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When I was 19 I told myself I couldn't hurt Alma like that, that we were just lonely up on Brokeback and that it was a one time thing.
When I was 23 I told myself it was only because all the excitement from seeing him for the first time in 4 years and I wasn't strong enough to control myself.
When I was 27 I told myself I couldn't abandon my family, I had obligations. That the townsfolk would never understand, that we would both be killed.
When I was 30 I told myself it was because I couldn't leave the girls, even though I only saw 'em once a month. That I couldn't go with him because my kids needed me home.
When I was 65 I told myself the truth. That I'd never gone with jack because I was scared. Scared of how I was feeling and more importantly why what I was feeling was for a man. That I really did love him. I told myself the reason I never went away with him was never 'cuz of jack... It was always because of me.