This is told off of my true story, so if you don't like it, then please don't flame it. It contains light shonen-ai, and if you don't like that, then press the back arrow.

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The days I spent with him were the best. They were literally the best days of my life. But it ended all too soon. Forever didn't last as long as I thought it would.

He was my best friend, my brother. But he was also something more. He was my soulmate. Or, at least, he thought he was. He knew all of my secrets. There was nothing he didn't know. He knew what my parents divorce did to me. He knew I starved myself because I thought I was fat. He even knew my darkest secret. The secret that no one else knew; the secret that I cut myself to escape my pain.

But even though he knew all this, he still left me during the time that I needed him the most. And after he left, I started cutting even more than I had in the past. I began to think that life wasn't worth it, that the world would be better off without me. I came close to ending it all many times. But one thing kept me alive. Him. I was afraid that if I killed myself, I would never see him again. And that kept me from taking those pills, of from cutting too deep. He kept me alive, even though he wished me gone. The day he said he didn't care if I lived or died was my darkest day. I truly believed him. I was so close to ending it all that day. I was so depressed that someone noticed, someone who cared about me. They brought me to some specialists who put me in therapy. Yes, you heard me right. Therapy. It actually helped some, surprisingly. I slowly got better and happier. But I still couldn't forget about him. I began dreaming about him, every night. I just couldn't let him go. He stopped talking to me, whenever we saw each other. He also became best friends with a person who had betrayed me before. Damn that Moyashi! But still, it hurt to see that I had been replaced in his heart. I was no longer the person he turned to when he was struggling. I was no longer the person he loved. But I accepted all this and I tried to move on. But I couldn't stop dreaming and thinking about him. I just loved him too much. But I let him go. And so now I wait, to see if he comes back to me. But I feel that he should know, that I still love you, Lavi.

Love, Kanda

"End"

I've told you I'm sorry,

For everything I've done.

What else do you want from me?

Do you really want me gone?

What else did I do?

'Cause every-time you turn away.

I honsetly have no clue,

Of what I do everyday.

I've asked for forgiveness,

Which you never seem to give.

So my tears fall in sadness,

And I find it hard to live.

Everything used to be fun,

But now, it's hate filled days.

I don't know what I've done,

To push you so far away.

All I need

Is just one clue.

But I bleed

Instead of helping you.

It's my only escape,

From the pain that I feel,

From the pain of your hate.

Why won't my wounds heal?

I only know, how to cut,

To escape my pain.

I try to stop my tears, but,

They still fall like rain.

I've done all I could,

To try to be your friend.

I can't go on like I should,

So why can't it be the end?