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disclaimer: I do not own Rurouni Kenshin or any of it's characters!

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Obsession

By: CedeBlues

Chapter: 1

I didn't understand how our relationship could turn out to be this way. He was not the man I fell in love with these years back. Right now he was everything I wish he wasn't. He's distant, possessive, and nonchalant. He claims that he loves me, but no matter how much he tells me he does, I don't believe him.

Our relationship wasn't what it used to be. I've left him before, he found me in no time. Maybe part of me wanted him to, so I could give him another chance. All I know is him, he won't let me be. What he thinks he feels for me is nothing but an illusion. It feels as if I've been tricked, made a fool of. I often wonder which is the real him, the one I'm with now, or the one I met those years back.

He would be home soon, that I knew.

I could feel my mouth being pulled into a thin line as I moved towards my bedroom, supposedly their bedroom. He was never home anyway, so it minus well me mine. I slowly sat myself in the couch planted against the wall.

I was leaving this time.

At that moment I felt his presence. I knew exactly what would happen once he came in here. With me and Kenshin, history liked to repeat itself.

He stood there in the doorway silently looking at me.

"I'm leaving," I spoke full of confidence.

His voice was tight and sharp.

"No your not leaving, you know I can't let you."

He really took me for a joke, in no time I was on my two feet.

"You can't tell me what I can and cant do! You don't control me!" I was so very angry with him.

"Even if you wanted to leave you couldn't, you need me just as much as I need you," he stated calmly. By this time, he was in my face.

"I do not need you."

That was all it took. He strode over to me and in response I backed up. Fear gripping in my chest from what he was going to say. He grabbed my shoulders and backed me into the wall. Putting his head in the crook of my neck.

"You don't mean it, you know that as well as I do. And if you really had wanted to get away from me, you would have done so a long time ago. Now look me in the eye and tell me you don't love me," he whispered, raising his head to look at me.

Look him in the eye and tell him I don't love him? Part of me wanted to say it to get him off my back, but another part of me couldn't because I loved him to much. All the love I have for him just can't disappear. No matter what he does I'll always love him. I thought it was best if I didn't say anything.

He gave me a moment to say it and when I didn't he went on.

"You know I'm trying to be here. You know that," he mumbled. Tears were beginning to form in my eyes. He saw this and his arms encircled around my waist and pulled me closer, while the other gently brushed the tears from my eyes.

"I love you," he said to me. He had looked me straight in the eyes when he said it. I knew he did, but the thing he did was driving me insane to the point where I was becoming unhappy. I didn't have to say it back, he knew that I did. He knew me better than I knew myself.

I broke eye contact with him and steadied my eyes on the carpet. He placed a gentle kiss on my left temple. Picking me up, he carried me over to our bed where he gently laid me down. I rolled over onto my stomach with him by my side, gently rubbing my back.

He looked so cute when he was asleep, just like a little boy. It was now or never. I managed to get dressed and pack without waking him, which was a miracle in my book. Now all I had to do was walk out the door. But for some reason my feet wouldn't lead me there. I could do this, I chanted to myself. I made it over to the door and was just about to open it when a rich voice stopped me.

"Where are you going?" The voice asked me.

"I'm leaving," I replied, my head slightly bowed. Once again I turned to leave when arms encircled me from behind.

"Stay with me...please?" He went on, "I'm trying, I'm trying baby," he whispered into my ear. Tears were forming in my eyes. I really thought I could do it this time.

"I deserve so much better, Kenshin...you treat me as if I mean nothing to you!" I told him, breaking from his embrace and turning to face him. "Your not the same anymore," I whimpered. He didn't reply. We stood there, silently looking at one another. "What now?" I asked him. I had two decisions, I could either leave or I could stay. But I was asking him what he wanted. "Do you truly want me to stay? Or is it time for you to realize that things aren't the same between us?"

Part of me suspected he was having an affair since he wasn't around as much. I was asking him if he was as unhappy with me as I was becoming with him. But he didn't say anything. I stood their waiting for his answer.

A/N: I decided to rewrite this chapter again...Yeah I know. I promise this is the last time I rewrite it. But in order to have this story heading in the direction I wanted it to I had to. Please Review!

Lubbz,

CedeBlues