body as her arms wrapped around his neck.
"Oh Bella...my Bells," he gasped in between kissing her mouth. As he kissed her; he didn't hold back or treat her like glass. He pulled away, and gave grinned the special grin just for her. He stopped and looked towards the house. Jacob thought that Charlie would be home soon; he should probably get Bella inside and warmed up. She pressed her body closer to his, not wanting to let go of him yet. "Bells...as much as I am loving this; we should probably get you inside to get warmed up," he suggested in a soft voice. She nodded her head, and just as he opened up the driver door, he smelt the stench of vampire; a scent all too familiar. "Vampire..." Jacob growled, slamming the door.
"Is....is it Victoria?" she questioned in a fearful tone.
"No..." his growl deepened, knowing that she knew who it could be.
"Jake..." she whispered, bringing her body closer to his again. "Drive....ok?" she questioned, settling herself into him, tearing off that last part of her addictive life. Jacob was shocked; she didn't even try to fight him...she was encouraging him to go. Even though she said that she wanted to leave, he couldn't help but snake his arm around her as he started to drive away from the Swan's house. Bella buried herself into Jacob's side, shivering lightly.
Feeling how cold she was, he crushed her closer to him. He hoped hat his body was warming hers up; he was also thinking if she meant it when she didn't want to be broken anymore. It seemed like she had been trying, but who knows? "Bella..." he murmured lightly, running a hand through her hair. She was barely awake. "You can go to sleep when you get to my house...I don't think its safe for you to be sleeping when you are like this..." she stirred and kept her eyes on the road in front of her. He wished that she would just say something. "Bells...I'm sorry," he murmured, he just wished that she could change back to who she was.
"What for?" she questioned softly.
"I just don't know what to do anymore...I can't seem to help you. Seeing you in this much pain all the time...I just hate seeing you like this," he breathed.
"No...Jake!" she cried suddenly, wrapping her arms around his waist. "Don't leave me too," she started to sob. He pulled into his garage, and fully pulled her into a tight embrace. He ran her hands up and down her back, making soft shushing noises.
"Bella...oh Bella," he murmured as he cradled her against him. "I would never ever leave you," he promised. He grabbed her face and pulled it up so she could look at him. "Isabella Marie Swan, I love you," she nodded through her tears. He kissed her quivering lips, and felt her respond. She was starting to look paler by the moment. "Come on...lets get you inside," he whispered. He carried her inside of the house, and pulled out a towel. He dried her off as best as he could, and then sat her down on his computer chair. As soon as she was settled, Jacob went into his dresser and pulled out the smallest clothes that he could find. Thankfully, he managed to keep some things before he wolfed out so they wouldn't be horribly big on Bella. "Here..." she gingerly took the clothes, and moved to the bathroom.
He knocked lightly on the door, and called out, "Hey Bella...I need to go and let the pack know that..." he wasn't sure how she would take hearing the Cullens name.
"I know...go warn them about the Cullens," she murmured, as she pulled on his clothes. She heard Jacob leaving his room. She sighed and opened up the door. She looked around and saw that he had pictures of him with his friends and the pack, and then saw pictures of him with her. Them as children, and then newer pictures of them together now. She saw how skinny and dead to the world she was. She then walked down to his bed, and laid down. She thought about Jacob Black as she closed her eyes. She knew that a part of her loved her best friend; she couldn't deny that to herself anymore.
Jacob walked back in and saw that Bella was on his bed, "Hey..." he murmured, pulling the sheets out from under her. He tucked her into bed, and just as he was pulling away she grabbed his hand. "Do you want me to stay here?" he questioned softly. She nodded her head, and he slowly laid down next to her. How long had he had dreamed for this moment? He shook his head; he couldn't think about that right now. She cuddled up next to him, and leaned her head on his chest. She could hear his heart beating steadily; it was definitely different than the cold and stoneless heart she was used to not hearing. "Its ok...relax," he murmured, running a and through her hair. She slowly calmed down, and felt herself dosing off.
"What about Charlie?" she questioned.
"He's staying with the Clearwaters tonight; he didn't want Sue to be alone," Jacob breathed; he was wondering how the Clearwater kids were. He then looked down at Bella, and saw she had a look of guilt in her eyes. "Bells..." he murmured, "you sure you are ok?" he asked, feeling a heaviness behind his eyes. He was exhausted; with his diligent in searching for Victoria. Bella was his whole entire life; he couldn't stand the thought of anything happening to her. While he was thinking, he tightened his arms around her. Bella knew that he was deep in thought; a part of her didn't want to disturb him, but she had to make sure that he would rest.
"I'm ok Jake..." she whispered in a soft voice, placing a hand on his face. "Please just give me some piece of mind and sleep a little bit?" she questioned with a yawn. He was extremely afraid that if he fell asleep that it would all just be a messed up nightmare.
"I...I just don't want this to be another dream," he admitted to her, "I just don't want to wake up alone again," he never thought that he would admit that to her.
"I promise that I won't leave Jake..." she murmured tiredly, "I am going to sleep now...just please sleep too...." she breathed in his earthy scent for a moment more and felt sleep overtake her. She was so comfortable in his arms, it was almost like heaven. Jacob felt the small body on top of him relax as she drifted back to sleep. He ran his hands through her long hair, and he started to close his eyes. He didn't want to sleep, but he did anyways.
Not sure where I am going to go with this fiction, but who knows? Thanks for those who read and review! Have a great day, and happy reading and writing!