short and simple. this just came to randomly so i wrote it down. if you cry very easily then i suggest you dont read this. it isnt 'burst into tears' kind of oneshot but the sadness is there.

Warning: angsty-ish

Why?

I can still remember it so well. Your smile, your smell, your touches... I remember it all. Every day I lay in my bed imagining you're there with me, whispering words of comfort and love like you always did. I wake up the every morning expecting to see you standing there with the smell of breakfast filling the air. As I get ready for school, I walk out of my room waiting to hear you shout at me to hurry up, but no words are heard. Nothing could replace you when you always walked next to me as we headed for school, your captivating voice talking about the dream you had last night but only silence accompanies me as I head out. How I wish I could hear your voice once more. Why can't I hear your voice any longer? Why is it so quiet by my side?

Of course it stays quiet... because you're not here; not here with me by my side like you promised. The incident continuously replays in my head like a repeating movie. The memory of it remains clear no matter how many days pass. The shine of the silver blade coated red with your blood as you move to protect me never leaves my mind. I still feel your grip when you hugged me close at that moment as I stood there frozen in fear. Your words echo in my ears from when you slowly collapsed onto the ground, your blood forming a puddle. The shock I felt then still remains and tears roll down my cheeks. Why couldn't I move? Why did you die instead of me?

The days pass and I start feeling myself becoming void of any emotion. The loneliness increases by the hour and my resolve becomes weaker. I try to our connection alive whenever I step onto that large court but it feels so empty now. Even the rest of the team can't bring back the feeling I felt when you were around. That thrilling and exciting feeling I felt whenever I played against you is gone.

Gone... Alone... No... I can't take anymore! Grabbing my pocketknife, I place it above my wrist. I can't move. I feel frozen. Why? Why can't I cut myself? It feels as though something is preventing me from doing so. It feels like... you're here with me now. You... Is it you that is stopping me? I miss you so much! Your smile, voice, smell, touches; I miss it all! I wish I could have saved you. It's too painful to go on without you here. Every day it gets lonelier and lonelier as if my heart is breaking more and more beyond repair. Why won't you let me join you? Why does it feel like you're stopping me? Shuusuke!

Ryoma, you must reach the top like you promised. I love you and I want you to live your dream to the fullest. Don't worry. I promised, right? I'm here. I'm always going to be with you. Always...

gomen I kinda killed Shuu-kun off-_-

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